Hi all,

This is my first attempt at a fanfic and Im not a writer, so please give any critism good or bad.

Im not going to ramble on, I just want to ask you to review, let me know if you think I should continue.

Thanks for reading.

Jayne x

Life not my own

Prologue

I shouldn't be doing this. It shouldn't be me or him that has to sacrifice our happiness or life for the mistakes of others. But that is exactly what's happening.

When I was younger and I would dream of this day, I imagined it to be all light, bright and happy. Lots of white décor with lots of red roses, and that I would be walking down the aisle in a gorgeous dress with a big smile on my face. Of course when I was younger I imagined him being the one I was walking towards.

Instead of feeling happy and excited, I feel dejected and depressed. I'm not even aware of any thing around me, I couldn't tell you what the décor was because I don't know, I don't want to know. I didn't do any of the planning and I certainly don't want to remember much of this day. But I have a feeling I would never be able to forget this day even if I wanted to.

I don't want to look away from my feet and see the audience that is here to witness the sham that's about to take place, I didn't want to look at the monster that's stood at the altar either.

I feel a pull on my right arm and realised it's my dad, I took my gaze off my feet and look at him. He doesn't want me doing this anymore than I do, but it's the choice's that he has made that has put me in this position. We aren't on the best speaking terms right now, but I still need him at my side no matter what.

He gives me a tight smile, one of which I cannot return, and starts to walk forward to the altar. I look straight ahead, still not looking at the monster in front or even anyone sat in the pews watching, and slowly start moving my feet in the same direction.

When I am just a few steps away from my new life, a life that I do not want to live. I turn my head and look to where he should be seated but I cannot see him. My dad squeezes my hand, he knows that, in that second all hope of this not continuing and that it will be stopped, has gone. Even though I knew there was no way out of it even if he was here. I turn my gaze back to the front and I look straight at monster.

He has a sadistic smile on his face, a smile that I know the meaning of all too well, a smile that means he's won.

We finally reach the altar, my dad gives my hand one last squeeze and kisses my cheek before he turns and takes a seat next to my crying mother, I see him take her hand. I took my gaze to my mother's face and notice she is crying, I gave her a small smile, to let her know I don't blame her. Even though I didn't make the mistakes that lead me to this moment, if this is what needed to be done to help my parents, I'll do it.

I turned back towards the front and listen to the priest as he starts the service.

"Dearly beloved, we are gathered together here in the sight of God, and in the face of this company, to join together this Man and this Woman in holy Matrimony.

Well I hope you like it, I will post chapter 1 tomorrow, Please dont forget to review and let me know what you think.

Jayne x