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Hello everyone! This is my first Vampire Knight story, so please enjoy!
Feel free to review, but please be easy on me, seeing as this is, INDEED, my first story ever.
This is Yuki x Zero, so if you have any strong issues with this pairing, I would advise you to leave quickly and calmly, please. ^^
I don't think there will be anything to the extreme in terms of lemon, but do be advised that in future chapters there may be some scenes. So for now, this is a T rated story.
This story is from the view of Yuki.
Thank you! Enjoy!~
It was almost evening time.
Zero and I were in the usual area, prepared for the riot to come. I waited patiently as I always did, observing the crowd of eager girls as they gathered nearby. They were allowed to be here, but we were here to keep things under control. After all, they were waiting to admire the Night Class, who were the most beautiful people here. Everyone in the Day Class always wondered why they were so beautiful. Well, it wasn't a surprise to me as to why. The Night Class was full of vampires.
I had to admit to myself that I was slightly impatient as well. Kaname would be among the Night Class crowd. I had always looked up to him since the day he had saved my life. I felt nervous and jumpy around him each time I saw him, but lately I had been having thoughts about my feelings and behavior. I just had a crush on him. If I really loved him like I thought I did, I wouldn't have any problem communicating with him, right? I wouldn't be afraid of being myself in front of him if that were the case. I was just as terrible as the girls swooning over the Night Class.
The doors opened and there he was, along with other students. The crowd of girls went crazy. Zero snapped and yelled at many of them while I pushed some of them out of the way. Kaname approached me, smiling. He asked how I was and I responded. I asked him the same, smiling back, but something felt different. As he stood before me, my nerves were calm. I thought this was a good sign, meaning I really did love him, but something else was missing. I suddenly realized a connection of sorts to him. I had been thinking about it for a long time and I knew the real answer now. I didn't love him like that.
He may have saved my life that one night, and he had always been around me for the next few years to watch over me, but after a certain point in time we drifted slightly. He still talked to me and I never felt ignored in his presence, but I now understood one thing. He felt like a brother to me. My crush on him was gone forever.
At dinnertime, everyone but the chairman was quiet. He talked about the days events, while he took bites between words and sips of his drink at the end of each sentence. I loved him, after all, he was stepfather. But there were some days when I just didn't care to listen. My eyes drifted over to Zero. He had a bored expression on his face, his attention on his plate of food while he picked at it with his fork. He suddenly looked up and gave me a strange look. I then realized that he had caught me staring. I gave him a meaningful and apologetic look in return and went back to my plate.
After dinner, the chairman hugged me goodnight, which I kept from lasting too long. I caught my breath when he let go and watched as he attempted to hug Zero, which was dodged quickly and converted into a genuine pat on the back. I giggled quietly at the sight and was about to leave when the chairman spoke.
"Yuki, please hold on a moment. I have something to discuss with you and Zero."
I turned back and walked to Zero's side in front of the desk where the headmaster now sat, his optimistic mood turned serious. I waited for his words.
"The holiday break begins tomorrow," He stated.
There was a moment of silence. Zero and I nodded so that he would carry on. The headmaster's serious tone turned cheerful, and he smiled.
"I have arranged for us to stay at a vacation house, starting in three days. See that you are prepared by then. You may now leave."
He accompanied us out the door and closed it quickly behind us. Zero let out a loud and annoyed sigh. I let out a soft laugh and began to walk to my room. Zero followed behind me, keeping a short distance. After a few minutes, I slowed my steps so that we could walk together. When I did that, his footsteps stopped altogether. I looked back at him to see him looking down, his silver hair covering his eyes. I walked up to him so that I was directly under his gaze. He seemed taken aback from this action, but he only moved away a little.
"What's wrong Zero?" I asked him sternly.
