Hesitance

A Kanaya X Rose one-shot

Patience, it's something I've grown accustomed to. Playing waiting games is nothing new to me. However, I feel that I have begun to confuse that with hesitance. I'm not patiently awaiting for the right moment to appear. No. I'm being stubborn and hesitating every chance I get.

Believe me when I say I have been given a lot of chances. The amount of chances I have been given shouldn't be this high. I should have seized the opportunity long ago.

It's almost been a whole sweep now, and I have yet to say anything to her.

Sure, I have made little remarks every now and again, but I have yet to outright express my feelings.

I guess, actually, I know I'm just terrified of this being a repeat of Vriska. I'm scared of my feelings going unrequited, and then where will I be? I have also been informed that humans are particular about gender. This doesn't make sense to me, but the mysteries around the humans add to the appeal.

I can honestly say that I have never felt this way about anyone. There is just something about Rose that entices me so. Everything she does is fueled with grace. Just watching her delicately flip the pages of the book she is currently reading is graceful. The way she gently lifts the corner of the page as her violet eyes linger on the last words of her current page, well, for some reason this action makes me smile.

I watch on, and she doesn't seem to notice. We're alone, and we've been alone for quite some time now. Yet again, I'm passing up a perfectly good opportunity. However, hesitance claws at my very being. I need to act now. What if I lose my chance?

Cautiously, I lift my hand and just as I am about to place it atop her free hand, the sound of someone using the Transportalizer disrupts me. I quickly retract my hand, and a jade blush tints my cheeks.

"Hey," the voice of Dave says calmly.

"Sup," Rose promptly responds, turning to face the other blonde.

I silently curse at myself. If only I had acted sooner…