It was a late Saturday night or rather a really early Sunday morning and there was a party in someone's home, yet the people were still partying with all their might, the music was so loud and I was incredibly tired and dazed by it, I would much rather be home right now but I am waiting quite impatiently for my friend to finish her "business"… wherever she was
I was just lying against the wall, it's not something I do a lot but at the moment I didn't care about my image, so I'm silently looking for the cause of my sleeplessness… that was until some guy from the party started hitting on me
"Come on babe let's hang out for a bit, you won't regret it" said the guy with a flirtatious tone
"Ara… thank you for the invitation but I'm not interested" I simply ignored him and continued to search for my friend, tough the guy didn't seem to get the message
"Don't be such a party pooper, come on!" he took me by the arm pulling me towards him, I was so surprised by his actions and couldn't stop him, that was until my night in shinny armor came to my rescue
"You let go of her this instant before I disfigure your face asshole!" said a girl with midnight color hair, it was her … my Natsuki
"What the fuck, back off broad" said the guy trying to hide the fact that he was actually pretty scared
Natsuki pushed the guy away from me and graved my hand guiding me out the house where the party was taking place, she was rather pissed off and I am sure that the guy who was flirting with me wasn't the reason of her mood…
We got on her motorcycle and left the place, we stopped in a very familiar place, it was place where you can easily see the ocean, were Natsuki often went to when she felt depressed or simply looking for some peace and quiet
I got down from the motorcycle and soon after Natsuki did too
"so, how did it go?" I asked her, already knowing the answer of my question
She said nothing and just looked at the ocean and so did I
It seemed like the sun was about to come out, such a beautiful dawn for such a depressing moment, what a waste..."wait, just how much time have we been out anyway?" My thoughts were interrupted when Natsuki started to talk to me
"Why can't I be loved by her?" Natsuki clench her teeth and tighten her fist "she just doesn't give a shit about me yet… I would give my life for her" Natsuki's voice was trembling and soon after that tears started to fall freely on her cheeks
I knew that this was going to happen, I have known Natsuki for 3 years now, and even do she is not an easy girl to approach we have been best friends ever sense …after 1 year of knowing her, she met this particular girl who apparently made Natsuki's world rock and roll… she had deeply fallen in love with this aika person who I have yet to meet but I'm not really excited about doing so besides the fact that no one really knew who that girl was… Natsuki is just like a faithful puppy with a bad owner, no matter how good she thinks her relationship is going, in the end she will just get hurt, aika does not appreciate the love Natsuki offers her… yet Natsuki will always go back to her even if she knows that in the end she will get hurt over and over again…
I went over to hug her trying my best to comfort her…
And tough I'm growing tired of this vicious cycle, I'm no different… how could I judge her mistakes when I myself have been in love with her all this time
My Natsuki
I brought her closer to my body, searching for the warmth that I so much yearn to get from her
I've always been by her side
Hiding her face in the crook of my neck, I have free access to the smell of her hair and I help myself to intoxicate my nose with her scent…
This is truly a rear moment, I'm used to be around a fearful, confident and an oh so strong Natsuki but I must add that she is beautiful even in such a weak and fragile state…I wish I was the reason of her tears …
And I don't know when, where or how but I started to fall in love with her to the point where, if she falls I want to help her up, even If I ended up sinking in the process…
Natsuki seems to feel better, she lets go of me and is now standing in front of me
"If you love her, let her go… if she comes back she is yours" I said to her giving her one of my good fake smiles that I have developed during my whole life, finishing the sentence in my mind "and if not … she never loved you to begin with" I should listen to my own advises sometimes…
"Thanks, I guess you are right" she was a bit more cheerful but then her expression changed as she looked at me with a concern face "you must be so tired… I'm sorry for waking you up and asking you to come with me…I'm such a bad friend and a bother too" she said a bit ashamed while she scratched the back of her head
"Hmm? Does my Natsuki feel guilty?" deciding to teasing her a bit "I should charge you for this" I said with a suggestive smile as I got closer to her taking advantage of our closeness "and I have some ideas of how you can pay me" whispering to her ear
"W-what? Shizuru stop teasing me you Idiot!" said a totally cute and red Natsuki
I just giggled "you are just so adorable, my sweet little Nat-su-ki" after that said I kissed her cheek and started to run towards the motorcycle leaving a shocked and super blushed Natsuki
