april 15 , 2009
TITLE : Christmas Again
CHAPTER/S : FIVE chapters COMPLETE !
AUTHOR : RedsunsetgirL
GENRE : romance , drama
PAIRINGS : who else ? AMUTO
SYPNOSIS : Amu hated Christmas so much because of what had happened in the past. who can break the barrier she made around her heart? can a guy break it?
RedsunsetgirL : hello again minna ! i'm back ! this story of mine ---Christmas Again--- was published already using my other pen name ABBYKOI28 but i've only posted the first two chapters of it .. and now , i've edited it and i'm now finished writing this story *claps* .. it's a five chapter story so i hope you'll read it .. *looks around* where's my boY ? have you seen him ?
BlacksunsetboY : *suddenly appears* yow minna-san ! i'm back !
RedsunsetgirL : whatever ! just do the disclaimer so i could go on with the story
BlacksunsetboY : RedsunsetgirL doesn't own SHUGO CHARA but the story CHRISTMAS AGAIN was hers .. kindly hit the green button below .. she'll appreciate it .. and sorry for some wrong grammars *laughs*
RedsunsetgirL : shut up ! Lights Camera , ACTION !
CHRISTMAS AGAIN
- Chapter One : Darkness -
by : RedsunsetgirL
When she opened her eyes, all she could see was darkness---a never ending darkness. She didn't mind the darkness because she's been living in darkness since she doesn't know.
She loved darkness ever since because no one could see her true feelings---no one could see her hurting.
She heard voices outside her house, voices that came from children and they seem so happy and she knew the reason why.
Today was Christmas, the most special day for every child and at the same time, the day that she hated the most. She never celebrated Christmas since she was three. For her, Christmas was just an ordinary day. It would pass and that's it! She never cared at all.
How could she celebrate and be happy when that's the same day when her mother died---because of her. Her father blamed her on the death of her mother and she hated herself even more because of that.
Her mind could still vividly remember what exactly had happened that time. That time when her bright world turned upside down.
she was three years old when that accident happened. they were at the park that time, celebrating christmas. she's playing with her dolls and she saw a cat near the road. she approached the cat and she run when the cat run. she didn't realized that she's now standing at the middle of the road. she heard a loud noise and the last thing she knew was that she was pushed at the road side.
it was her mother who saved her. but she died because of the impact of the bump. she lived but her mother didn't make it.
at a small age, she could understand what had happened. she knew that everything was all her fault. so many 'if only' popped in her mind. who's the one to be blamed of her mother's death? its her.
she saw how her father suffered because of that accident and that's the reason why she blamed herself even more. she didn't deserve to be happy when her own father was suffering.
and now, it's been fifteen years but she's still hurting badly because of the death of her mother. past was still haunting her. there's a never ending pain, hurt and regret in her heart that could never be erased.
but what hurt her most was the cold treatment coming from her own father. she could understand her father's feeling but she was suffering too! she lost her mother too! and she's too you to cope for the lost.
since that accident, her father became distant and so cold. they never talked since then. no 'hi' or 'hello'. it's as if she didn't exist at all. and she knew, when her mother died, she lost her father too.
she punished herself. she didn't go out her room and every time she's outside her room, she always remain her distance to other people. many tried to befriend her but she shut her heart and her ears. all of them give up except for one person.
how she wished that she could trade place with her mother so that her father would not became like this, so that she would not suffer like this. she knew that it's different if it's her and not her mother. looking at her, they would say that she's cold-hearted but inside, she's melting and she's hurting.
"Amu? are you there? please answer me" she heard the voice coming outside her room and she knew instantly who it was.
her heart could easily find out who it was
"i know you're there so open the door Amu" the person outside commanded
something flipped inside her heart when she heard his musculine and husky voice.
she never bothered to open the door. she didn't even moved a bit so the person outside kept on knocking. then, after a few minutes of knocking and getting no response, he stopped.
she sighed in relief when she heard his footsteps going away. she's relieved at the same time, sad. it always happened every time, somebody would come and call her but eventually, they would go away and leave her behind. she's fine with it actually. she wanted to be alone in the first place.
but still, deep inside her heart, she wanted someone to stay with her, to be with her. but, who will do that? the answer lies in these words---no one.
so she made a facade. she showed them that she didn't need them, that she wanted to be alone. but, that's a lie---a damn lie that she have to stand all the way.
"i'm fine alone anyway" she murmured
*to be continue*
RedsunsetgirL : hope you like the first chapter ! i'll try to post the next chapter by tomorrow .. *smiles*
BlacksunsetboY : don't forget to hit the green button below guys !
RedsunsetgirL : jya mata ne !
my inspiration in writing this Fanfic .. CASSIS by The GazettE
CASSIS
by : The GazettE
Aa Zutto kurikawa shiteta zutto kanashimi masete a bakaridatte
Haa Kittoanatasaemo kizutsukete boku wa ugokenu
Mama
Anatani furerukotoga naze konnani kurushiinodesuka?
Kitto onaji koto wo kurikaeshite anata wo ushinatteshimaunoga kowakattakara
Yorisoukotode nuguoutoshita wasurekirenakattahi wo
Anata wa nanimo kikazuni konote wo nigittekuretane
Ashita anatano kimochi ga hanaretemo
Kitto kawarazuni aishiteiru
Ashita anatani boku ga mienakutemo
Kitto kawarazu aishiteiru
I will walk together, the future not promised,yeah..
It keeps walking together, to future in which you are...
Tsuraikotosae wasurerukurai
Anata wo omotteiru
Aenaiyoru wo kazoerutabini
Kogarerumune
Kakechigai no sabishisatsunoru douka hitorikiridenakanaide
Donnani hanareteitemo shinjiaeru futarideiyou
Douka konomama warateitai
Anata wo kizutsukesasenaide
Toki ga tatsutabi usureteitta
Annaomoi kurikaeshitakunai
Ashita anatano kimochiga hanaretemo
Kitto kawarazu aishiteiru
Ashita anatani bokuga mienakutemo
Kitto kawarazu aishiteiru
Douka bokudake wo mitsumeteite (I will walk together..)
Douka konotega tokenuyou (I will walk together..)
I will walk together, the future not promised,yeah..
It keeps walking together, to future in which you are...
Haa aa..to future in which you..are...are~..
