Dear Father
I am a man now. Something you can never say you were. I have not been married, never had children.
I was always too
afraid I would be you. I am a bitter person. I hold grudges forever, I live
in the past
to afraid to see my future. I loved you. Mother loved you. Why did you do
that to us? I knew what you did to mother, I dont think she ever knew the
things you did to me. All I ever wanted was your love. I even
accepted the sick twisted love you returned to me. I never knew it was wrong.
Not until I started Hogwarts, when they tell you those things are wrong. I
was shocked. All the things you did....the pain. The drunken
nights you came to my room, after hurting mother. You kept my up for hours
playing your sick games. But I wanted you attention, so I accepted it. You
ruined me, father. I could never love anyone, after what you did
to me. You tore away my innocence for your cheap pleasure. I was never good
enough for you, though. I
took the beating anyway. I accepted it all. Because I trusted you. I always
thought you were right. I never
had close friends, afraid they would hurt me. You hurt me. You broke my
heart when you told me I was worthless. You said you could never love a
faggot like me. I DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU! Even when
I knew what you did was wrong, even when people noticed I flinched from the
slightest touch, I never told. I havnt told anyone. Not even Dumbledor. I
could trust hi, I know, but I can never bring myself to tell him. I find my
self leaving my quarters, on the way to his office. i could be turning the
door handle, and I would stop and go back to my room. I can never tell
them. I am the potions master, did you know that?
You said I would never be anything. I know over 7 thousand different poisons,
and could brew them blind folded. All the ways I could have killed you when
I was younger, I could have freed mother and I. But I never did, because
I loved you. I loved you and you hurt me. Why father, why? Why did you hate
me so
much. What did I do wrong? How the fuck could you do that to your own
son? You are a sick twisted bastard!! But I still loved you. You taught me
to never tell. No matter how I felt, never tell anyone. I still have problems opening up to anyone, and i cant have a stable relationship. I am a bitter old man all because you broke em. You broke a little boy who could have done anything with his life. I loved you, for gods sakes! maybe I will never know why you did it to me, maybe your father was like that, but I promise to
never repeat the cycle. The sadest thing father, is that even though
you you ruined me, I forgive you. I forgive you for beating me, for rapeing
me, and for doing these to my mother. Because I know she would have forgivin
you, if she was alive. Father, I loved you.
Sincerly
Your son,
Proffeser Severus Snape
I am a man now. Something you can never say you were. I have not been married, never had children.
I was always too
afraid I would be you. I am a bitter person. I hold grudges forever, I live
in the past
to afraid to see my future. I loved you. Mother loved you. Why did you do
that to us? I knew what you did to mother, I dont think she ever knew the
things you did to me. All I ever wanted was your love. I even
accepted the sick twisted love you returned to me. I never knew it was wrong.
Not until I started Hogwarts, when they tell you those things are wrong. I
was shocked. All the things you did....the pain. The drunken
nights you came to my room, after hurting mother. You kept my up for hours
playing your sick games. But I wanted you attention, so I accepted it. You
ruined me, father. I could never love anyone, after what you did
to me. You tore away my innocence for your cheap pleasure. I was never good
enough for you, though. I
took the beating anyway. I accepted it all. Because I trusted you. I always
thought you were right. I never
had close friends, afraid they would hurt me. You hurt me. You broke my
heart when you told me I was worthless. You said you could never love a
faggot like me. I DID EVERYTHING FOR YOU! Even when
I knew what you did was wrong, even when people noticed I flinched from the
slightest touch, I never told. I havnt told anyone. Not even Dumbledor. I
could trust hi, I know, but I can never bring myself to tell him. I find my
self leaving my quarters, on the way to his office. i could be turning the
door handle, and I would stop and go back to my room. I can never tell
them. I am the potions master, did you know that?
You said I would never be anything. I know over 7 thousand different poisons,
and could brew them blind folded. All the ways I could have killed you when
I was younger, I could have freed mother and I. But I never did, because
I loved you. I loved you and you hurt me. Why father, why? Why did you hate
me so
much. What did I do wrong? How the fuck could you do that to your own
son? You are a sick twisted bastard!! But I still loved you. You taught me
to never tell. No matter how I felt, never tell anyone. I still have problems opening up to anyone, and i cant have a stable relationship. I am a bitter old man all because you broke em. You broke a little boy who could have done anything with his life. I loved you, for gods sakes! maybe I will never know why you did it to me, maybe your father was like that, but I promise to
never repeat the cycle. The sadest thing father, is that even though
you you ruined me, I forgive you. I forgive you for beating me, for rapeing
me, and for doing these to my mother. Because I know she would have forgivin
you, if she was alive. Father, I loved you.
Sincerly
Your son,
Proffeser Severus Snape