By: Sightless Platinum
Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy or Tarzan.
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So cold, freezing, I hate the cold. . .I'm sick of it. I swear its killing me. Those icy shards of water piercing into my scarred skin as if it were attacking me. So cold. . . Being trapped with darkness for almost two years did this to me. But. . . I'm here now. . . searching for you. For someone I can't seem to remember. . .
Icy cold wind lashes at my body, trying to smash me against the ground. . . But I wont bow to the wind. Never. But its hurts. . . The cold air and the water dripping from my lips. . . Why does the cold always seem to follow me? Why does it constantly nag at me? As if taunting me with some superior act. As if saying "I took something from you and you can't have it back!"
I want to lash out at the air, and fight and beat it, as it abuses me further. But I don't. . . for my sanity, I don't. But the coldness is right. . . It took something from me. . .
Where are you Sora? Why can't I find you? Why I can't see you anymore? I can't see those blue eyes sparkling brighter then the sky could ever be. I don't remember what it was like to be with you. To be by your side. I don't know how to laugh . . . or smile without you Sora. I just don't.
When your gone. . . everything about me dies slowly. Like the coldness is killing me. . .And it hurts even worse, Sora. Oh God it hurts more then anything. Not to be able to see you in my mind. Not to be able to close my blind eyes and see you there whenever I want.
I remember you though. . . I remember that we were friends, that we were always together.
We never knew hate or fear or pain. I remember that so well.
I remember your name. But I can't remember your face. . . your eyes. . . those soft words I know you whispered to me all those night before. . . I remember our dreams we made together. To go away from our prison island. I remember that. But why can't I remember YOU?
I want to remember you so bad Sora. I'm sorry. I've tried so many nights and days, to remember those eyes that I know are blue like the ocean waves, like the sky on a clear summer afternoon that glowed like the sunset. So bright and full of life. But I can't see them anymore. . .
I was alone for so long Sora. Trapped inside that dark place while monsters and little creatures fed off my skin and blood. And slowly drained my life away day by day. The teeth that sank into my flesh like vampire fangs, those cruel minds ripping away at my heart and soul, taking away everything I had left. . . They took away you Sora. And I'll take you back! I swear it!
I'm trying to find you now. . .
But they took away my eyes. . . the darkness embedded itself in my eyes hidden beneath a layer of cloth. It hurts. Even when covered, my eyes bleed. Tears of Blood, and pain and hate and revenge. I want it all. I want revenge. . . I want to hate and I want to cause pain. . .
But there's something else I want to feel again. Love. . . happiness. . .
But neither are down the path that I have chosen.
I'm searching for you Sora. I may not be able to see those things around me anymore. But I'll find you. I swear it. I'll kill every last Heartless, every monster, every evil that stands in my way until I find you.
Why?
Because you reached for me.
That day a few years ago. . . You reached for my hand. You tried to pull me away from the darkness that threatened to drown me.
Only you Sora. Only you did. And I loved you. I fell in love with you that very day because you cared. And I cared so much for you as well. I wanted to protect you, take you away from all this darkness and evil that surrounded you because I didn't want to see that pure innocents in your eyes fade away is it did me. I remember all that Sora.
I haven't forgotten that day, but why did I forget you?
I swear I'll destroy everything that took you away from me, that made me forget. They deserve to die. They took away something that they shouldn't have. They crossed the line. I want to feel my blade stab into the warm flesh and feel their heartless body go limp. I want to hear them suffer, their cries, their moans, their pleas for mercy.
And they shall receive none! For they do not deserve it! For they showed me no mercy. I will take away everything they have as they did me. And maybe. . .if I do that, I'll remember. I'll feel that love I had for you once more. And I'll be able to listen to you laugh and talk, be able to see your eyes and your smile.
I'll take it all back.
And this is what I've become. My lust for revenge and suffering, compelled all by love. So what exactly am I?
I'm not evil. I don't kill innocents. I don't desire darkness as I did once before. I don't desire the destruction of all worlds. Or ultimate power. I protect the innocents. . . like the innocents that once reigned over your eyes and every actions. I want to protect that with all my heart because its beautiful. That sweet innocents that you lived by for so long, something that should never be taken away or abused. Something I will never have again. For I am to far gone. But you. . .Sora. I can protect you. I know I failed you so many times before, but I can now.
I promise.
I don't suppose that makes me noble though. I can't change the past, and the wrong things I have done. I can't just give up my hate towards these THINGS. I can't and I wont. I'm sorry. . .
So what am I now? What have I been reduced to?
Shadows.
During those long days. . . or nights in that place of heartless. While the heartless used me as food, it came to me. That luminous being. . .and those dark cold eyes. It said to me. . . "Take the powers of Light and Dark. . .use them." At least thats what I think it said.
