I wrote a story very similar to this years ago in an old high school notebook of mine. This whole things has been re-written and revised. A fellow fanfic writer named Mekabella21 encouraged me to start publishing more and helped me to calm down from being such an anxious perfectionist so this is a tribute of sorts to them :D Thank you. Hope you enjoy!


Kyle was trembling in fear of his new found revelation. He was so very tired of holding it in and ignoring it. The very idea of him liking men made him sick to his stomach, he had nothing against homosexuals, but that word being applied to him unsettled him greatly. He was very supportive of Craig and Tweek and thought they were adorable together but the more he thought about it, the more he realized that he wanted that as well.

Kyle would busy himself with other things to rid himself of these thoughts. He would hang out with his friends, play games, hell even started to offer tutoring lessons just to have something else to think about. Slowly his desires caught up with him and he found himself grimacing in the mirror wondering why he could not be ''normal''.

Kyle had noticed Kenny giving him inquiring looks whenever he was around. Kenny leering at him and making perverted jokes started a few months ago but now they were getting more and more obvious. Kyle would angrily push his friend away and frantically try to hide his blush. He had a sneaking suspicion that Kenny knew for a fact he was struggling with his sexuality. There was a deep feeling of paranoia welling in Kyle's gut at the thought of any of the other guys finding out that he liked men.

Earlier that day in school Kenny sat beside him and everything was fine, Stan and Cartman were talking about some new game that they were excited for that Kyle pretended that he knew. Kyle mostly nodded and laughed here and there as Kenny sat there silently like always. Every now and then Kyle would catch Kenny leering at him from time to time. Kyle was fine with that but, when he got up to throw away his lunch, Kenny whistled and commented lewdly,''You've got a nice ass you know that?''

Kyle would have hit him if Stan and Cartman heard that. Kyle checked around if anyone heard and no one was none the wiser. He knew for a fact that he was as red as a tomato. Kenny smirked at him looking thoroughly amused. ''The fuck dude...''Kyle deadpanned and walked away.

Ignoring Kenny's chuckles.

Begrudgingly Kyle knew he had even developed crushes on a few of his friends. The biggest crush of all was on Stan. Stan was his other half. He could always come to him no matter what. They would talk for hours on end and hold each other in their times of need. He loved Stan if he was being honest with himself. Kyle has loved him for a long time now. They were all currently in Junior year and it had only intensified from there. Kyle can not pin point were it started but it had been for many years. Lately Kyle had been trying to ignore the feelings and support Stan and Wendy's relationship. It hurt to see them kiss and hug sometimes but it was just something he'd have to accept. He wanted for Stan to be happy. That was his number one concern. Stan's happiness. There were times that Kyle got vibes around Stan that gave him the feeling that his emotions were returned. Things would get very intense...a little too intense, and Stan would rush to break the moment and they would pretend as if nothing had ever happened.

The second crush was Kenny. Kenny was just so silly and easy to talk to. Kyle had always seen Kenny as nothing but a friend but in recent times Kenny has gotten more and more touchy-feely. Even going so far as to comment on Kyle's ass on occasion. Kyle would yelled and pretend to be disgusted but secretly the blond's interest aroused him and him one of his most common fantasies. Kyle berated himself for weeks after fantasizing for the blond for the first time. After awhile his lust grew and it just became a thing that Kyle would do and then pretend never took place. Kyle's feelings for Kenny were complex. At first he pitied him but eventually as they grew closer he realized how strong and kindhearted the blond was. Kenny was always there to calm him and always lent an ear. Even though Kyle pretended to hate him, he loved Kenny as well.

And then there was Butters. Kyle would NEVER imagine the cute little blond boy in sexual positions with him but he just felt smitten by how sweet and generous the young man was. The way Butters smiles and tries to make everyone's day always made Kyle's heart flutter. Kyle first saw it as a big brother instinct but he had never felt this way toward Ike so he knew it could not have been that. He was very protective over both Butters and his little brother but there was a distinct difference in how he wanted to interact with the two. Kyle finally admitted to himself that it was indeed a crush and vowed to never tell a soul.

