Okay, if you read the summary then you know there will be a couple of song-fic chapters. This is Max's journal so she is writing the stuff in her head that not even Angel knows about. There may be OOC-ness to it and I am sorry for that. This is Max's journal that the Flock knew nothing about, so they don't know

1: Breakaway, Age 6

Dear Journal,

I am still at the School. I think they said that I am six. I think that's older than what I was last time they told me my age. I hope it is. I heard this song playing on a radio during my break and I really liked it and can relate. The words are slanted and

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Well, the School IS like a small town and I do look out my cage.

Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

I would dream of what my life would be like would be like if I knew my parents and lived with them.

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me

No one pays attention to me here. Not that I mind. I just wish they weren't so cruel.

Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway

As hard as it would be, I do want to leave this place.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes ?til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

I do want to learn how to fly one day.

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

I would never forget the Flock, I would take them with me. The room the School keeps us in is really dark and I have never seen the sun.

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean

I have heard that the ocean is fun to swim in. I want to experience it for myself.

Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway

I would like to read about trains and planes. I have heard of them, but never seen them.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Now I know I need to learn to fly. It would just be so much fun.

Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

Again, never seen the sun.

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I want to know more about the world. More about how things work.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway

I am not going to repeat myself.

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

Again, not repeating myself.

Sincerely,

Maximum Ride

Fang POV
That was just so Max-ish. I wonder if she left her journal for us to discover or if she just forgot it. It was like a peek into the mind of the girl I had loved. The one who I'm pretty sure betrayed us. I opened to the last page. The entry was from the night we kicked her out. We told her she could stay the night but she had to leave the next morning.

Journal

Dear Journal,

I'm surprised I was able to keep this thing hidden for all these years much less keep it. I am leaving this for Fang. I just want to leave him one last thing. This message.

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

I'm surprised I kept my sanity this long, long enough to write this entry.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I would never cry for anyone but you Fang. Now I know you weren't the one.

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

There is nothing you can do. I let you in and let you learn my secrets but now I realize that was a mistake. I shouldn't have let you in, I should have let you be. I feel like I can never have a whole heart again.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

You have torn me to pieces. Of all of the Flock, I thought you would be the least likely to betray me. Seems like I was wrong.

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore

I don't know why I brought any pictures of the Flock, much less a picture of you, with me. But I don't feel like I can ever feel an emotion anymore.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I see now that the Flock doesn't need me. I can't pretend like you do. I can't deny that you guys were my family but I can't take you back either.

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I hope you realize what you did Fang. I hope you realize what all of you did. I will never be a regular Avian American again. I will always be broken.

Fang POV

I couldn't believe it. We had betrayed her, yeah, but we had a good reason. We thought she was betraying us. She was distancing herself a bit. Why? I don't know. Then I saw a page had been ripped out. I wonder what was on it.