I do not own vampires diaries, just my wood family
I woke up, a bit dizzy. My father entered the room, and it was difficult for me to see him clearly. He sat down on my bed, and said:
"I guess you're not going in class today - he was smiling, good thing – you know that you can't avoid him forever"
"I know dad, but our relationship lasted a month and after that I wasn't supposed to see him ever again. Especially after the way I treated him" I replied. My father kissed me on the forehead and added:
"You're so silly…; well everybody is out, so I guess it is just you and me"
"Why didn't you go to work? I can fend for myself an entire day, especially if I'm a grown up woman"
"Honey, you're just 22…"
"Almost twenty three" I said, laughing.
"Look, I've to do stuff downstairs, and breakfast is ready, come with me"
"Sure, go ahead. I'm coming"
He left the room. I got up and sighed. I was about to walk out when I crossed a mirror. I look at myself, those eyes, totally different, just like my hair…Well the color was my mom, but the rest came from somebody else. Not sure I'm clear, let me explain. I'm Sarah Marie Sophie Wood, but actually I'm something more than just a Wood, there is something else with me: my mother is Anna but my father, well I don't know him.
When James left after breaking up with her, my mother started to do stupid things, and one of them was to find another man and have sex with him, without a condom. This man left right after that. My mother was all alone again. She didn't know she was until the fourth month. Actually, she told James after they came back together that she had slept with another man, but he wasn't mad, this guy is never mad anyway. You would think that James would be angry, but no, the second he knew about me and mom's pregnancy, he was acting like he was my father. Overprotecting her, being constantly with her, going to doctor appointment, buying maternity clothes, fulfilling every craving that mom had.
Since I was a little girl, I considered James as my father, but I knew that something was wrong. I could see that more clearly now, especially with Nina's birth. They were so close, linked by some weird connection, which I couldn't understand. Even if he never made a difference between Nina and me, it was here and no one could ignore it. Suddenly, he was behind me:
"You know that I love you more than anything in the world, you're my daughter, DNA or not."
"I know, but you can see that not knowing where I come from is killing me. When I look into a mirror, I see mom, but I see something, someone else, and I wish I could know who he is."
"I know." He said slowly, taking me into his arms. I felt so secure in those arms, he was my father, but I really needed to find who was the man that knocked up my mother. Not to start a father-daughter relationship, I already had one, just to know who he was.
"I want to find him." I thought.
I spent the rest of the day trying to figure how I'm going to announce the news to my mother. She is going to freak out. I tried to stay awake until they come home, but it was already midnight and there was no sign of them, the show probably lasted longer that they thought. My mother and my sister went to a concert, the 1D's. My sister is a real directioner, and don't even think about talking to her about Justin Bieber. She is seventeen and very funny when it comes to this.
"Go to bed honey, you can always tell your mother tomorrow, she'll still be mad" Dad said smiling at me.
"Hum… very funny" I muttered, half asleep. I went to my room and crashed onto my bed. I fell asleep very quickly.
The next morning, while I was in the kitchen, eating my breakfast, my phone rang: it was Lucy, she was in med school, and more important she was my BFF. Unfortunately, we didn't have so much time for us:
"What about a movie, then a Mcdo and finally a stupid reality show?" She asked
"Sure" I replied
"Ok then, I'll pick you up at 8.00 pm. Love ya"
"No problemo mi amigo. Love you too, bye"
I hang up the phone, satisfied. I finished my bowl of cereal. Everyone seemed to be out. Probably at a decorating store. Mom decided it was time to do an extreme makeover.
Right before leaving the house, I remembered that Ness had my BB (lancel Bag). I entered her room without knocking, thinking she was out too, but she wasn't.
"Oh my god! Sarah, get out!" she screamed.
She was apparently having sex with Kyle, her boyfriend. My baby sister was having sex before me, which is not very complicated, since I'm twenty two and still a virgin. It's not that I don't want to have sex, but I just can't find the right one I want to do it with.
"I'm sorry, I thought you were out, and everything was quiet. So I assumed that…"
"Stop assuming and try to think. If only you could think a little, it would make things so easier" she yelled at me, so angry. But her words hurt me really bad.
"Nina, calm down" Kyle said, seeing that I was really hurt.
"I just came here to pick up my bag, Ness. I'll leave you two alone."
I did get my bag back, and left the room on the verge of crying my soul out. She was pissed but it wasn't a reason to hurt me like that. I didn't mean to disturb her, I just didn't know. Ness and I have a complicated relationship. I guess therapy is in order in our case. Sometimes, unconsciously, I resent her. Probably because, she stole my mother: after her birth, mom was really tired and it took months for her to finally be able to be with me and play with me without crying. Thinking about it now, I think she was into a really big depression. Dad tried to cope with it, but Nina was taking a place so important. Moreover everyone likes her better; she is really popular. I know it's childish but I do have that had inferiority complex: I'm smart but not smarter than her, I'm pretty but not prettier, and I have friends but not as many as her. I'm not special and she is.
My entire day was ruined by that stupid fight. I called Lucy and asked her to pick me up at college. I wasn't going home tonight. I needed some time out of the Wood house. I turned down my phone; I left a post-it at home, explaining my night-out.
Being with Lucy was the silver lining of my horrible day. I couldn't explain to her why I was so moody that night, and I wish I could.
"Hey, can I ask you a question? " I asked her
"Yes, sure"
"I'm going somewhere, and I can't tell you where, but can you drive me at the airport tomorrow? "
"Ok, but where are you going?"
"Can't tell, but its family business" I answered, smiling.
Yes, I lied to everyone. I knew exactly who my father was, and where he lived. His name was Damon Salvatore and he lived in Mystic falls, not far from Atlanta. I managed to hide everything, and I prepared thoroughly my trip.