I was on the brink of insanity when it came. I wanted to die, and I was hoping with all that was left of me that those creatures would just finish me off and get it over with. To end the endless torture they condemned me too. . . That I condemned myself to. I did this for you. To prove how sorry I was. . . and I am. . . But thats when I remembered something Sora. . . you reached for me.
When I woke. . . I had the power to protect you. My true powers. . .Shadow.
The Keyblades of Light and Darkness. The Shadow Keys. Together, I'll use this power to protect and to kill. . . as I was meant to do.
But why didn't you come after me? I know. . . I deserved it. You left me to what I had sentenced myself to. I wasn't worth saving. And I don't blame you. I wasn't. . .and I'm still not. I don't want you risking your life for me. And I never want you to. . .ever. But I'm sorry. . .I must see you again . . .I must. I'll find you. . .
"Riku. . . ?"
That voice. . . it sounds like mine. . . so like mine. . .
I want to open my eyes and see who it is. But I can't for my eyes are sightless.
Something warm touched my face. Oh God the warmth felt so good. I gasped, and whimpered. The sudden intake of air attacking my bruised lungs. But it felt so good. . .the hand stroking my cheek, and brushing back my soaking wet hair.
Heaven against the abyss of raining ice around me. But my instinct told me to lash out. . . to kill whoever this was. To use my powers and destroy this person who touched me with such gentleness and caring.
I felt a body press against me. . . so warm and alive. Filling the frozen bones with such exotic heat that I had longed for. And I never wanted this person to let go. Oh God. . .please don't let him let go.
"I know what you feel Riku. . . for I am you. I understand you, the pain and the suffering you feel constantly. Because I feel it too."
Warm wetness slips down my cheeks. Tears of Blood.
Those words he spoke to me. They break me into a thousand pieces and I shattered against the soaking wet ground. Clutching at the man who held me.
He understands me. . .
"Let me hold you brother. . ."
And I began to tremble. From the rain. . .from the heat. . . from the words he whispered into my ear and the pain that all racked my body. I wanted to die all over again. . . I wanted to die in this persons arms. I never wanted him to let go. I wanted to stay there. . forever. And melt the pain and suffering away until nothing was left but me in his arms. . . and I forgot you once more Sora. . . I'm sorry. . .
Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy or Tarzan.
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So cold, freezing, I hate the cold. . .I'm sick of it. I swear its killing me. Those icy shards of water piercing into my scarred skin as if it were attacking me. So cold. . . Being trapped with darkness for almost two years did this to me. But. . . I'm here now. . . searching for you. For someone I can't seem to remember. . .
Icy cold wind lashes at my body, trying to smash me against the ground. . . But I wont bow to the wind. Never. But its hurts. . . The cold air and the water dripping from my lips. . . Why does the cold always seem to follow me? Why does it constantly nag at me? As if taunting me with some superior act. As if saying "I took something from you and you can't have it back!"
I want to lash out at the air, and fight and beat it, as it abuses me further. But I don't. . . for my sanity, I don't. But the coldness is right. . . It took something from me. . .
Where are you Sora? Why can't I find you? Why I can't see you anymore? I can't see those blue eyes sparkling brighter then the sky could ever be. I don't remember what it was like to be with you. To be by your side. I don't know how to laugh . . . or smile without you Sora. I just don't.
When your gone. . . everything about me dies slowly. Like the coldness is killing me. . .And it hurts even worse, Sora. Oh God it hurts more then anything. Not to be able to see you in my mind. Not to be able to close my blind eyes and see you there whenever I want.
I remember you though. . . I remember that we were friends, that we were always together.
We never knew hate or fear or pain. I remember that so well.
I remember your name. But I can't remember your face. . . your eyes. . . those soft words I know you whispered to me all those night before. . . I remember our dreams we made together. To go away from our prison island. I remember that. But why can't I remember YOU?
I want to remember you so bad Sora. I'm sorry. I've tried so many nights and days, to remember those eyes that I know are blue like the ocean waves, like the sky on a clear summer afternoon that glowed like the sunset. So bright and full of life. But I can't see them anymore. . .
I was alone for so long Sora. Trapped inside that dark place while monsters and little creatures fed off my skin and blood. And slowly drained my life away day by day. The teeth that sank into my flesh like vampire fangs, those cruel minds ripping away at my heart and soul, taking away everything I had left. . . They took away you Sora. And I'll take you back! I swear it!
I'm trying to find you now. . .
But they took away my eyes. . . the darkness embedded itself in my eyes hidden beneath a layer of cloth. It hurts. Even when covered, my eyes bleed. Tears of Blood, and pain and hate and revenge. I want it all. I want revenge. . . I want to hate and I want to cause pain. . .
