Amy's POV:

Life is not as simple as people make it seem. I laid in my bed, staring at my ceiling trying to figure out where am I going with my life. I turned onto my side and stared at the clock. 12:40 am. I never get sleep these days. My thoughts are the reason for that.

Love, love, love. What is it good for? Absolutely nothing. If love was so precious and wonderful then why am I laying here by myself with the thoughts of HER polluting my mind? Love is overrated. Plain and simple.

I didn't ask to fall in love. I didn't want to fall for my best friend the way that I did and screw things up between us, but then again I tend to fuck up everything I touch. Love is very strange and mysterious. It makes you do crazy things. I've done way too much for this girl. Here I am still haunted by the thoughts of love when all I have to do is turn it off. That's the thing though, that's what makes love different from every other emotion in the human body, you can't turn it off. Have I tried to get over her? Of course. That's what I have been trying to do for the past few days but all I end up doing is sleeping it off. I sleep not because I am tired but because I am trying to forget everything. It is the only time where I feel...well nothing. My dreams are full of things that could happen, things that I want to happen, and things that should had happened. Now I am laying here, lost in translation between what is fantasy and reality.

*Ding Ding*

Great. Here we go…

Karma: Are you up? That's a dumbass question to ask considering that I am always up don't you think? Let me not be rude…

Amy: Yes. What's up?

*Ding Ding*

Karma: I wanna talk. Open your door. You've got to be fucking kidding me. I hate when she does this. Randomly pops up at my door in the early morning just to "talk." Who says I want to talk? Let me stop lying to myself. I love when she does outrageous things like this…

I went downstairs and opened the door. There she was. Standing in all her glory. The moonlight hitting certain spots that made her look like a goddess. Karma gave me her signature side smile. I sighed and stepped to the side so she could come in. Why do I let her have this strong hold on me? I really could just cut her off but instead I am like some love sick puppy just trying to please it's master. This is bullshit.

"So...what is it you'll like to talk about? It has to be really bothering you if you decided to walk down two blocks at one in the morning just so you can get whatever it is off your mind…" She just looked at me for a few moments. I noticed her eyes had sadness in them while her face had a blank expression. I know Karma too well. I know her so well that I have a general idea what this "talk" is going to be about.

"Well…" She began. And here we fucking go...

"I just...I've been thinking about you and...how you feel…" Not this shit again…

"And? I told you, Karms, there is nothing to worry about. It will not affect our friendship at all." I'm fucking lying…

"I know, but...I still think we should talk things through. It's must not be easy for you to be...in love with me and I cannot return the feelings…" Ya think?

"Karms, there is nothing to talk about. I am fine. I swear. If my feelings become a problem for me, you know I will try to talk and express them to you before lashing out like some maniac." There I go lying again...I definitely have become a huge liar these days...but then again I just want her to let this go.

"Aims, I know you. I know this is not easy for you. This is your first love. And...I am deeply honored that it is me. I really am. I couldn't ask for anyone else to love me the way that you love me. I don't think anyone in my life ever will love me the way that you do. Maybe one day, I could return this feeling. I cannot predict the future. You just have to give me time to figure things out, okay?" Typical Karma. Switching the conversation from being about me and my feelings to her. I swear she's so self centered…

"You don't know me as well as you think Karms…" I gently whispered. Inside my head I replayed everything that has happened to us in the past few months. This is not my fault...this is definitely not my fault. I am the one who needs time…

"You're probably right. Lately I haven't been much of a best friend. I haven't even noticed how much this has most likely changed you. I promise I will do better. I promise." Karma walked over to me. She pushed my hair behind my ear before giving me a kiss on the cheek and a hug. I just barely hugged back. I felt broken. I could feel myself shutting down completely. Kamra pulled away after a few moments. I immediately missed the warmth her body gave. She gave me another smile before opening the front door. I watched her and she walked down my driveway and into the direction of her house. I swear this girl has a spell on me.

I walked up the stairs with a lot on my mind. I immediately felt tired. Not physically but emotionally and mentally. This has all taken an unhealthy toll on my body. I opened my door and laid down on my bed.

