AUTHORS NOTE: HEY Everyone, I hope you enjoy my new story. This is not based off of the song Just A Dream, I just used the title. This is a Mitchsen fan fiction. AND I WOULD JUST LIKE TO APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE FOR THIS BEING SUCH A SHORT FIRST CHAPTER. I hope you enjoy.

P.S The parts in italics are the dreams and the parts in BOLD are triggering.

(BECA'S P.O.V)

I let out a content sigh, as I cuddled into my girlfriend. I would never admit this to anyone else, but I loved cuddling. I gently rested my head onto her chest as she wrapped her arms around me pulling me closer.

I looked up at her from my position and she smiled. The way she was looking at me made me melt into her. She looked at me with such love in her eyes.

Like I was the only one.

I slowly moved myself up and gave her a light kiss on the lips. God, it felt so good to kiss her. Her lips gently brushed against mine making me feel weak at the knees. Thank goodness I was laying down or I would have been a pile of mush.

She gently pulled away and kissed my forehead. "I love you Beca."

Just way she said that made me swoon. Her voice was filled with love.

"I love you too Aubrey" I leaned up and gave her a kiss on the cheek and rested my head on her chest again.

I felt her hands slowly go under my shirt and she began tracing patterns on my back. Her touch making me shudder.

I felt my eye lids growing heavier. I couldn't help but almost fall asleep. Laying here with Aubrey was so comfortable and you couldn't help but just melt into her touch.

"Go ahead Beca, just fall asleep. I tell that you're tired."

After hearing her say that I just snuggled in closer to her, breathing in her scent.

I was almost asleep again but suddenly there was this loud burst of music and I immediately woke up.

I looked around my bed to see if Aubrey was there and she wasn't. I was alone in my dorm room.

It had all been just a dream.

That's all they ever where and ever will be.

Aubrey is captain of the Bella's and a good friend of mine. But that is all that we will be. Nothing more.

She doesn't see me the way I see her. She doesn't have the same feelings that I do.

I know I should just except the fact that Aubrey and I will never be. But I can't. It also doesn't help that I keep having theses dreams about her every time I fall asleep.

The dreams are usually about Aubrey and I getting together or is being on a date.

And for some reason, when I wake up, I feel a little bit of hope inside me that when I open my eyes or turn around, she will be there.

But she never is.

To say that all of this hurts, is an understatement.

These dreams I have about us together are having a strong impact on my life. Recently I have started to develop some very unhealthy habits.

I haven't been able to eat or sleep lately, which results in me staying up and thinking. But to much thinking leads to overthinking and that is where all of my insecurities come out. I suddenly begin to feel worthless and that I don't mean anything to anyone. Sometimes I would either just lay there and cry, or I would go to the shower and well... you know, I would cut.

I know that this is all really bad for me. I have definitely lost weight. I am starting to develop dark bags under my eyes. And I have way to many scars on my wrist.

But do you know what made this whole thing hurt a lot more?

No one noticed. No one noticed my mood change, no one noticed my physical appearance. Why I always this bad looking? Did I always act this depressed?

I had no idea. I had began to distance my self from the Bella's so I couldn't talk to anyone anyways.

But this while situation sucked.

And it's all just because of these stupid dreams.

I looked down at my phone to see what time it was and it was about 2:38 p.m. About 22 minutes until the Bella's practice.

I got ready and left for practice. I was hoping that in the walk over I would just forget about the dream and my feelings for Aubrey, and that everything between us would be normal.

But of course, that was not the case.