Dear diary: WinterWidow rated M

Summary:

Steve finds Natasha's diary and finds out all she has been hiding and why she has been so distance to Bucky and what she doesn't want him remembering is it true Natasha is actually scared to feel.

Chapter 1: Steve's pov

Natasha had sent me up to her room to pick up her favorite knife so we could train and that is when I saw it a book a huge book it said diary years 1984-2015 I know I shouldn't have even opened it but I couldn't help it. Ever since Natasha told me she was really my age and that she reinvented herself in 1984 I was very curious I opened and started reading the first paqe.

Spring 1984:

I was wrapped in my lovers imbrace I couldn't be happier but that's when it happened the red room had found out about our relationship I was ripped from his arms he tried fighting back to get to me but there were to many men holding him back. There were also many men holding me they had brought me to a room I knew this room it was the room that they used to take away memories they tied me to a chair and brought my lover in and forced him into the memory device. The head of the red room came into the room and said "wipe him and then I have a task for him" he turned to me and smirked "and Natalia you will learn that he is not yours he is ours to do with him as we see fit. You have broken our rules one to many times and for that you will be punished do I make myself clear." I tried breaking out of the bonds but it was useless I looked up to see them turn on the device as they started to wipe his memory I wondered what they had in store for me and him after this was all over.

I closed the book I could not read anymore at the moment it was just so painful hearing that Natasha was in love at one point and he got taken away from her I wanted to know more but I just grabbed her knife and went down to train I would try and read more later but till then.

End chapter 1