Author note:
This is my first fan fiction ever and I hope someone out there might like it. I have written a little bit more than this and I hope that I will be able to upload it soon.
It's a big step for me to upload this and I would love to have some feedback on it…
And remember:
Since this is a pure fan fiction, I don't owe anything.
Hope you will enjoy reading it / Miss-jojjo
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Prologue: Him
I looked around the cafeteria to see if I could see him again, maybe just a quick glance and a small smile, something that tells me that he has noticed me. I knew who he was, but I couldn't help to feel a bit warm inside at the thought of him liking me. I know I'm just a girl and that there's nothing special with me. But the thought of actually having Ricky Underwood liking me, out of all the girls in camp seemed kind of appealing.
I don't have the experience that some of the girls in my age have and I don't feel sorry for myself because of it. But I deserve to have a summer fling and Band Camp can be more than just music.
The doors to the cafeteria opened up and Ricky walked in. I couldn't dare to look so I continued with eating my lunch and talking to Caroline who I shared a room with. She was talking about some movie where some zombies supposedly ate dogs. I was too occupied in my thoughts to listen so I just mumbled at times and let out "That's sounds fascinating" or a "did they actually do that?"
"I should go" Caroline suddenly said and it drew me out of my imagination.
"Why?" I asked. Caroline nodded at Ricky who was walking towards are table and then she smiled and then formed a Good Luck with her lips.
I was beginning to get nervous but I told myself to act causal.
"Hey" Ricky said as he sat down.
"Hi" I answered him back. I was hoping that it wouldn't be a long and awkward pause, I hated those. Whenever one of those happened I felt like an idiot.
"So?" I said "How's it going?" I then asked. How's it going? God, How stupid can you be Amy. Did I have to ask something so lame? Luckily Ricky didn't seem to think it was lame.
"It's going good, now at least. I was kind of bored before, but not anymore" He said and smiled. I could feel my body heat up again as he said that. Did he mean that I was making his day less boring? Hope so, because he was defiantly making my day more exciting.
"How's it going with you?" Ricky asked me and looked me in the eyes. He had really beautiful eyes, they were dark brown and they fitted well with his dark hair. Snap out of it, Amy I told myself.
"It's going just good" I said. I took a bite of my food but regretted it at the same time because I was afraid that I might come out as a slob if I ate.
"Great!" He said "So what are you doing this afternoon?" he asked me straight out which caught me off guard.
"I-I-I don't know" I said a bit stuttering hoping he wouldn't notice it. "I mean I haven't planned anything yet"
"Would you like to come to the lake?" He asked me and I felt my whole body smile and butterflies coming alive in my stomach.
"Sure" I said "why not?" It couldn't exactly hurt me to go down to the lake with him. I know that a lot of people hang out by the lake so I should do it too.
"Good, because there are apparently someone who's made this bonfire and it would be nice if you wanted to go with me?" I wondered if he meant like a date but I'm sure it wasn't anything like that. I know that back home Ricky is like this kind of a player but he seemed kind of honest now and he was probably not playing me.
"Sounds perfect" I said and smiled what I hoped would be a sexy smile.
I looked in the mirror. I looked ok. I hadn't exactly brought any hot clothes with me, but I think I had managed well enough. I was wearing a pair of pretty low cut jeans and a black sweater and under it I was wearing a red bikini. And if it would be chilly I had also grabbed a red sweater which I tied around my waist.
I looked closer and the makeup looked fine as well. But to make it extra good I put some red lipstick on. Yes, that was exactly what I needed. I took my hair out of the ponytail and let it hang loose on my shoulders. I smiled at myself in the mirror and I could feel my stomach getting heavier and heavier. I was definitely nervous and the butterflies were getting a little too many.
The door to the room opened up and Caroline walked in.
"Wow, look at you girl" Caroline said and motioned with her hand for me to make a turn so she could see all of me. I did as I was motioned to do and I couldn't help but to feel extra beautiful.
"Is it ok?" I asked and grinned.
"I think so" Caroline said. "But before you go, check your breath!"
"Good, I don't want to have bad breath" I said.
"Just to be sure, take this." Caroline threw me a bottle of mouth spray and I took some.
"Thank you "I said quiet.
"No worry. A bad breath can truly kill a kiss and we don't want that to happen" she said with a smirk.
"I don't think that it will come to that point" I said shyly and put the bottle down.
"Honey, it is Ricky we're talking about. Of course it will come to that point" Caroline said. "That's all he's interested in and more"
"I don't think so, at least not with me. It didn't sound like it when we talked" I said trying to calm myself down and not get too nervous.
"Maybe you're right" Caroline said. "I just don't want to see you get hurt"
"You won't" I smiled.
"Good" she said but she didn't seem convinced.
I looked out the window and saw that Ricky was waiting for me at the flagpole.
"I should go" I said with a smile.
"Ok, But first take a deep breath, Amy" I inhaled and then exhaled and it calmed me down a little.
"Good girl" Caroline said and laughed a small laugh.