I looked at the clock again, it was 1:10 am. Today was Saturday. I immediately got up and started to get dress. I didn't know where I was going but I was determine to get out of this house. I did not want to be here any longer. I grabbed my phone and was out the door by 1:25.

The music vibrated through my body. I looked around me. The people were in bright colors. Body paint was glowing on their bodies thanks to the black light. Somehow, I ended up at a rave. The atmosphere was different from what I was use to. For some reason I felt...welcomed. I walked around the place and explored the people. The music was good, the vibe was amazing, the people were friendly, to be honest I felt right at home. I went to the bar and grabbed a drink. Of course they didn't check IDs here. It was sweet with a small kick to it. I didn't want to drink too much so I could drive myself home. I took another drink from my cup and asked the bartender for another one. I sat at the bar, vibing to the music when I felt a person sit next to me. I turned my head. It was a girl. She had brown hair with bluish, green eyes. She smiled at me. She had a lot of make-up on but it wasn't too much that it took away from her beauty. She winked at me. She ordered a drink and when the bartender brought hers and mine to us, she took the fruit that was attached to my cup. She sucked on it a little to get all the juice and alcohol before popping it in her mouth. She blew me a kiss. I was in such a trance that didn't know exactly how to respond. There was something about this girl that had me...hooked. She held out her hand.

"Toni. Toni Sparks." I shook her hand. She turned to the bartender.

"Hey make sure her glass is never empty while she's here." The bartender nodded.

"Umm...I can't drink much. I drove here…" She put a finger up to my mouth to hush me.

"Don't worry, I'll take care of you. You look like you need a drink. Lucky for you, happiness is just a glass away." Toni winked at me again. She turned to walk away. I grabbed her arm.

"Wait, you didn't catch my name...you don't even know me." She gave me a small smile.

"Don't worry, I will catch it by the end of the night. When you're done, come find me. That's when the real party will begin." She slipped into the crowd of people as swiftly as she came. I blinked a few times to make sure I wasn't dreaming. When I turned back to my drink, it was refilled again. I stared at it for a few minutes. I shouldn't be drinking… Stop being a baby and drink bitch! Fuck it. I downed the drink and waved for the waiter to bring me another. I needed to get wasted.

About 6 cups later, I stumbled onto the dance floor. The music was louder than I thought. I felt my phone go off in my pocket. It was almost three in the morning. Karma's face popped up on my screen. I ignored the call. I immediately looked at my notifications. I had 6 missed calls and 10 text messages from Karma. I looked at them. She apparently went back to my house and found that I was gone and wanted to know where I was. I put my phone back in my pocket. She'll be alright. I'll talk to her when I get home. I felt someone behind me. Then I felt their hot breath tickle my skin.

"Are you ready to have a little fun blondie?" The alcohol was slowly taking it's affect on me. I nodded my head. I recognize the voice. It was Toni. She handed me a glass object. I tried to focus on it through my blurry, drunk vision. It looked like a bong.

"I don't do drugs." I said to Toni. She grinned mischievously.

"Are you scared blondie? I thought you wanted to have some fun?" She was mocking me in a way. I felt myself rock back and forth, slowly losing my balance from the alcohol. I took a hit from the bong and instantly felt relaxed. Toni smiled at me and I felt myself smile back. For what seems like forever I felt the whole world move around me in slow motion. I danced to the music. Toni finally learned my name. I kissed her and the next thing I knew it we were making out behind the scenes of the DJ. The night was far from over in my mind. For those few hours, I forgot who I was. I forgot all my troubles. Things were finally making sense. Then again I was high and drunk...I honestly felt nothing…

I abruptly woke up. I looked around me. I was in my room again. I felt the massive headache instantly come upon me. Was I hung over? I looked around the room. I grabbed my phone. It still said 6 missed calls and 11 text messages. Wait, 11? I checked my messages. Ten were obviously from Karma but one of the messages was not. It was from a foreign number. I opened the message and my eyes grew wide.

It wasn't a dream blondie. I'll see you soon. When you want to have some fun, just hit up my line. I'll take you off Karma's hands.