Kyle was struggling with his appearance and not appearing masculine enough in a traditional sense. There was a voice in the back of his mind that told him that he was ridiculous for such thoughts but his sense of self was steady crumbling and he felt the need to try to piece it back together.

Thoughts raced through his mind as his eyes clouded over and gripped his head trying to will away the uneasiness. He was snapped from his breakdown by his phone ringing loudly on his bed.

Kyle huffed and tried to keep the shakiness from his voice as he went to pick up and answer it,''Hello.''

''What's up dude?'' It was Kenny.

Kyle lied,''N-Nothing dude...just um...studying is all.''

Kenny scoffed,''Mm-hm.''

''W-What do you want dude?'' Kyle said trying to ignore how unconvinced his friend sounded. Was he seriously that easy to read?

''Was wondering if you wanted to hang out tonight?'' Kenny asked on the other line.

Kyle was going to say no but then thought about what he was doing before and decided it would be better to distract himself with something. It was better than sinking into this pit of self loathing. Kyle sighs and says,''Yeah sure.''

''Awesome! I'll be over in like...20 minutes? Cool! Bye!'' Kenny said hanging up before Kyle could protest and berate him about scheduling things ahead of time.

Kenny sighed and downstairs to where his mom was cooking dinner,''Umm...Mom..''

''What dear?'' She said not looking back at him.

''Kenny will be staying the night.'' Kyle said.

''Oh okay dear. Did you finish your homework?'' His mom asked still not looking up.

''Yeah.'' Kyle answered halfheartedly before going back to his room and waiting on his friend to show up.

Kenny was there in no time. He carried with him a sleep over bag and a goofy grin that made Kyle's heart melt but instead Kyle said,''Your smile looks stupid. You look goofy as hell dude.''

Kenny shrugs still smiling and teased,''You love it though.''

Kyle blushed and looked to the side pretending to be angry but he knew that Kenny could see through it. Slowly but surely Kyle was regretting this arrangement.

Dinner went by smoothly to Kyle's surprise and after it he and Kenny walked up to his bedroom. Kyle flopped down on his bed and asked,''You want to take a shower first or?''

''I wouldn't mind taking one together.'' Kenny said leaning in close making Kyle scramble backwards,''Dude! That is not fucking funny dude.''

Kenny smirked leaning in over the redhead and smirks,''No but I have a feeling you enjoy it.''

''Kenny are you high!? Leave me the fuck alone.'' Kyle nearly shrieks pushing the other away,''And what is with all of these gay and uncomfortable jokes! You've been doing this for like a month or whatever and it's getting old dude!''

Kenny tilts his head,''Maybe it's not a joke?''

Kyle jumps off the bed completely,''Uh-uh. No. No. Nope. Get the fuck away from me Kenny seriously.''

Kenny watches him pace, amusement in his eyes. Kyle stopped pacing and said,''Don't give me that look! Find something else to joke about. Something like...shit I can't think now. Anyway! I miss the old Kenny. Bring him back.''

Kenny shakes his head and says,''Dude I never left. I just got tired of hiding this shit is all. I mean I'm straight forward about everything else, so why not be forward about this?''

''About this!? About what exactly?'' Kyle asks beginning to panic.

''Kyle for a kid with straight fucking A's you sure have you dumb moment.'' Kenny said snickering.

''Fuck off.'' Kyle said, his voice flat, his breath started to pick up as Kenny slowly started walking up to him. Kyle was slightly startled when his back hit the wall and he had no where else to go. He hardly had time to fret about that as Kenny leaned in and kissed him gently.

Time seemed to come to a stand still as Kenny pressed himself against Kyle, licking the redhead's lips silently asking for permission to deepen the kiss.

