A/N: I dont own Twilight or any of the characters except Shane who I created :)
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Chapter 1.
"Are you positive you can't just be happy being my wife Bella?" he asked quietly. I knew he did not want to change me. I knew it would hurt. I knew that I would be in pain. I knew that there was no other way to be with him forever. It was necessary, but nonetheless, I could see the pain in his eyes. He didn't want to be the one but he promised. I kept my end of the deal. It was his turn to fulfill his end.
"I figured you would try to get me to change my mind, but you know me well enough by now Edward. I'm not backing down now, after all this time," I replied, I was almost pleading. Why did he have to make things so difficult for me? I could see in his eyes, he knew that I would respond in such a way. He knew there was no way he could change my mind. He'd been trying for so long that it was just a lost cause. I was surprised I had changed his mind so soon before the wedding. Our wedding was 2 months away and I was certain that he wanted to change me after the wedding. His ice-cold hand found my cheek, almost reassuringly. His molten amber eyes stared straight into mine and I nodded. I was ready.
Suddenly, a look of focus appeared on Edward's pale face. It was almost scary. I knew he would not hurt me but I was all of a sudden apprehensive. He must have sensed it because his lips met mine in a kiss. "You don't have to do this," he whispered, turning his gaze away. Didn't he understand? I wanted to do this!
"I want to. I need to Edward. I have wanted this more than anything for long time. I trust you," I said turning my pale lips into a reassuring smile. I did trust him with my life. However, it was so hard to just let go of life like this. Jacob's words echoed in my head I'll be there until your heart stops beating. Well it was about to stop and Jacob was nowhere to be found. He refused to come. He wasn't at Billy's. He wasn't at Sam's. Billy refused to tell me where he was. It was almost as if he disappeared, dropped off the face of the earth, but there was always the funny feeling in my stomach, as if he was there watching me. His memory and face haunted me. I shivered at the thought of him. No. This was my moment. I wanted this. Jacob Black would not ruin this for me.
I stared at Edward. It's time. I almost screamed it in my head. It was moments like this that I wished Edward could read my thoughts. I hoped he would realize that I wanted it. I shut my eyes and prayed for his lips to touch my skin. I did not want to see his face. I did not want to see the animal like stare. I did not want to remember James' face two summers ago when he bit into the flesh. I could not bear to even think of Edward and his beautiful stare.
I could hear my heart beat in my ears. I listened to my pulse and waited for Edward's lips to press against my skin. The rhythm of my heart was almost mocking me. I didn't want to hear it. Then a noise disrupted my thoughts. I felt dizzy and nauseous. I turned to find the source of the noise, only to find Edward as still as a statue. I could only wonder what was going through his mind.
"Edward?" I asked cautiously. I wanted to know what had him so worried.
"Not quite, love," unfamiliar voice, said through the trees. I felt a shiver go up my spine and through my whole body as the source of the disturbance appeared from within the trees.
