Vampire Academy is owned by Miss. Mead. I own nothing but the plot.

It starts like every dream I have had since that fate full night. The love of my life just finished making love to me and holding me. Then it shifts and that blood sucking murder takes his life in front of my eyes. Mom is holding be back while I try in vain to reach him. She all but knocks me out to get me away from the scene. My heart explodes into a million pieces and kills my soul leaving him behind. My life is worthless with him gone. His eyes silently begging me not to forget that he loves me and to live for us. I can't do this. With him gone its worthless. I would easily throw my life down for him just to have him back. I am running in the cave to find him gone then I am standing in front of the school. The other two loves of my life is standing by my side. My best friend and sister tries to get me to stay while my other loving brother Mason is telling me Dimitri is Strigoi. It kills me that she doesn't understand the love I have for Dimitri. If it was Christian she would move Heaven and Hell to be with him or to kill him to set him free.

I can't stand to see her now. She kills me when she tried to compel me to stay. Yes she is alone with no family except for me and Christian. That's just it, she has Christian but I have lost not only Mason but Dimitri. Am I not allowed to grieve for my love? I have not a chance to give her to stop me. I need to see that my love is freed to go to Heaven. Not burn in Hell as each moment he takes an innocent life for his thirst. My life and his is bound together and I have a promise to keep no matter what. The love of my life must die. Or will die again and this time by my stake.

As I leave my mind blurs to the last night he held me. His lips so soft as he kisses me. How his hands caressed my body as held me. I cry in my dreams as they shift to the nights he holds me captive. How the attitude, caresses and feelings have all changed. This creƤture that now holds me is not the man I fell for. The Dimitri I fell for is kind, loving, and selfless. He knew me more than I knew and understand about myself. It was as if my soul was whole and fused together when we were together or near each other. All he had to do was be in the same room with me and my heart would be at peace. But this thing thrived on its obsessiveness with me. It was not in love with me just craved the power of owning me.

Then the dream jumps from when I staked Dimitri to when Christian and Lissa surrounded him and Lissa staked him turning him back to a dhampire. What killed me more than anything was him seeing her as a protective angel saving him from Hell. I was no longer important to him. I was just a child that he felt pity for and needed to be punished. As I see it my jealousy of him and Lissa's time together is eating me and I resent her more by the day for it. I just want the love of my life back by my side and yet she had Dimitri and Christian and I am out in the cold.

As I am standing in the church facing him I can see him saying those damned words Love fades mine has. As each word comes out it starts to form a stake that he picks up off the ground. Without hesitation he picks it up and starts to thrust it into my chest into my heart as I wake up. By this time I am crying so hard that my shirt is wet as I pull myself into a sitting position in my bed holding my knees to my chest. I have not rested since this all took place. Now I wished some one would just place that stake in my heart for real. Maybe then I truly would be at peace. Looking up at the clock its time I just get on up and hit the gym. Another day in Hell is ready to begin.