But there's something else I want to feel again. Love. . . happiness. . .
But neither are down the path that I have chosen.
I'm searching for you Sora. I may not be able to see those things around me anymore. But I'll find you. I swear it. I'll kill every last Heartless, every monster, every evil that stands in my way until I find you.
Why?
Because you reached for me.
That day a few years ago. . . You reached for my hand. You tried to pull me away from the darkness that threatened to drown me.
Only you Sora. Only you did. And I loved you. I fell in love with you that very day because you cared. And I cared so much for you as well. I wanted to protect you, take you away from all this darkness and evil that surrounded you because I didn't want to see that pure innocents in your eyes fade away is it did me. I remember all that Sora.
I haven't forgotten that day, but why did I forget you?
I swear I'll destroy everything that took you away from me, that made me forget. They deserve to die. They took away something that they shouldn't have. They crossed the line. I want to feel my blade stab into the warm flesh and feel their heartless body go limp. I want to hear them suffer, their cries, their moans, their pleas for mercy.
And they shall receive none! For they do not deserve it! For they showed me no mercy. I will take away everything they have as they did me. And maybe. . .if I do that, I'll remember. I'll feel that love I had for you once more. And I'll be able to listen to you laugh and talk, be able to see your eyes and your smile.
I'll take it all back.
And this is what I've become. My lust for revenge and suffering, compelled all by love. So what exactly am I?
I'm not evil. I don't kill innocents. I don't desire darkness as I did once before. I don't desire the destruction of all worlds. Or ultimate power. I protect the innocents. . . like the innocents that once reigned over your eyes and every actions. I want to protect that with all my heart because its beautiful. That sweet innocents that you lived by for so long, something that should never be taken away or abused. Something I will never have again. For I am to far gone. But you. . .Sora. I can protect you. I know I failed you so many times before, but I can now.
I promise.
I don't suppose that makes me noble though. I can't change the past, and the wrong things I have done. I can't just give up my hate towards these THINGS. I can't and I wont. I'm sorry. . .
So what am I now? What have I been reduced to?
Shadows.
During those long days. . . or nights in that place of heartless. While the heartless used me as food, it came to me. That luminous being. . .and those dark cold eyes. It said to me. . . "Take the powers of Light and Dark. . .use them." At least thats what I think it said.
I was on the brink of insanity when it came. I wanted to die, and I was hoping with all that was left of me that those creatures would just finish me off and get it over with. To end the endless torture they condemned me too. . . That I condemned myself to. I did this for you. To prove how sorry I was. . . and I am. . . But thats when I remembered something Sora. . . you reached for me.
When I woke. . . I had the power to protect you. My true powers. . .Shadow.
The Keyblades of Light and Darkness. The Shadow Keys. Together, I'll use this power to protect and to kill. . . as I was meant to do.
But why didn't you come after me? I know. . . I deserved it. You left me to what I had sentenced myself to. I wasn't worth saving. And I don't blame you. I wasn't. . .and I'm still not. I don't want you risking your life for me. And I never want you to. . .ever. But I'm sorry. . .I must see you again . . .I must. I'll find you. . .
"Riku. . . ?"
That voice. . . it sounds like mine. . . so like mine. . .
I want to open my eyes and see who it is. But I can't for my eyes are sightless.
Something warm touched my face. Oh God the warmth felt so good. I gasped, and whimpered. The sudden intake of air attacking my bruised lungs. But it felt so good. . .the hand stroking my cheek, and brushing back my soaking wet hair.
Heaven against the abyss of raining ice around me. But my instinct told me to lash out. . . to kill whoever this was. To use my powers and destroy this person who touched me with such gentleness and caring.
I felt a body press against me. . . so warm and alive. Filling the frozen bones with such exotic heat that I had longed for. And I never wanted this person to let go. Oh God. . .please don't let him let go.
"I know what you feel Riku. . . for I am you. I understand you, the pain and the suffering you feel constantly. Because I feel it too."
Warm wetness slips down my cheeks. Tears of Blood.
Those words he spoke to me. They break me into a thousand pieces and I shattered against the soaking wet ground. Clutching at the man who held me.
He understands me. . .
"Let me hold you brother. . ."
And I began to tremble. From the rain. . .from the heat. . . from the words he whispered into my ear and the pain that all racked my body. I wanted to die all over again. . . I wanted to die in this persons arms. I never wanted him to let go. I wanted to stay there. . forever. And melt the pain and suffering away until nothing was left but me in his arms. . . and I forgot you once more Sora. . . I'm sorry. . .
