Title: Bottle of Whiskey

Author: Jamie

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Disclaimer: unfortunately, I do not own these lovely characters.  They belong to Chris Carter and 1013 productions.

Notes:  You guys remember my "this kiss" series?  This is going to be written in that format.

Dedication: to nikki, my chica. You know the reason, girl.

Bottle of Whiskey

Mulder pov

I'm an idiot.  Why you ask?  Because I just let the best thing in my life walk out the door with a man linked on her arm.  A man who isn't me.

Damn him damn him damn him to hell. Just how long has he known her huh? 5 minutes?  I have known her 5 years and yet…. Yet he's the lucky bastard who's got what I want.

What I need

What I desire

Hell she deserves to be happy.  She deserves someone who is not… so fucked like me.  She deserves someone who is … normal.  God knows I have screwed up her personal and professional life for years.

But damn it… I want her….

I need her.

She is the one who has always been there for me—who completes me; makes me whole.  She has always been the guiding light that keeps me from the edges of insanity. Even though in the beginning I thought that she was going to spy on me, she saved me.

Damn it, she's on a date.

With a man I want to kill.

All I have now is my bottle of whiskey to keep me company.