Summary: Dean is in Hell and Sam missed him. Ruby shows up and trains him to use his powers, but what happens when Dean finds out?

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters or Supernatural


It wasn't right, it wasn't natural. It wasn't pure, but yet, I still continued.

I started, and I couldn't stop. It was too much. Dean, the one person who was always there for me, was dead because I got killed. It's my fault that Dean's dead.

I was going crazy with grief, until Ruby showed one night in my motel room. She started teaching me how to use my powers for good, like we used to. But I needed to be stronger.

She explained how just drinking some of her blood would make me so much more powerful, that it would enhance my powers. She said it so calm, like it wasn't a big deal. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that maybe she was right. Maybe it wasn't such a big deal.

I gave in. I grabbed her knife, placed it on her left wrist and was about to cut the skin and give in when there was knocking at the door.

Sighing, I stood up, made myself look semi-descent, and opened the door. There stood Bobby and Dean, smiling like no tomorrow. 'Wait, Dean? He's dead!' I thought.

I grabbed my knife and was about the kill the son of a bitch that was pretending to be my brother, but Bobby stops me.

"It's him, it's really him."

Millions of thoughts ran through my head at that moment 'He's alive, how is that possible?' and 'Finally he's back!' but also 'I can't drink the demon blood now, if he found out he would leave again!' I promised myself I would never drink demon blood, ever.

But then Dean caught me and Ruby with a demon tied to a chair, while I exorcised it with my mind.

Dean's extremely mad at me. He thinks I'm going dark side. He think I'm tainted. He's right though, I am tainted. So how does adding a little more demon blood to me make it any worse? 'I won't let it make me evil, I'll only use my powers for good.'

Later that week while Dean's fast asleep, I picked up my phone and dialed Ruby's number.

"I'm in"


This was my first story, so please tell me what you thought!

This could be slightly AU since we don't know when exactly Sam started drinking it.