"Natsuki I can see steam coming out of your ears!" smiling from ear to ear
"YOU STUPID! W-WHO SAID I'M YOURS AND I'M NOT STEAMING!" ignoring her complains I was laughing until she started running towards me, that "obligated" me to escape from her, hiding behind her motorcycle while she tried to catch me… so much fun, such innocent fun…
1 year latter…
"Hey you two, over here!" said a orange head girl as she got closer to natsuki and shizuru
"Good afternoon mai-san" shizuru said as she lightly bowed her head
"Hey" said a more carefree natsuki
"Good afternoon to you shizuru-san" exclaimed happily as she nodded to shizuru and then turned to natsuki "and you should have at least learned some manners by now, don't you think?" mai scolded
"Geez what do you want anyway?" natsuki barked at mai
"I was just wandering if you two love birds are going to assist tonight's party at Tate-kun's place it's goi…" mai was suddenly interrupted
"Don't wanna"
"Come on natsu…" again mai was interrupted
"So natsuki is saying we are a happy couple I'm so happy!" shizuru claped her hands and smiled
"W-wha? I never said anything like!" faced her away with a red face
"uh…guys?" mai tried to talk but was unsuccessful
"Ara is natsuki denying that we are going out together? I'm so sad…Is it because I'm not good enough for you?" hiding her face with her hands faking sobs
"n-no it's not like that, what I mean is…." Natsuki continued her explanation while mai just stood there with a sour face and sweat drops falling from her face
"I-I'll just go ahead and …you know… leave I'll let you two have on your lovers' quarrel in peace" mai hurried and took her leave
"WE ARE NOT LOVERS!" yelled an embarrass natsuki while shizuru hugged her from the back as she waved her hand as a bye to mai "see you tonight!"
Later that day …
There was a pouting little midnight puppy in a chair crossing her arms and avoiding seen shizuru's face
"natsuki… you know you can't ignore me all day" peacefully drinking tea
"shiz! Why did you do that? I don't want to go…you know I hate that guy!" said quite irritated "he doesn't deserve her…" lowered her head
"well… I'm not too wild about him myself but if he makes mai happy, then there is really nothing we can do" shizuru tried to reason with natsuki
"Nobody will make mai happier than mikoto" murmured
"I won't deny that but… things just happened, just like…that night"
Natsuki just looked at shizuru, her deep blue eyes trying to decipher those mysterious crimson eyes
"shizuru…"
"look at the time" shizuru glanced at her watch "we must head out now if we want to have time to get ready for the party"
"yeah you are right…" natsuki smiled
Shizuru's home
Shizuru got out of the shower she was wrapped in a towel and looked at the clock on her apartment
"Ara it's 9:00 pm Natsuki will be picking me up around 10:30"
Shizuru dried herself up and started to get ready for the party
"It's been around 8 month's sense that night's affair…"
Flashback
It was a rainy Thursday in midnight, natsuki came to my apartment she was totally drunk and hurt and all that came in to my mind was the same story, was once again happening, but I was wrong…tonight was different
"Natsuki you are soaking wet!" I was really concern about this girl, how can she be so thoughtless, she should at least know that I worry sick for her…
I lead natsuki inside the house and then ran to go get a towel and a change of clothes for her but I was stopped when natsuki took my hand, I turned around to see what was wrong
"no more" she said, and got closer to me
She kissed me
I was shocked but I didn't back of, I replied the kiss closing my eyes and giving in until …she kissed me…Harder
She nailed me to the wall with no compassion, biting and licking my neck, I can't help but moan
This only seamed to turn natsuki on
I hanged to her tightly as if she would be taken away from me and she carried me to the bedroom where things started to get blurry…
Next morning I woke up to the reason of my adoration, I think I can now say obsession … she looked perfect
"I love you…"natsuki mumbled in her sleep, I couldn't help but blush…
But I knew that I was just used, if I were an innocent high school girl in love I would have had my heart broken for I know not to get my hopes high because last night was the night of the beginning of natsuki's desperate moments…
"aika" natsuki finished her sentence
I felt an ache in my heart, tears threaten my eyes because they wanted to go out, but I can't let them escape, I smile … a sad smile
When she woke up, the morning was filled with apologies
After all that we were fully clothe
I told her not to worry…
"We can say we had a good moment no?" I teased her
"How can you take it so lightly! Shizuru I did something wrong…" natsuki really felt sorry
But I just had to open my mouth
"Is it because you are aware of my feelings?" I couldn't help it anymore
We stood in silence…
"I know" simple answer
After that day we haven't broth up the subject but we occasionally have "our secret affairs"
En flashback
"Sigh…. I wish we could talk about it… perhaps things could change for the better… maybe….just maybe we can work things out the right way, after all natsuki hasn't been bothered by that other girl… could it be, she got over her?"
