Marauder to traitor

Don't own harry potter

I know its wrong there is no doubt in my mind. What I'm about to do there is no going back. I'm so tired though. We have Prongs the strong and proud leader, padfoot the fierce loyal best friend, moony the clever smart one, the voice of reason. Then lastly there's me wormtail the follower the one who doesn't belong, the one who can't do anything right. You must think I'm deaf if you think I can't hear the whispers. They call me stupid, weak, a coward. Even my best friends, though it's more of a tease to them. The fact doesn't make it hurt any less. Pron…..James seems to be getting closer to the others while I'm drifting away, and no one bloody notices. Even if I didn't do this; they would all eventually forget about useless little Pettigrew. Some part of me wishes they would actually notice. Notice there's something wrong with me; try to stop it before I make this final step. They never will though they are the main focus and I'm just the background. He-who…..the dark lord is growing stronger and stronger with each passing day, if I spy on them, I'll be spared I won't have to face the utterly terrifying odds. Wow, I can't help but think bitterly .I am such a coward how the heck did I get sorted into Gryffindor. Maybe I shouldn't, maybe I should stay strong moony, padfoot and prongs will help keep me safe. No, it's a laugh really James is so busy obsessing over his new life with lily ,and now that I think about it so are remus and Sirius you would think they all were getting married. I'm going to do it the only option for someone like me. I'm going to live. I'll be a spy after all what do I have to lose. Ignoring the voice that whispered everything that says and you wondered why your animagus was a rat. Not noticing as time progressed, it got quieter and quieter until it disappeared completely.

I felt so small and useless compared to them, so left out. Animal or human, I always end up the least important. They would have forgotten about me. wouldn't they of ?