It's true, I like being with a lot of people but sometimes I just want to get away and have a time for my own. We all need that right? Observing the surrounding, listening to nature's hymn, everything seem so tranquil. My mind can't help but remember all those times when you were still with me. Those moments when you held my heart and I held yours. Tears stream down from my tired eyes. Even how much happiness those memories bring, it is always accompanied by pain, pain like no other, pain that hurts more than a rusted sword, pain that damages more than an atomic bomb. It's more than my cowardly heart can take. I need you now. I need your warmth. I miss the comfort of your embrace that makes me feel safe and sound.

Wars. I hate wars. It causes nothing but hurt. They say it's part of human nature still I love you the way you are, I wouldn't change who you are for the world. Wasn't my love for you enough that you needed to search for power. How many days had it been? Weeks, months, years, decades, centuries . . .I loss count. After all, I'm really not that smart. It feels like a millennium had pass since the day that you left. The day that you promised that you will come back to me, it's carved on my brain. Every step you took until your shadow disappeared. "No matter how many years pass, I'll love you the most of anyone in this world!" Those words of affection you let go are still. .It's burnt in my mind. If I had only knew that it was the last time I'll ever get to see you, I'll. . .I'll. . .I-I don't know. I feel so hopeless now. I wonder what they will do if they see this side of me. Can't you see how much I long for you right now?

I hate this sensation. Every thought, every move I make, all I see is you. Why? Please let me rest, I want to stop for a moment. No, I don't want to think, it'll only remind me of you. If sleeping is the solution I'll do it but no, I'll only dream of you. Is it a good dream or a beautiful nightmare? Either way, I don't want it because I know it's false, because I know it's only my fantasies, because I know that when I wake up, I'll only recollect that you're no longer here. Yeah, that's the reason why I sleep with my friends. I slid down to the floor. I sense something soft and silky. My fingers recognized the fabric. It's quite old but your scent still lingers on it. Is it raining inside? Oh, it's only these salty liquid coming out of my sore eyes. My apologies if I wet your clothing. I really can't control myself.

I am for you and you are for me, there's no argument in that statement. Now that you're gone, I feel so lost and weary. I'd do everything for you to return. I'm ready to give up all of me just to see your face, your beautiful blue eyes again. I want to love again yet I'm afraid to fall all over . . .my heart is still clinging to your promise. I just can't let you go. I'm missing you badly but for now I want you to always remember. . I'm waiting for you to come home,I love you.


My first fanfic but I don't know I think my grammar and story is wrong and unclear so sorry.

Happy New Year! I guess. . .