why the hell am i still writing angst? its hard for me to write fluff _

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Your hands feel too cold

To be cradled within mines

And, to believe, it hurts.

The past won't let go

An ugly scar won't fade

So I'll never forget.

This endless silence

separating you and me

seems like a living death.

But it is true

You don't care

if I'm gone or not

but what you do care

is not me at all.

Winter is cold and I dream.

I dream of things.

I dream of you

being my prince charming.

Here I am

Waiting, constantly waiting for you.

But look you're with her. not me.

I trusted you and your choice.

And i always thought your choice

would come back to me.

You're all over my mind

I can't bear it anymore.

Besides I need the closure

and I need the release.

So I cut myself.

It's ten years later,

And it's still like this

Tsuna's dead

And Byakuran's alive.

So I think

Why don't I just give up now

Since I'm the head of Vongola.

It be better when I gone

and you're with her.

Yet still,

You manage to be captured by Byakuran with her.

And that's good for me

because I will end this for good.

I come and I save both of you.

"Haru, take him to a far place. As far as you can go. NOW."

"Hai, Gokudera-san"

Then I face Byakuran and say

"Get it over with Byakuran..."

"Alrighty. Give my regards to Tsunayoshi-kun for me."

Smirk

"Yeah..."

And as I wait

I turn back to the events in the past

and think "Wow.. I think it was really better then."

So he shoots.

And I'm falling slowly into the abyss.

Goodbye, Yamamoto Takeshi

and May You Live On Happily.

3rd person

His body was sent back to the Vongola Mansion a few days what really surprised them was How. How did Gokudera manage to die? Of course it was a big shocker to the other guardians but was it really a shocker to Yamamoto? No of course not. It never would be.

It was a sunny day on the day of his funeral. His funeral was massively attended to. Many people came and payed their respects to the Smokin'- Bomb Hayato. Even his father's family came to his funeral.

His tombstone read:

Hayato Gokudera

Right-hand man of the Vongola Decimo

A well respected man

but to those who knew him well,

he was a man a great knowledge, bravery, and courage.

We will miss him.

In the end, Yamamoto married Haru and was really happy with her. They had 2 kids. And Yamamoto would never know how Gokudera felt about him.

it was raining in cali =)

but its freezing cold~ personally i think it doesn't make sense at all. my friend who i usually beta for is busy to do mines Dx

sadly I'm writing another angsty/tragedy fic about our lovely 8059 D:

yamamo-channnn~~ when will you appear?

amano-sensei what happened to yama? D:

reviews are greatly appreciated. =)

susan: if you're reading this, only 2 more months and we can start writing and editing again~~~~~

review might help to warm me up ( xD so cheesy)