"I'm just…" He trailed off. He seemed uncertain to speak. I kept my eyes locked on him. He then spoke again. "It's just that, I've had enough of everything. I hate myself. I'm sickened at the feelings I get and the things I crave. What I want is falling through my hands. I just want…release. Yuki, just kill me now." He looked down again, and I could see pain in his eyes. I knew how he felt, and it made me cry inside. Instinctively, I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him. He slightly flinched, then relaxed, breathing out a mixed sigh of sadness and relief.
"Zero…I can't take your life."
"I drink only your blood when I am thirsty for it. I am a monster for harming you. You'll be better off with me gone. I would rather die at your hands than those of anyone else." This response made me cry inside even more. I felt disturbed at the thought of killing my childhood friend. It was something I could never even consider to do, even knowing how much Zero suffered. I knew that. He had given me the permission and the authority to do it. His life was in my hands. But I had gotten used to him drinking from me, and I didn't mind doing so even for the rest of my life. It was never a pleasant experience, but I was more than willing to keep him alive. I would do anything to keep him alive. I couldn't hold back my emotions anymore and tears streamed down my face as I loudly sobbed. Zero seemed to take notice and tightened the embrace. I felt warm and safe in his arms and was a bit disappointed when he let go.
"You aren't a monster to me." I spoke softly as tears fell from my eyes. "If I were to kill you, I wouldn't be better off. I'd be living in misery forever, from what I did and not having you around. I could never forgive myself."
Zero placed a hand on my face and whipped the tears away with his thumb. He smiled slightly, but I could tell he was hurt, both from his emotions and from seeing me like this.
"Why do you defend the terrible beast inside me, Yuki?" He held me to him and soothed my sadness. He soon let go and then we walked onward to our rooms in a painful silence.
That night, I couldn't sleep. I was too worried. There were too many thoughts going through my mind. All of them were about Zero. What if he got to the point of madness, and tried to harm himself? I knew he wanted only me to be the one to end his life, but I still could never be certain with him. "Yuki, just kill me now." Those words echoed in my head as I let the tears pour. I couldn't live with him not wanting to live. I wanted there to be a way for him to be happy. His happiness was all that mattered right now. I had never realized until now how much he was suffering. He didn't want to harm me by taking my blood. He called himself a monster for that. That seemed to be the only reason he wanted to die. I was that reason.
I had to make sure that he was alright.
I snuck quietly down the hallway to his room. Not wanting to disturb him, I slowly opened his door and peered in. He was laying on his bed, sleeping. But I panicked when I saw him move around restlessly. He was sweating and breathing hard. I thought at first that he might be in need of blood, but he had already gotten enough the day before. Perhaps he was having a nightmare. I carefully shut the door and silently walked in. I kneeled by his bed and laid my head down, watching him. He seemed to have calmed down instantly, almost like he knew I was there. He breathing became normal again and he looked peaceful. I couldn't help but stare. He was just as beautiful as the students in the Night Class. No, he was more than what they were, even though he was a vampire like them. He was gorgeous. I felt a warm feeling go through me as I studied his features. His hair was a unique shade of silver which shined in the moonlight. His skin was pale but it had a strange beauty about it. I then thought about his eyes. They were a gleaming color of purple, almost like amethyst crystals. I wished that I could see them now, but seeing Zero sleep was a sight to behold.
Something dawned on me at that moment. Zero was always there to protect me. Ever since the day he had arrived at the academy, he kept harm from coming to me. Even though he never showed his true emotions that often, I knew that I was important to him. We would occasionally fight like siblings, make fun of each other, and do other things that would seemingly block these emotions. I never thought much of it because of those things, and I was too focused on my job and my feelings for Kaname. But now that I had figured out what I really felt for Kaname, I was able to think clearly. Now I truly did understand why he would rather die than take blood from me. Now I understood why he called himself a monster. I could see the truth. He cared about me. I didn't know if he felt any extreme emotions for me or anything of that nature, but one thing was certain. Right there, in this moment of serenity, I looked at Zero in a new way. I was in love with him.
The memory of Zero holding me close was the last thing on my mind before I drifted into a sound sleep.
Well, that is the first chapter. Please review, and thank you for reading! ^^
(More chapters to come!~)
