Jensen:
*Ugh, Jared did it again,* he thought. *He always dicks around, jokingly trying to kiss Misha and I.* Jensen was finally starting to let Jared's jokes get to him. There were many times that Jared tried to kiss him in public. Jensen would usually shove him away laughing, at first. Lately, however, he had been getting visibly annoyed at Jared's constant teasing. *When this crap first started, I actually quite liked the attention, * he silently thought. *Then Misha joined the cast during season 4 and I realized I was not special... Jared also started doing it to him. And I was upset, because I wanted to be the only man Jared tried to kiss, even if it was a joke. But seeing him dick around with Misha made me unable to deny the hard truth any longer: it really was all a joke to Jared. Deep down I always knew it was, which is why I always shoved him away, laughing. Shoving him away was also the only thing keeping me from pulling him into a kiss…and I know THAT would only end in losing him. And that is something I can't allow. *
Jared:
Jared was watching Jensen from across the set. *He looks pissed, maybe I should tone it down,* Jared sadly thought to himself. *I can't let Jensen know the truth, it would ruin this friendship we've built for over a decade. Maybe I should just stick to pranking Misha for a little while.* Jared frowned to himself and thought, *but that is not the same. I mean, the only reason I started joking around with Misha was so Jensen wouldn't catch on to my feelings for him. It was a bit obvious with me only doing stuff like that to him for 3 years…I didn't want him to figure anything out, so when a new actor joined I saw an opportunity to hide my feelings. Besides, Jensen has made it painfully clear that he thinks of it as a joke, always shoving me and laughing. So I thought, 'why not play it up as a joke?' But now I'm miserable. If I continue to bug Jensen, he may get annoyed enough that I lose him. And that is something I can't allow.*