I grinned and walked out the door. It felt like my knees couldn't carry me but I ignored it and just waved a little wave at Ricky as I walked up to him.
Outside it was hot and I was glad that I had chosen to wear something that wasn't warm.
As I walked up to Ricky he smiled at me and of course I returned it. I took a last deep breath and then said
"Hi".
"Hi, yourself" Ricky said breezy while leaning against the flagpole. "You look great by the way"
"Thanks. You cleaned up nice to" I said and looked down at my feet.
"Let's go" Ricky said and took my hand. We walked together hand and hand down to the lake. It was some people there and they had built a bonfire, just like Ricky had said. Everyone seemed happy, chatting around and one guy was playing a guitar while a girl was singing to it. It felt like it was all taken from a movie, that it was just too good to be true.
"Do you want to sit down?" Ricky asked me. I nodded and followed him.
"There's this little place under the trees just around here" He said "It's more quiet and cooler"
"Sounds good" I said and looked around one more time.
We walked by the lake for a minute or two until we got to a little bench under a couple of trees in shadow. It looked sort of nice and I couldn't help to wonder if I was the only one he had taken to this spot or if this was where he took all his girl or whatever I was to him.
I let go of his hand and took a seat at the bench and he came right after me.
"This is nice" I said and looked over at Ricky.
"Yeah, I like this place" He looked back at me "I go here when the camp gets too much and I can just think"
"I understand" I said. "You don't exactly get a lot of privacy around here" I sighed.
"I'm used to not having any privacy anyway" Ricky said a bit sadly.
"Me too" I said without thinking. "My sister Ashley she's like twelve, I mean thirteen and she like knows everything about me because she so nosy all the time. Always interfering in my life and stuff"
"I so know what you mean" Ricky said and shook his head. "It's the same thing with my foster parents. They are always asking where I'm going and about school. Sometimes you just want to do stuff without having to explain yourself" I tried to ignore the fact that Ricky just told me that he lived with a foster family. I didn't know if I should say something or if that would make me look like an idiot. I'm sure he doesn't want people to go around feeling sorry for him just because lives with a pair of foster parents. But at the same I didn't want to seem insensitive by not saying anything, but maybe it was better to just let it go then to look like a fool.
"So do you want to go for a swim?" He asked me.
"I don't know" I felt kind of uncomfortable at the thought even though I had put on a bikini underneath. "It might be cold" I said as an excuse.
"Oh come on" Ricky said and took my hand "It's hot outside and it is summer. You're suppose to go swimming"
"Fine" I said. Hopefully it won't be too bad.
"Good" Ricky said with smile and started to take of his sweater and pants. He had a really hot body and seeing him in only a pair of bathing shorts made me uncomfortable so I focused my attention on my shoes instead. Ricky walked out I the water and I could finally look up.
"What are you waiting for?" He asked me as I stood there watching as he got deeper and deeper out in the water.
"I don't know" I mumbled and then chuckled a little bit under my breath.
"Just so you know it's not cold at all. It's just a little cooling" he said and took a swimming stoke.
I started to take off my shoes and then went on to the jeans. I felt a little weird standing there taking my clothes off in front of him. And last but not least I throw my sweater off.
"Well, here I come!" I announced as I walked slowly into the water. He was right it wasn't cold just cooling. And I really felt like cooling down. I took a swim stroke and I finally was beside Ricky.
"See it wasn't so cold" He said and looked into my eyes.
"I guess you were right" I said and looked around. You could see the camp beach and all the kids over by the bonfire. I could still feel that it was all taken from a movie. Except now, the movie scene was over at me and Ricky. It was perfect, the two of us alone bathing in a lake at the end of the summer. It was all just perfect, maybe even too perfect.
"So this is the last week of camp" I let out with a sigh. "Are you going to miss it?" Ricky looked at me surprised.
"This?" He asked and swam around me. "Playing music every day and swimming around hot chicks" he gave me a big smirk.
"When you put it like that" I said and grinned "It's not really that much to miss, is it?" ignoring the fact that Ricky had just said the he thought I was hot.
"No" Ricky said as he swam closer to me "I can't come to think of single thing that I'm going to miss!"
We were now so close that our bodies almost touched. I could feel his breath on my face and I'm sure he could feel mine as well.
"Are you going to miss anything?" He whispered to me. I shook my head slowly. It was good that my legs were under water because I was sure they were trembling.
"You might want to think of that question again" Ricky once again whispered and then he closed the distant between the two of us and our lips met. It was an amazing feeling, I felt kind of free and independent. I wondered what Lauren and Madison would think of me if they knew I had made out with Ricky Underwood at band camp.
His lips were wet from the water and so were mine. I could feel sparks going up mine spine as I put my arms around his neck and he draw me in closer next to his body. I could feel his hands reaching for my wet hair and the kiss was getting more and more electric.
"So?" Ricky said after minute or two and ended the kiss. "Anything you'll miss?" I shook my head trying to play hard to get, if that was even possible after our kiss.
