Eli's POV
I'm all alone
In my room
Lately, been feeling out of the loom
No one to share this pain
Time for me to end the game
Shame on me
I've done it twice
I've let both of my lovers die
I'm sorry Julia
I'm sorry Clare
I really wish that I was there
There to stop all of this mess
I won't love you any less
You were so young
How could this be
This all happened
Because of me
I don't need a therapist
I don't need help
I'm dealing with a new way
I've never dealt
I remember
Like it was yesterday
Me and Clare went out
For fun and play
We then went out down to the park
Just cause it was getting dark
Drew got into a fight with some tough kids
Who carried knives and guns and shxt
All I heard was one shot go off
And that night is when I truly lost
I'm in the waiting room
And I just can't take it
The doctor looks and says..
"I'm sorry, she didn't make it."
So I breakdown right on the floor
Not embarrassed, not ashamed
Didn't care anymore
How could I be so stupid!
To walk her to her death
The worst part is I don't remember her last breath
I have nightmares and they're scary
I hate to close my eyes
Those words they yell in my dreams
Just doesn't seem like lies
So I'm sitting in my room
On my bed late at night
With this phone on my left
And a gun to my right
Which one to pick
Which one to choose
I choose the gun
I have nothing to lose
A tear comes from my eye, the right
I'm happy because I'll be with Clare tonight
I'm no longer needed or wanted in this world
I need to go find my girl
In two more seconds I'll be there.
I pull the trigger..feeling dizzy...
I'm coming for you Clare...
So this stupid shxt kept me up cuz it wanted me to write it...so there u go...
