So, I was watching last nights WR, it was awesome! But I couldnt help that think maybe there was more to Nikki's involvement than just wanting to help. I love the character so will just see what the response is to this as to whether I continue it :-)
My first WR FF!
Disclaimer: I do not own Waterloo Road.
Nikki put her head in her hands. Sat alone in her classroom. Alone with her thoughts. She sighed as she reflected on the day's events, she couldn't help but feel she could have done more. An image of Josh sat in the back of the ambulance; tear stained face and scared eyes drifted into her mind. She shook her head slowly.
She had tried to help him, and Tom. She wanted to make it easier for them to adapt, for them to cope. But they thought she didn't understand, that she didn't know what they were going through, well Tom did anyway. Nikki knew Josh didn't. He didn't care. He was too distracted by the voices that taunted him.
She had felt so hopeless in the exam, she had seen him. Twitching, scratching his arm to pieces. She had seen him, recognised the signs, known something was wrong. But she couldn't help, she couldn't act. It was too painful. It brought back her memories. Nikki lifted her head from her hands slowly, she breathed deeply as she shut her eyes.
She had watched as he shifted in his seat, watched as he crouched to the floor, afraid, no terrified. The voices taunting him, torturing his mind. She had watched him flinch away as Michael and Tom tried to help him. She had heard him yell, they shouldn't touch him. He felt trapped. Alone. She saw the hurt on Tom's face. The pain as he watched his son tear himself apart, tormented by his own mind.
She had watched as he stormed from the room, his classmates watching in confusion, they didn't understand, they didn't know. She followed Tom and Michael. She remembered Josh's cries that he was infected, contagious, tainted. She felt the guilt, that dam video project. She heard Lauren leave the exam; explain Josh hadn't been taking his medication. Nikki groaned inwardly, she should have known, should have seen the signs. This had happened to her before.
She called an ambulance, her voice shook slightly as she remembered the last time she had made this call. Tom would hate her, and she knew it. But it was for the best, she knew that too. Josh needed help. He needed it before it was too late, before he did something really stupid. Nikki knew what that was like too, she knew the loss that Tom would feel if Josh listened to the voices. If he gave in to them.
Nikki rubbed her eyes violently, trying to push the images away. She opened the top draw of her desk. She smiled sadly, looking at the picture of the girl. The girl with dark hair and light blue eyes. The girl beamed up at her, totally unaware, totally innocent. Nikki felt her smile fade; she couldn't look at her anymore. The eyes seemed to bore into her. Making her remember, making her feel the guilt that she would always have.
Nikki put the picture carefully back into the draw, no point in wasting away in the past. She decided to visit Tom, he would need support right now, and Nikki knew it. Whether he liked it or not, Nikki decided, she was going to try to help.
So let me know in a review if I should continue this :-)
Rach
