It used to be perfect… we used to be perfect. But I see you stealing a quick glance at him when you think I'm not looking, I can practically see your heart beating for him.

I'm not an idiot.

But I want you so badly! Every day, I see you with him, and I hate you for it. I hate you, but I can't stop loving you.

Squirrelflight… Squirrelflight… can't you see how much I love you? How much I need you? I need you like the blood that pumps through my veins, like the air I breathe.

Maybe, if you see how much I need you…

Do you see my blood? See how much it NEEDS you? See how much I need you?

I keep cutting. Cutting and cutting, but I feel nothing. You scream and yowl and cry, but nothing can make me stop. Not once I've started. We are alone; no one can save us now.

I tell you to look at it. To see my blood, see my heart, how it beats for you. I tear off the fur on my chest, rip off the skin, staining my paws and your face red. Do you see my heart, Squirrelflight? DO YOU SEE IT?

Maybe you can't. You stare at me with those big eyes, begging and pleading me to stop. But I'm still ripping, tearing away more and more flesh. My claws scrape on bones, my bones, but I can't stop.

I'm soon out of skin. I stand there, blood flowing from my chest, and I lean back on my haunches so you can see what I've done. Do you see it now? You sob, choking out a yes, and then you beg for me to stop again. Such annoying sounds.

Suddenly I can't stand to look at you anymore. The blood still on your face, starting to dry now. My blood. I want it back. Give it back! Give back all the pain you've caused me, all the heartache, all the nights I've cried myself to sleep.

I can't look at you for another second! I raise my paw to my eyes, and recognition dawns in yours. You don't know.

I cut a light hole around my first pesky eye, just enough to draw blood a bit. It's amazing I still have any left.

You try to leap at me, stop me from doing what I'm doing. Too late for that now. In one swift movement, I sink my claws into my eye, digging it out. Pulling until it comes out, and I can see it roll onto the ground. Blood is pouring down my face now, and I'm starting to feel tired. What I wouldn't give to just fall asleep now, escape this.

And I see it all now. With my one eye, I see what I've done, and my body explodes in pain. I scream and writhe on the ground. I can feel the pain now… but can you feel it?

I must finish what I've started. You're at my side now, trying to hold me down, hold back my claws, but I still can't look at you, especially this close. I feel the pain as I rip out my other eye, but I don't care. I CAN'T LOOK AT YOU ANYMORE.

I feel my blood flowing, seeping into the earth. I feel the life draining out of me… the pain is unbearable.

"Kill me…" I moan. I have no idea if you're still there. I can't stand it anymore… I raise a paw feebly; reach into my chest, through my ribs, through the hole I made in my chest. I can feel my heart… thump, thump… it's slow, but still beating. It has to stop beating. Can you see it now? Can you see it as I rip it out of my chest? My head thuds onto the ground.

CAN YOU SEE IT NOW?

Wasn't that fun? :3 I wrote this a few months back on dA when I still liked Warriors, so... sorry for the spam ^^"