Title: Sometimes it's Months

Fandom Star Wars

Characters Jacen Solo/Tahiri Velia,

Prompt Months

Word Count 276

Rating PG-13

Summary Sometimes it's months before they see each other again

Author's Notes Takes place in a post NJO Star Wars Alternate Universe about the time of The Joiner King, but assume that if I don't mention it then it didn't happen.

Sometimes it's months before they see each other again. Months in which she thinks she is free, moved on, changed. After the first month her first genuine smile appears. After the second she starts laughing again. After the third she begins to believe what she said when they parted, begins to have faith in her ability to resist him when, if …when, he returns. During these times she can laugh at Valin's jokes without instantly feeling guilty, have hushed heart – to – hearts with Jysella without feeling like a betrayer. She can look Mara in the eye and doesn't flinch when Luke enters the room. She talks to Han and Leia and even occasionally to Jaina, though that is always dangerous. She stops spending hours in the fresher trying to feel clean again.

She doesn't know what he does in these months. She doesn't want to know. Yet a morbid voice inside is always talking, telling her that he is with his daughter, with her , scouring the galaxy for anything, everything. The voice never tells her he is thinking of her. She doesn't fit into his life, not in that way. She doesn't know if she wants to. She has her place, if she is content to stay there. It should be enough, she should be happy. She should forget him, forget both of them, and move on.

Sometimes it's months before he contacts her again.

Sometimes it's months before they see each other again in a room somewhere no-one will think to look for them.

Sometimes it's months in which she can enjoy life. Tell herself she is happy and fixed.

Sometimes it's months.