Title: My case of love.
Characters: Christian/Syed.
When I first entered the square I thought I would be ashamed of my real self. I knew I wasn't selfish and I'm not all me me me. But I was young then. I had to put myself somewhere into consideration. My mother told me that sometimes in life I had to think of myself instead of others. And since then that's all I have done. Apart from one special person. His name is Christian. Everytime we speak I can feel my heart pounding harder than ever, I feel the conection we have running through my body starting from my head and ending in the tips of each toe. My wedding is happening soon but I don't think it would be right carrying on with it, I don't love Amira. My head was telling me that my god wouldn't appriciate my sexuality but for once in my life I thought f*** it. One of my god's commands was to ' Love and be happy.' When I'm with Amira my heart gives her no love and she makes me feel awkward. But it's a different matter when I'm with Christian, he makes my legs wobbly and my heart feels like it's going to jump out of my skin. Now that's true love in my case.
When him and I bump into eachother in the square it's amazing. I feel like nothing could possibly hurt me when him and I are together. We can talk for hours, and we would if nothing or no-one was around us, seeing us together. Theres times where I'd sneak into the cafe when Jane or Ian aren't about and we'd share the moments of passion. The hugging and the kissing. I know he loves me and I know I love him. He's told me that he cares for me and I've repeated it to him. I don't want to hurt him in carrying on with this wedding, never mind hurting him I'm hurting myself. It's complecated writing about it but if you were in my shoes you'd know exactly what I mean and how I feel. Christian and I belong together. And when this wedding goes ahead I'm going to tell Amira and family the truth...