Kyle's head was swimming he felt utterly euphoric, he parted his lips and let the other explore his mouth eagerly. Kenny was damn good, Kyle moaned and writhed against the other as the kiss became more intense. Kyle knew that him moaning must have made him look like the biggest virgin in the world at the moment but did not care as he struggled to keep up with Kenny's tongue. It felt so good. The red head let his head fall back as his blond friend kissed his jawline and neck tenderly. Kyle had to cover his mouth when Kenny bit down on a spot on his neck that Kyle did not even know was sensitive. Kenny sucked and bit at the sensitive skin and drove Kyle crazy. The redhead did not even realise that he was rutting his hardness against the other's thigh until Kenny chuckled and huskily mumbled,''Sensitive yeah? Yeah baby...show me how good I make you feel...''

''Fuck.'' Kyle whimpered in pleasure and from the fact the he was embarrassed that he was this worked up and nothing had even happened yet.

Kyle whimpered when Kenny grabbed his ass roughly kneading and groping he whispered,''Anyone ever tell you that you have an ass like a chick?''

''F-Fuck you dude...''Kyle growled pushing his ass back a few times indirectly tell Kenny not to stop.

''Oh you will baby.'' Kenny moaned in his ear, the blond started to grind up against the redhead and Kyle happily humped the other in return.

Kyle's breath hitched as Kenny undid his pants and slid his hands under Kyle's boxers to continue kneading his ass cheeks. Kyle didn't know that Kenny was an ass man but he knew now. Kyle always seen him as more of a boob man...maybe he liked both equally? The redhead was broken from his musings and damn near frantic humping by his phone ringing.

Kyle pushed the blond back a bit making Kenny groan in protest. Kyle would have laughed if he wasn't so horny and annoyed as he tried to pick up his phone and answer it, Kenny had decided to attach himself to his ass. Kyle was hoping that the blond would have the decency to stop while he was on the phone but he had no such luck. When Kyle had finally been able to pick up the phone, Kenny had settled behind him rutting. Kyle's breath hitched and he tried to keep himself together.

''Hey dude...you okay?'' He heard Stan ask on the other end. Kyle let out an annoyed growled when Kenny started going faster. He held back a few curses and said,''I'm fine.''

''Well you don't sound fine...''Stan inquired on the other end.

The bed springs were creaking and Kyle hoped to God Stan could not hear it. He held back a moan trying his hardest to ignore the horny blond grinding on his ass frantically.

''Okaaaay...Are you seriously fucking someone right now? I thought you were celibate or abstinent or whatever religious weirdos are.''

''N-No. That's not it! Just studying like always! I'll call you back later dude okay?'' He hung up before Stan could answer and chucked the phone on the floor somewhere after turning it off.

Kenny was steady rutting and Kyle looked back at him angrily before blinking a few times,''Dude...I could just fucking kill you...what the fuck are we doing?''

''Humping each other.'' Kenny answered he voice husky. He flipped Kyle onto his back and ground down on the other.

Kyle gasped,''Ah shit...'' He almost forgot what he was going to say. Almost,''Why are we doing this? Aren't we moving awfully fast!?''

''Not moving fast enough if you ask me.'' Kenny said unbuttoning his jeans moving Kyle's hand to his erection. Kyle squinted at the other but complied regardless. Kenny moaned at the contact. Kyle decided to worry about all that other stuff later and make his horny friend cum. If he knew one thing, it was impossible to hold a conversation with a horny Kenny.

Kyle pulled Kenny's pants down just enough to take him in hand and jerked a few times. Kenny groans and moaned out,''Wanna taste?''

Kyle frowned up at him as to say no but Kenny put a hand on the back of his head while pushing forward.

''Damn it Kenny! No!''

''Why not baby? C'mon.'' Kenny whined looking down at the other.

''I do not want a mouthful of cock tonight Kenny! Maybe some other time.'' Kyle mumbled the last part but Kenny's eyes lighting up signaled to Kyle that he heard...unfortunately.

