I want the Fire back!

I touch the fire and it freezes me,

I look into it and it's black,

Why can't I feel?

My skin should crack and peel,

I want the fire back!

(Buffy the Vampire slayer, the musical, drawn to the Fire)

Kai has become more and more distance these days. I don't know why.

He avoids me and he barely talks. Not that he talked that much before, but it looks like he completely has forgotten how to speak.

And I…I miss it somehow. I miss his voice, his commands, his glares but most of all…

I miss him.

I don't know how of why or when I started to miss him. I only know that I do. And I want to change that. I want him back. I want our phoenix back. I want the fire back!

But I don't know how I am going to do that.

Like I said, he's avoiding me. Like there is something he's trying to keep a secret for me.

And I need to know what is going on!

His silence makes me crazy! I barely sleep at night. I always think about him.

But now I think about it…He may be silent and avoiding me…but he still stares at me.

And by staring at me I mean…looking intensively at me. Almost like he looks right through me. It makes me shiver.

Maybe he hates me?

But then he would sneer at me, right? He would glare and yell at me. He wouldn't be silent.

Right?

I don't want him to hate me. I don't know why, but I just don't want him to hate me, to think of me in disgust.

Why am I feeling this way?

Why do I miss him?

Why do I think so muck about him?

Why do I think of him in the first place?

Why can't I get him out of my head?

I want to sit down and cry.

Is he going to leave us again? I don't want that.

I want him to stay close to us. I want him around…wait, no…I need him around.

It almost looks like I can't live without him, doesn't it?

Maybe…this is really a weird thought but…maybe I'm…Maybe I am in love with him…

No, that is ridiculous.

Right?

I can't love him.

I mean…its Kai! The greatest Beyblader after me.

He is strong, hot, cold-hearted, hot, sexy, hot, always smirking, hot, sometimes glaring, hot…

I love him.

Or do I only think he is hot?

But this all doesn't explain why he is avoiding me!

Or does it?

Does he know it and is he disgusted by it? Does he hate me for it?

Can this be a reason to leave?

I don't want him to leave!

I am really becoming an emotional wreck, aren't I? I can only think of him, I only dream of him.

But he is turning away from me. He is slowly leaving me, and the others, behind. Does he think that he is better than us? Or does he think low of himself?

I want him back! I want the Fire back!

But how?


Yeah yeah, I need to upload the others first, but the song was stuck in my head and...

just review XP

LaterZ