"Ara ara" A rest my hand in my cheek "there I go with my silly ideas"
Shizuru took a moment to think about this
"Maybe…" shiruzu closed her eyes and smiles..a real smile
The sound of a ringing phone came to invade her meditation
"Hello?" shizuru answered her phone "ah my natsuki misses me so bad that she had to call to hear my voice?"
"b-baka! Don't say that…" natsuki answered from the other side of the line "I won't be able to pick you up tonight, but I'll see you at the party ok?"
"Ara that's fine, I'll see you then" after hanging up shizuru continued getting ready
She was dressed in something simple but not to simple, she had a casual looking white shirt-dress with black leggings and black boots
Once finished the little touches, she called her childhood friend Reito and asked him if he could take her to the party which was ok for him sense he was going too
She was waiting for him outside the apartment when she saw his car coming close she waved at him and then he stopped the car in front of shizuru
Reito got out of the car and opened the door for her "Good evening beautiful, let me help you in" he offered his hand and shizuru took it "ara? Why, thank you handsome" they shared a laugh and when shizuru got in the car he closed the door and preceded to enter the car himself
While they were on their way to the party they started to chit chat
"So, how are things between that dashing girl and you?" Reito asked casually
He was aware as some other close people about shizuru's feelings for the ice princess and he was a great support to her when she most lost…
"I'll tell her today"
Reito surprised by that response "are you serious?" he took a quick glance at shizuru who just nodded at his question
"So …" Raito made a dramatic pause "you are finally confessing!" cheerfully said "after all this time"
"Ara ara, yes but I still don't want to fly to high, if you get me" shizuru mentally wished for some tea
"I think it was about time, you two could look like the perfect couple, even more than you and me would look, I'd say" he smiled at her and she reciprocate the same way
"By the way reito… how is your sister doing?
"You can say she's doing better now" he softly sight
They were in silence for awhile until Reito spoke
"Did you suddenly feel like having some tea?" …
At the party…
They just got inside the house, and it had a nice atmosphere even if there was a lot of people, a lot of them where friends which was nice and everybody seemed to be having fun
"Reito, shizuru! you guys came!" exclaimed an exited mai "oh? I thought natsuki was coming with you shizuru" said a little surprised "you two are always together and are really close, you know? Almost like a real couple"
"Ara? Is this a sign?" shizuru asked herself
"I can't believe her leaving you and not coming just because of her selfishness!" grumped mai
"Ara, don't worry she said she was coming" shizuru calmed mai
"Well she better or she will regret ever knowing me!"
….
Mai could be a little scary sometimes… reito and shizuru thought at the same time while sweating cold….
A couple of hours passed and no sigh of natsuki was found, this started to worry shizuru and decided she was going to call her…
But just as she was about to dial the number she heard a familiar voice
"Oi oi! Calm down woman!"
It was natsuki
Shizuru followed the voice until she saw something that she'd never thought she would see
"Natsuki?" whispered
Natsuki was hugging a blond hair girl quite possessively while been scolded by a drunken mai
"whodda ya think *hic* you are thu come this late huh!" mai barely could stand properly
"I'm sorry mai, I had some stuff to attend first" after saying that she turned to look at the girl she had in her arms and preceded to give her a sweet smile
"whoss tha?" mai asked examining the other girl
"This is aika, my girlfriend"
Shizuru only felt something in her chest crumble
Shizuru's mind only said "this is not real"
So…yeah: P I hope you enjoy… um my grammar really sucks (I don't really know much English but I did my very best) and…well XD hope you like it?
