I don't own any characters on this, unfortunatley. Lyrics by Chris Rice, Song :Lemonade


I'm sorry I had to write this

It doesn't have to be like this. I could leave, another hospital, another job even. There's only one problem, I don't want to. I love my life except for this small problem. I love you and I can't. I know you won't love me back, you're so caught up in your own life, your problems and your triumphs, there's no room for me. You hardly even notice me, you've never once smiled a true smile at me.

"So go ahead and ask her, for a happy ever after."

I could never tell you. Your a maneater, I know that, but I still fell into your trap. Your self assured walk, your way of completley commanding a rooms attention as soon as you walk in. Impressing you seems like an impossible task, but I will keep on trying. Every operation I do, it gets me better, and more confident. Everyone thinks you're hard and cold, but get underneath that exterior, I know you have feelings locked away.

"Coz nobody knows what coming, so take a chance on loving."

I denied it, for months, I couldn't face the fact out of all the people in the world, I fell for you. Someone I know wouldn't, couldn't love me back. It's unprofessional for collegues to be in a relationship, even though everyone in this hospital has their eye on someone who works here. Me, well everyone thinks it's someone else, a friend. But it isn't. You took everything out of my world and made everything insignificant. Even my job, I would do anything to tell you how I feel, but I'm a coward. I took the cowards way out and if writing you this means you find out about how I feel, even if you don't return it then you will still know. Because me living my life with you oblivious to me, is killing me. Even if you thought I was pathetic, or pitied me it would be better than this.

And if by some miracle you returned my love, I'd make it so worth while. I'd make you feel so special just the way I see you now. I promise I'd cherish every moment we ever had together, and never cheat on you with anyone. I'd play by your rules just to be with you. I know you'll think I'm stupid, I can plan all this, make all these promises but I can't tell you face to face that I love you. Well I promise, I would spend my life keeping them if you'd love me the same way I love you.

But let's face it, it's not going to happen is it Connie?

No matter what, I'll always love you,

Madeline Young x