After our little swim or should I say make out session we took our things and got dressed and soon it wasn't afternoon anymore. Ricky took my hand as we walked towards the bonfire. I didn't know what his intensions were. If I was just some chick he liked at band camp and saw me as an easy opportunity to get some action and once back at school he would forget all about me or if I were someone who he actually liked and would still talk to even when the summer was over. But I pushed that thought away since I didn't feel that it was relevant to be thinking of it, not tonight. Tonight it was just Ricky and me and nothing else mattered.
"Let's take a seat" Ricky said and sat down on a bench right in front of the bonfire. I looked around at the people and I saw Caroline in the crowd of people down by the water and I send her a smile and she waved at me and gave me a thumb up and she continued to be engaged in some conversation with some other girls that I recognized but couldn't put a name to them.
I was beginning to freeze a little after our swim and my body started to quiver a little, which Ricky soon realized.
"Are you cold?" he asked me.
"No" I lied. "I'm just fine"
"You're shaking…" Ricky looked at me questioning.
"I might be a little cold" I said and rubbed my hand together to get the heat up a little".
"This might help" Ricky said as he walked up and got a blanket and then wrapped the two of us in it. "Better?"
"Mhmm…" I said and nodded slightly. "Yeah, it's better"
"Good. I don't want you to get sick" Ricky said in a caring voice.
"Me neither" I said as a thank you.
We just sat there under the blanket taking in the air and the night as it got darker and darker outside. More and more people showed up and everyone was talking intense and some had even brought some music a long and it soon you could hear the latest hits going around the lake and people were soon dancing.
As a slow song came on Ricky reached for me and asked me if I wanted to dance with him. I nodded as a response and I took his hand.
I didn't know which song it was, but I didn't care it was a great song. Everything was great. The stars were shining on the place in the sky and on the other side of the lake you could see the reflection of the moon, it was almost a full moon. I felt kind of cheesy standing there taking in the moon and the stars and how it felt when the wind throw a breeze along my arm. But I couldn't help it. But most of all I couldn't help to feel that it was so right with me and Ricky there together. That it was just the two of us who were dancing under the shining stars and the moon. I don't have that much experience with guys and I had never felt like this, but god I hope that the feeling wouldn't go away. It was like Ricky had me under some sort of spell.
"Do you wanna go somewhere?" Ricky asked me and pulled me out of my trance.
"Sure" I said, before even reflecting at what it was he was asking me.
"I hoped you would say that" Ricky mumbled and looked down at my face. "Let's go" he said and took my hand.
We walked away from the bonfire and all the people and headed up towards the camp again. I didn't know exactly where Ricky was planning on taking me, but I understood that it was somewhere private where we could be alone.
We headed towards a little cottage at the other side of the camp. Ricky took up a key from his pocket and opened the door for me.
"Ladies first…" He said and motioned me in. It was a same cottage that I was sharing with Caroline, but this was messier. The walls were brown and so was the floor. Everything was made out of wood, the two beds, the two dressers and the two desks and one bookshelf.
"So this is where you have lived all summer?" I asked him with a small smile on my face.
"Yep, together with my roommate Chris" Ricky said and then took a seat on the bed.
"So where is he?" I asked and took a seat next to Ricky on the bed.
"Not around" Ricky just said and therefore he pointed out that we would be alone. Ricky got up from the bed and walked over to the bookshelf and put on some slow music. I could feel my heart beat faster and faster and my legs starting to tremble again. I knew that tonight I would change; tonight I would do something I had not done before. Tonight would be the night.
"Are you trying to seduce me?" I asked as Ricky walked up to me and took my hand and we once again started to dance slowly to the music.
"Is it working?" Ricky asked me and I understood that he meant the part of him seducing me.
"Very well" I said and he reached down and kissed me. If the first kiss and been electric and intense it was nothing compared to this one. The sparks going up my spine was a hundred times more thrilling than before.
He led me over back to the bed. I know I should be nervous and I was, but not as much as I could have been. I mean this was a guy that I had started to talk to properly with for the first time today. But today had also been one of the best days of my life and it didn't seem more than fair to let it end like this and I knew that I was taking the chance to live properly for the first time in my life.
"Are you ok?" Ricky asked as we laid there on the bed making out.
"More than ok" I said.
"Good" Ricky said before he once again crushed my lips and moved over to unzip my pants.
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I had always imagined my first time being with someone I loved and someone who I had been together with for awhile and not just rush into anything. I always imagined it being a private moment with maybe some candles and a nice romantic dinner. I always imagined it to be special. I had not imagined myself being seduced by one of school's most popular guy who's known for having a different girl every week who he then give up after he has gotten what he wanted. I had not imagined it being at band camp with that guy. I had not imagined it being with someone who I had just spent one day with and I had not imagined it making me feel like a whore.
But one thing for sure was that I had not imagined it being with Ricky Underwood and me falling for his stupid lies. But the one thing I could not have imagined, not in a life time, was the outcome of it all; the consequences and the way it would affect my life forever and how it all became life altering…
