W H A T H U R T S T H E M O S T

Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts or anything else. Period.

Summary: After a nasty breakup, Kairi has a breakdown. She decides that it is her goal to win Roxas back. But how can she achieve that goal when he is with another girl? A girl that is p e r f e c t for him. Things just got a whole lot harder.

W H A T H U R T S T H E M O S T

Prologue (EDITED)

Fear.

Worry.

Rage.

Shock.

Betrayal.

All these emotions swelled up inside of me, I think I might have exploded. I sat in the open area of the famous Paopu Park, hopelessly. I had so many questions running through my mind, each of them without an answer or an answer that elluded me.

What had just happened?

What did I do?

What did he mean by "The spark that was between us was put out"?

What's going to happen now?

So many questions, very little answers. I sighed. I continued to sit in the grassy area by the children's playground, doing my best to avoid the stares I was receiving from the kids and their guardians that passed by. I felt fresh, hot tears form in my eyes, begging unceasingly to be released.

But I couldn't cry. Not in the condition I was in. I over-cried myself, and if I tried to release the tears, I wouldn't be able to. It's like, you're trapped inside a cage, and you have the key to the lock, but when you try to free yourself, you can't.

I know, it's a weird way to describe it, but I don't think there's another way. But that's not the only reason why I can't cry.

About half an hour ago, I lost the most important thing in my life.

Roxas.

Just saying his name, or even thinking about his name was painful. It was so painful that I had the urge to jump off a cliff and die. But, I have so many things to take care of. If I die, who'll take care of my younger sister, Garnet?

I mean, sure, my older twins, Xion and Yuffie, can take care of her, but Xion's off in college on the other side of town, and Yuffie is hosting Ninja Camp in Twilight Town.

No.

I wasn't going to die just because he broke my heart. This is all too much. I'm thinking about suicide, and him, while I should be processing the scene that had happened before my very own violet-blue eyes.

Roxas, my long-time boyfriend, and I were walking by the duck pond, holding hands. I felt like I was the happiest girl alive, just seeing his face was enough to lighten my spirit for eternity. Had I realized that in a few minutes, all that happyness inside of me would burn in an inferno, full of misery and depression.

We stopped midway through our trek to watch the smaller kids feed the ducks, and then we continued to walk. We walked past the dog area, through the picnic area, and then we arrived at the children's playground. Halfway through, he came to an instant halt, making me stumble a bit, as I wasn't expecting that. He looked down at the grass, before looking back at me with a worried look on his face.

I titled my head a bit, waiting for him to speak. He didn't speak, though. The aura that I felt around him, it wasn't the friendly aura I was used to. It felt a lot more, unsteady and dangerous. When I felt the aura darken more, I had a sudden premonition that our date would be ending soon. After about a minute of silence, he spoke with a hint of worry in his voice.

"Kairi, we need to talk."

Those words; they meant trouble. I didn't like those words. No one does. Never in my life, have I ever heard those words come out of Roxas' mouth. Not once. Fear soon took over me as his eyes darkened just a bit. I took a step back, and in response, he took a step foward.

"Kairi, we need to talk." Roxas repeated once more. His hand reached out for mine, but I slapped his hand away and took a few steps back. He did the same as before and walked towards me. "What about?" I asked with a hint of fear in my voice. He looked up to the sky for about ten seconds before returning his attention to my shaking body, frowning slightly.

"About us. Kairi, I know this is going to strike you hard, but... I think it's time we see other people."

Not those words. I recognized these words. Those were the exact same words that came out during a break-up. All my friends have had their break-ups, and we'd eat ice-cream while watching movies where the males break up with their girlfriends, and the females would cry and then strike back at the end. I've watched so many break-up movies that I know that exact phrase by heart.

But, was he really going to go along with this? I didn't think so at the time. But he did. And I knew, without a doubt, that he wasn't turning back anytime soon.

"Kairi, I'm breaking up with you."

There. You heard, right? Those words. That's when I felt the hot tears that had already formed, stream down my face endlessly. Suddenly, the atmopshere around me seemed to have gotten colder, and I had chosen the wrong day to wear my favorite pink dress with the many zippers, not to mention that I was also in a white tank top.

I had already seen this coming when he said "Kairi, we need to talk", but I didn't expect it to hit me so hard. So hard that it made me stagger a bit, before I became unsteady again and had to lean against a tree for support. Roxas picked a lavender-petalled flower from the ground, and handed it to me. And out of rage, I snatched it from his hands, and stomped on it ferociously. I lost my balance once more, but I quickly caught my balance once more, though I still needed the tree's support.

After I stepped on the innocent flower, I promised myself that I would never, ever do that to any flower ever again. I turned my attention back to Roxas, who took a step back.

