Disclaimer: I don't own Hannah Montana or anything/anyone you recognize in this story. If I did, this show would NOT be on the Disney Channel.

A/N: I don't know where I got the idea of this story, it just popped into my head one day. This is a femmeslash story, so if you don't like that kind of stuff click on the back button. This is also going to be my first Hannah Montana fanfic, so read and review please. I'd really like to know if I should continue or not.

CHAPTER 1

I couldn't take it anymore, the sight before me was too much. I hastily gathered my things, pushed back in my chair, and stood up so fast the momentum made the chair fall backwards. I didn't even bother picking it up, I just left it down; the way I was feeling.

"I-I've gotta, I just remembered I had something to do," I lied through my teeth, "I'll see you guys later." I spun on my heels and walked away from the table as fast as I could.

I didn't know where I was going, I just let my feet guide me wherever it wanted. After walking for about ten minutes I finally stopped to register where I was. I looked around and noticed I was at the secluded part of the beach. "Even when I'm not paying attention to where I'm going, I find myself here," I quietly said to myself with a sigh.

I took a seat on the sand and leaned my back against the cliff behind me. I inhaled a deep breath and held it until my lungs burned, doing this always calmed me down. I stretched my legs out in front of me and crossed them at the ankles. I pulled them towards me and wrapped my arms around my shin. I laid my right cheek on my right knee cap and closed my eyes, only to have them snap open again.

Every time I closed my eyes I saw her hugging him, sitting on his lap, kissing his cheek, holding his hand, and laughing at his corny jokes. It was killing me inside for so many different reasons.

I was so deep in thought I didn't hear footsteps getting closer and stop just after the entrance way. "Hey," my head snapped up so fast I'm surprised I didn't get whiplash. "I knew I'd find you here." she said, leaning one shoulder on the large boulder behind her. As far as I know, we're the only two people who knew about this part of the beach. It was hidden by two huge boulders, the only way you'd find it is if you squeezed through the narrow gap between the two rocks or climbed up and over.

I just sat there, staring up at her, taking in her beauty. Her brown hair blew in the wind, and she looked like a model out of a magazine. Her usual warm chocolate eyes were a bit dull, and instead of having a bright smile gracing her face, she had on the saddest smile. Her smile made me sad, that smile didn't belong on her face. Such a pretty face shouldn't be graced with a smile so sad, even if it was me who caused it. She deserved nothing but the most radiant of smiles. I looked away when just staring at her was too much.

"I'm sorry." she said quietly. I shook my head "I'm sorry for everything." she continued, I just shook my head even more.

"No, no this isn't your fault," I said quietly, "this whole shit is my fault. I'm sorry." I breathed out. She pushed herself from the boulder and took a seat next to me. We weren't touching in any way, but I felt the heat from her body, making me shiver.

"No, it's not your fault! If anything it's both of our faults." she interjected.

"Bullshit! It's all my fucking fault we're in this dilemma!" I told her raising my voice, "if I didn't do what I did, we wouldn't be in this mess." I felt tears stinging my eyes, threatening to spill out.

"Will you fucking stop?!" she yelled, standing up just to look over me. "Stop putting the blame on yourself!" On instinct, I jumped back and hit my head on the cliff. I sat there for a while until the throbbing went away. I shook my head and stood up straight.

"Because the blame is on me!" I yelled back after setting my composure straight, "if I kept my emotions in check none of this shit would be hurting so much." she looked like she was going to say something, but I continued before she could, "I'd be hurting, but you wouldn't, you'd be happy with him and not worrying about hurting me. You wouldn't have to go all this bullshit. I thought I could give you happiness, all I've been doing is fucking shit up." I was trembling uncontrollably now with tears falling down my face like waterfall.

Through my tears I saw her standing in front of me with open arms. I feel into her warm embrace and calmed down when her scent hit my nose.

"Shhh... every thing's gonna be fine." she whispered in my ear, stroking my hair.

"No it's not," I muffled stubbornly into her shoulders, "every thing's gonna be even more fucked up." I pushed myself away from her and sat back down in my previous seat.

"Why do you always say that?" she sighed out before sitting next to me, closer than before.

"Cuz it's true," I paused to wipe away the remaining tears on my cheeks, "you're my best friends girl and we're like sorta going out... right?" she nodded her head. "Exactly! How is that not fucked up?" I asked with a frown.

"This is pretty fucked up, isn't it?" she asked with a giggle. I nodded my head.

"He's such a great guy too and he's trying really hard to be a good boyfriend to you too. I don't deserve a best friend like him." I mumbled out.

"And I don't deserve a boyfriend like him." I looked in her eyes and knew she meant it. I slid my right hand into her left hand and laced our fingers together; perfect fit.

"I don't want to keep having to lie about us," I said quietly, as she leaned her head on my shoulder, "but I don't want to hurt Oliver either."

"Just be patient, okay?" I nodded my head. "That day will come when we won't have to lie about us anymore, alright?" I nodded my head again. "I can't wait 'til it's officially us, Lilly."

"I'll be patient, I'll count down the days 'til we wont have to lie about us, and I can't wait 'til it's officially us too, Joannie."

"Seal that with a kiss?" she asked me innocently. The corners of my mouth curved up.

"Sure." I tilted her chin up with my free hand and tilted my chin down towards hers. I closed my eyes and leaned forward to give her a simple, sweet kiss on the lips.

We both pulled away at the same time with smiles on our faces, and shit, I think I've fallen even harder for my best friends girl.

A/N: Soooo, tell me what you think. Should I continue this or no? I've had all kinds of ideas for this story, but if no one likes it I'm gonna end it here. So please leave a review and let me know how you feel about this. Thanks for reading =)