My Misery Belongs to you

It had been months since she had seen anyone. It wasn't like she had done it on purpose. Actually she had done a little disappearing on purpose. Since Kathryn Janeway had arrived home the only thing she wanted to do was hide. Hide from the press, hide from Star fleet and hide from him.

Kathryn Janeway was someone who had always stood her ground. She was someone who could fend off anyone who tried to get in her way. But this situation. The situation of being home, on Earth again made her beyond nervous. It made her long to be lost in the Delta Quadrant all over again.

Kathryn remembered the first time her father had come home from a dangerous mission. There were crowds of people at her house for weeks after the initial homecoming. Back then she wanted nothing more than to be like her father, to enjoy rubbing elbows with Star fleet's elite. But now times had changed and the only thing she wanted to do was hide. Hide from all of it.

Things had changed for Chakotay as well. After Seven had told him that he was insufficient for her, Chakotay's pride had been hurt. Deep inside him he knew that it would have never lasted, but his pride was still injured. He walked away from Star fleet alone, confident that he could forget the Delta Quadrant, but mostly her.

It was a typical rainy afternoon when Kathryn took a break, to cuddle in the corner next to the giant window in her office. She stared at the raindrops as they fell across the pane. He mind returned to the Delta Quadrant, the people that she missed, but mostly it recalled her non existent relationship with Chakotay.

Even though it had been a year since they had spoken the rash words between them, she had to admit that his words still stung. A part of her was lost that day, in that argument, with him. She never thought that she could ever be as angry as she was that day.