"I'm sorry, Kai." He mumbled, sheepishly. Some of the parents, teens, and kids already had their attention on us, which would explain why his face turned a light shade of red. And he should have been embarrassed because there's a lot more coming. But, at the moment, I really didn't care if he was embarrassed or not, I just wanted him to tell me it was all a joke, but those words never came out of his mouth.

Not once.

"Sorry doesn't cut it, Roxas." I replied harshly, before whipping my head around so that I was no longer looking at him, but at the mashed flower that I had rudely stomped on, "and don't call me 'Kai'."

"Kairi..." He mumbled once more, as he reached out to touch my arm.

"Don't touch me!" I yelled with rage, turning my attention from the flower I stomped on, to his face that read GUILT. He didn't have the right to touch me. Especially in the mood that I was in. But he grabbed both my arms and yanked me towards him. It wasn't the soft and gentle touch, but the rough and firm touch.

"L-let me go, you jerk!" I struggled to find my way out of his grasp, but I failed miserably. I already felt fresh tears forming again, and I released them as I closed my eyes, telling myself that this was all a dream and none of this is happening. Too bad it wasn't a dream. It was reality. "Not until you hear me out." He said through gritted teeth, trying hard to keep me in his grasp. I shook my head and tried to release myself once more, only to have his grasp harden. I yelped in pain.

"Roxas, that hurts!"

His grasp on my arms hardened, but then softened when he realized that he was hurting me without intentially meaning to. He cupped my left cheek gently and wiped away the tears that continued to stream unceasingly.

"Kairi, I'm sorry." I mumbled something, but he didn't quite catch it. He pulled me closer and gave me a long, warm embrace. I sobbed into his shirt, not caring that I was getting it wet. "I'm sorry, Kai. I didn't mean to. But, hear me out, please?" I stayed quiet and continued to sob quietly. He sighed and continued anyway.

"I really didn't think it would hurt you this much, but, I thought it was our time to part... I met someone else about a two weeks ago. She understands me perfectly. You and I, we had much in common, but she just, I feel like we're perfectly matched. When I first started dating you, I felt chemistry. But now, I feel like the spark between us was put out. I took a few days to decide that maybe, we should see other people. I'm sure that there are plenty of other fish in the sea." He said, gently stroking my hair. I continued to sob quietly into his now-wet shirt.

I had the urge to slap his hand away, and slam him into a building or push him off a cliff, or anything, but I decided against it. This would probably be the very last time that I would feel his gentle touch. To be in his arms. To hear his soft voice.

And then he started eyeing some slutty brunette girl that walked past him, which pissed me off to no end. That's when I snapped and broke free from his grasp. And then I did something that he hadn't seen coming.

I slapped him. HARD.

I used all of my strength to make sure that I left a mark that read 'Kairi slapped him hard right here and she never wants to see his sorry ass EVER again'. And I did. There was a dark bruise from his cheek that almost reached his dull eyes. He stumbled back a bit, and for the first time, I thought that I actually saw rage in his eyes as he reached up to touch his cheek.

And I also said something that I never thought would be coming out of my own mouth.

"Roxas Strife, I hate you! And I never want to see your sorry ass ever again!" I yelled once more, angrier than before. This attracted the attention of several people at the park. And with that said, he quietly murmured "Watashi wa, Kairinode, moshiwake arimasen. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me."

I blinked in response. With a depressing smile, he slowly nodded and left the park. And after several minutes of sobbing and picking the petals off of flowers, I had realized something.

I had just lost the best thing that had ever happened to me.

Roxas

I guess nothing really does last forever.

But, there's no time to cry myself out again over a breakup. If I learned anything from those cliche break-up movies I've watched, it's that there's no time for crying, because in the end, the girl always wins. And with a confident and gallant expression on my face, I wiped the remaining tears from my face, and stood up from the ground. I finally knew what I was going to do.

So watch out, Roxas Strife. You may have thought that making me cry was one thing, but there's another thing coming your way.

Revenge

A/N: So, how was it? Good? Bad? So-so? Should I continue?

I have no idea to why I actually posted this. I know it might seem rushed at some points, but I had some things to attend to. This is unbetated, so yeah, if you find any mistakes, please point them out and I will fix them! :) So, uh, this is only the beginning, and there will be more. There is still plenty to come. And the characters are around the ages of 18-21, so I might have some adult themes later on, but for now, it's rated T. Just a little warning, though there won't be much smut, as some people don't like reading lemons.

I hope you enjoyed reading the prologue, and I hope you look forward to more. Reviews are deeply appreciated, and if you have any questions, comments, feel free to PM me. Again, thank you for reading and I hope you look forward to chapter 1. :)

-R o x a s L u v s C o ok i es :3