Kyle Jerked the other steadily and played with the sensitive head. He envied boys with foreskin and wondered how it would feel to be that sensitive. If the noises Kenny made were enough to go by Kyle was doing a good job. Kenny thrusted towards his face a few times making Kyle growl out at him,''No! I said no Kenny, you horny bastard.'' He held the others hips a little and moaned his face back from the other's cock. Kenny whispered,''Faster baby...jerk it faster...''

''Tell me when you're gonna cum so I can catch it.'' Kyle mumbled.

Kenny's eyes lit up and he smirked down at the other.

''No! Not like that.'' Kyle said angrily. Kyle's ears perked up when he heard some movement in the hall outside his door. Shit! Someone was about to come in. Kyle whispered,''Pull up your pants Kenny!''

Kyle rushed to get air freshener to get rid of the musky scent the two created. He frantically sprayed before doing up his own jeans. Right as he zipped up his pants the door opened to reveal Stan. Stan looked at Kenny and said with a confused look on his face,''Oh hey Kenny! Didn't know you were going to be here...''

Kenny had a pillow on his lap and he smiled looking a little annoyed,''Didn't know you'd be here either...''

''Well i was trying to tell Kyle that I was dropping off his Ipod but he hung up in my face...Like dude...seriously what the fuck were you doing in the background?'' Stan asked frowning at Kyle.

Kyle laughed nervously quickly thinking up a lie,''N-Nothing dude! I didn't want to say it was Kenny jumping on my bed because that would have sounded fucking stupid haha.''

Stan rolled his eyes chuckling a little,''You could have just said that, I know Kenny's a weirdo. I wouldn't have cared.''

The Redhead then tried to push his friend out as he noticed Stan giving him a suspicious look. Kyle rolled his eyes and said,''I'm sorry about that dude. Thanks for the ipod. Well, see you at school tomorrow.''

Stan dead weights him to Kenny's dismay. Kyle knew Stan well and knew that his friend was not buying the story. He doubted that Stan figured out that they were about to bang. Stan's suspicions came from knowing whenever Kyle lied.

''So what are you two up to?'' Stan asks feigning a look of innocence. Kyle had to stop himself from sighing. He loved Stan but just hated how nosy he could get or even how insecure he got when he felt he was being left out.

Kenny huffed and said,''Well we were just about to-''

Knowing that Kenny was about to tell Stan everything, Kyle jumps in front of Kenny and uncharacteristically screams,''BAKE COOKIES! Yes! me and Kenny were going to bake cookies! That's why he was jumping on the bed like a maniac. Super excited for those cookies you know.''

Stan cocks an eyebrow unconvinced, he crosses his arms,''Mm-hm...''

''Yup!'' Kyle said trying not to sweat as his best friend's eyes bore into his soul. Kenny made an annoyed sound on the bed and glared at Kyle. Kyle hated lying to his friends or around his friends but he really was not ready for anyone to know that he had a thing for Kenny and it was returned. Hell he barely had time to register it himself. Judging by Kenny's aggravated glare, lying may not have been the best move?

Stan purses his lips before cocking his head,''Funny...you two don't strike me for the cookie eating type...Mainly for the fact that you have diabetes...''

''Pfffft.'' Kyle waves Stan off,''Diabetic people can eat things like this. A lot of my cookies, cakes, and candies are sugar free anyway...''

''Yeah but you like, don't even eat them...'' Stan argued.

''Sooooo! Anyway!'' Kyle desperately tries to change the subject.

''Kyle...''

''ANYWAY!'' Kyle interjects trying not to panic.

Stan puts his hands up in surrender shaking his head. Kyle turns to see Kenny glaring at him angrily. Kyle shrugs and Kenny shakes his head and looks away. Kyle hated pissing off his friends, but he was a little annoyed that Kenny could not understand why Kyle wanted to keep this hidden from Stan.

