Thieving has been going less than well, considering my scedale has jumped back up to being busy and I am now sick. Oh well, consider this a filler.

*Spoilers for KotFE*

The mournful song of a violin started quietly in the captain's quarters of the Phoenix, growing steadily louder as the shaking hands of the player steadied. Emeldir walked out of his quarters, violin at his shoulder as he experimentally drew the bow across the strings. The instrument was one of the only things of his remaining in the Phoenix, hidden behind a loose panel in his quarters where no one that had laid their hands on his ship had bothered to look.

Emeldir closed his eyes, drawing the bow across the strings harder than he should have, wringing a shriek from the instrument. Five long years had past and being in his ship was difficult without his crew, echoes of memories sweeping across him in any room he entered. His quarters, the engine room, even the lounge area bringing back memories of Risha sharp as knives. Walking onto the bridge and turning to talk to Corso but instead finding no one.

His hand slipped again, another sharp cry of protesting strings filling the space around him. Letting his hands drop to his sides he clutched the violin like a lifeline. Yet he still found sanctuary in being in the ship for hours, sitting on the bridge, or against one of the walls in the silence. It took him away from being Commander, took away the lives that all relied on him and his decisions.

He forced himself to walk into the lounge, taking slow steps and allowing memories and emotion wash over him. Yes, this was where Risha had accepted his offer of marriage. And yes, he was now here alone. Bringing the instrument up to his shoulder once more he began to play softly, allowing his thoughts and emotion to flow to his playing. Yes, according to Risha's letter she had given up on him, and even before then so had Corso. Emeldir took a shuddering breath, the music he played shifting as his thoughts moved. No matter how many times he asked there was still no word on where his crew was, he had no contact with Captain Taqq even as they searched for her and that was fine.

Five years of his life were gone, he had to lead so many people all relying on him and that was also fine.

Lana, someone he thought he could trust, admitted in a letter after he had been stabbed by Arcann that she had only seen him as an asset instead of a person and that was fine with him.

He brought the bow across the strings hard again by accident and he paused, taking a deep breath before resuming. Arcann and Vaylin wanted him dead, the galaxy was falling apart at the seams and that was... okay. He could handle that.

Valkorian was in his head, trying to sway his actions and had caused the most pain he had had to endure when Arcann had stabbed him...Emeldir faltered, that was…

He pushed it away, playing louder to block his thoughts, putting all his concentration into what he was doing. If he drowned all else out he could almost imagine he was back on Coruscant, or simply back with his crew.

He didn't know how much time had passed or how long he had stood in the lounge, but he was still playing when the entry hatch to the Phoenix hissed open.

"I didn't realize you played the violin." Emeldir jumped, wincing when the music he had been putting so much thought into ended in a sharp shriek. "I'd always assumed you practiced shooting in all your free time."

He turned around slowly, setting his instrument down on the lounge chair next to him and using his sleeve to wipe at his eyes self consciously. At some point tears had started to fall and he hadn't bothered to try and stop them. "Theron. How'd you get in here, I put access codes back on the ship."

"Those weren't hard to slice into and disable." Theron almost sounded apologetic when Emeldir looked down, jaw working angrily. "You'd been missing for hours, Lana got worried when you didn't show up for your third meeting."

Oh. Emeldir pushed away the guilt at blowing off the Alliance meetings, lashing out at Theron scathingly. "My sincerest apologies for trying to be my own person again. I didn't realize my leash was so damn short."

"Emeldir…" Theron sighed.

"Theron." Emeldir snapped. "Don't say it, do not tell me I am acting childish or that I need to put the Alliance before myself. I never-" He stopped himself, sucking in a breath and forcing it out again slowly, trying to push away his returning anger. Without looking at Theron he snatched up the violin again beginning to play and hoping the other man would leave. But he didn't hear footsteps or the hatch open again. "Can't you take a hint?"

"I'm not here to drag you back." Emeldir scowled at the amusement hidden in the words. "And if you'd stop ignoring me, I have some good news."

Good news...Emeldir didn't believe him. Good news was a rarity around here, and not something that had been granted to him in a long time. He quieted what he was playing so he could hear Theron, but did not stop.

"I found Captain Taqq.."

Emeldir fumbled, dropping the bow and letting his other hand fall to his side as he turned. "You've what?"

The corner of Theron's mouth tilted up in the hint of a smile. "I've been trying relentlessly since Lana sent word that she rescued you. I've finally found her."

The breath rushed out of Emeldir's lungs and he sank down onto one of the couches, putting his face in his hands. Theron had found Rielay, he had found her. "Taqq's alright? Where is she?" He squeezed his eyes closed. This damned war, five years, he couldn't believe Theron's word alone that she was alright.

"The captain seemed alright, as good as anyone in this war is faring. I don't know where she is exactly, I was only able to make contact with her ship, but as soon as I mentioned you she was begging me to transmit coordinates to your location. She said she'd be here as fast as the hyperlanes can take her."

Emeldir laughed, a breathy disbelieving sound. "I need to talk to her. Holo her, something." He heard Theron begin to leave and looked up. "Theron, I...thank you. For what you've done."

Theron smiled at him for real this time, if a little awkwardly. "Anything to keep Lana from tearing Odessen apart thinking Valkorian's taken you for a woodland stroll again." He joked. "I'll leave you to make contact." As the older man left, Emeldir stood and walked to the holoterminal, leaning against it.

Theron Shan had no obligation to spend time searching for Emeldir's crew. And yet it had, and succeeded as no one else had been able to . He may not have found all of the Phoenix's crew, but he had found a piece of Emeldir's splintered family. That alone put him in a debt to Theron he surely would never be able to pay off.

"Deryn..kid, that really you?" He looked up as the holo frequency finally picked up and felt a wide smile spread across his face. Rielay Taqq stared back at him, hands over her mouth.

"It's me." His voice was hoarse and he cleared his throat. "I'm alive."