I based this story off of movies and stories and mixed them together, I hope it's ok.
Speechless
The world is definitely not my friend these past few years of my horrible life. My mom is moved on to a better(worse) husband, and my dad could care less about my feelings at this point. My sister Darcy is dead and gone, and my ste-brother (ex-love-of-my-life), Jake has taken an interest, fully in my ex-best friend Alli. And noone will sit down and listen to my screaming heart. So I figured I should silence it... indefinetly (forever).
That's why today I'm on this roof of Degrassi Community School, ready to get "better". Everyone is happy now and noone cares about little St. Clare anymore. And you know what? I wish nothing but the best for them too. Even though I'm forgotten and out of their minds, I'm not going to stop wishing I didn't do what I did and that I was still in their lives some way and some how. Eli is dating Imogen now and they do everything together, everyday they spend an hour away from each and that's includiing before, during, and after school. And he couldn't be happier, at least that's he shows me. I remember last week when I asked him for a pencil:
FLASHBACK...
I was writing gathering my notes in Chemistry class and I accidently scooted when I my pencil off the edge of the desk when I moved my arm. Landed by Eli's desk so took a deep breath and lightly tapped him on the shoulder.
"I hope you have an excellent reason for bothering me." he said coldy, that it sent shivers down my spine, and not the good kind. "Because as you can see, I'm pretty busy." He told me while looking at Imogen; who was sitting beside him.
"I just wanted you to pick up my pencil." I whispered. He looked at me with this cold stare and even colder smirk and said. "What, St. Clare can't say please anymore?"
Hoping that his smirk would disappear but instead it grew wider when I told him "Maybe I'm not a Saint anymore..." "I believe you're right" he told me and picked up my pencil as if their was a contagious disease on it. "Here" he said disgusted, and turned back to Imogen and started flirting louder.
That was one of the days was the day that I thought it was time for me to be ended...
END
That day and the day Jake came home with Alli's hand intertwined with his own; the day they made their relationship official. That really cut me down and the whole time they defended themselves by saying "We're brother and sister now", "It's only against the girl code if you're still friends with that person." I stopped my heart for a moment, until something started it back up. 'Dang it!' I thought to myself.
So here I am doing what I decided. I was so close of being over that It almost shocked me.
"I'm sorry for everything... you win." I told myself, friends, family and maybe the Devil.
I closed my eyes and smiled widely, thinking I'll won't have pain anymore... 'Bye' I spoke to myself one last time. I took the last step and fell... but the bad thing was, I didn't fall off the roof...no... I fell in soomeone's arms. I started screaming at the arms, "WHAT DID YOU DO? I WAS SO CLOSE OF BEING OVER.! YOU JUST HAD TO MESS IT UP FOR ME! YOUR JUST SO SELFISH, JUST SO SELFISH!"I screamed, sobbed, cried and everything in between. That person and other arms started tightening their grip and soothing me. I looked up to see my unwanted heroes, and when I did I wanted to close them back... This was crazy and unexpected.