Stan pushed past Kyle and sat next to Kenny to the blond's dismay. Kenny rolled his eyes and flopped back on the bed. Kyle sighs,''What is it Stan?''

''I'm staying for the cookies.'' Stan challenged glaring at Kyle. Kenny let out an annoyed groan and Kyle said softly,''Maybe next time Stan? Me and Kenny were talking about something...''

''That's cool. I'm a chill dude. What are we talking about?'' Stan said making it known that he wasn't leaving anytime soon.

''Stan! I talk to you one on one all the time! The least you can do is let me and Kenny have one on one time!''

Stan nods,''I agree with that. And I'm totally chill about you two having one on one time. The thing that is bothering me are these imaginary cookies.''

''Okay! Okay! I'm sorry for lying to you okay?'' Kyle said his voice tired.

Stan nodded looking unamused,''Thank you.''

''Okay so now that you got your apology could you...leave?'' Kyle asked gently.

''What is so secret that it needs to be hidden from me? You guys don't hide anything from me...so what is it?''

''Ugh! This is not about you Stan! Not everything has to be about you!'' Kyle said his voice rising.

''Nah. It's not that. It's not that at all. I just want to know why I'm being left out is all.''

''Damn it Stan. I'll talk to you about it later!'' Kyle hisses before deciding to tell another lie just to get his best friend out of the room,''Some things have been going on in Kenny's personal life that he wanted to talk about. He is not comfortable with it being shared. So will you please?''

Stan nods in understanding before getting up still looking at the two suspiciously. It felt like an eternity before he left. Kyle sighed and sat next to Kenny who was laid out across the bed,''I swear he gets more and more like everyday.''

Kenny did not comment. He simply laid there staring at the ceiling. Kyle decided to crawl closer to the blond,''Kenny...are you mad at me?''

''A little.'' Kenny said not looking at him.

''Why? Did you seriously want me to tell him? Like how would that even play out?'' Kyle said shaking his head.

Kenny sits up and says,''I know my reasons for wanting to tell him were petty as hell. But...I just..''

''What are your reasons?'' Kyle asks beyond confused at this point.

''No comment. All I will say is...Kyle, I've liked you for a very long time now. I know you see me as some super horny, silly, and weird bastard. But I am more than just some funny dude that wants to fuck anything. I have feelings you know. And I feel like you guys forget that. I'm seen as the funny little clown guy that just lives for the next fuck...anyway why I am rambling. I should maybe go home.''

Kenny moved to get up but Kyle gripped his wrist and pulled him back down,''Listen Ken. We may joke with you like that but the main reason why we are hesitant to go any further than joking because you have so many walls up. It's hard to get close to you man. As soon as we do you shrink in on yourself and disappear for a few days. It's no disrespect to you man...what does this have to do with me not telling Stan?''

''I...I want to be more than just friends or even friends with benefits.'' Kenny said his tone serious which was rare for the redhead to hear.

''Oh...okay...''Kyle said processing this,''So...you want to be my boyfriend?''

''Yes.'' Kenny answered simply.

''Why? I-I mean...Oh God.'' Kyle was blushing as red as his hair. Kenny smiled and pulled the blond in for a side hug.

''I would be here all day trying to list the qualities I love about you Kyle...I'm not good with sappy shit. But I...'' Kenny looked to the sighed awkwardly. Kyle grinned and leaned against his friend,''I...I'm sorry for being such a douche to you all those times you flirted with me. I thought you were just messing with me or saw me as a quick and easy lay.''

Kenny wraps an arm around Kyle's shoulder,''Never. I am more than just a horny dude. I can indeed experience emotions Broflovski.'' Kenny leaned in and kissed Kyle's cheek gently.

Kyle attempted but failed miserably to hide his blush while curling into the the blond.

The two end up cuddling until they fall asleep. Shower and blow job long forgotten.