I watched you as you walked away with that redhead.
Did you not see how much I loved you?
Or how, even when we fought, I felt guilty and sick.
And when you saved me twice I was impresses and I fell hardy for you.
But when I saw you walk away with that person... my heart broke
And I cried silent tears.

Did you know I watched you from afar?
Watched you grow and mature into something beautiful.
When I finally realized I was head-over-heels in love with you.
It was to late, you were clutched into that brats claws.

My heart ached when I had fantasies of me kissing your lush lips
And caressing your cheeks.
Or to want to hold you in my arms and never let go.
Did you know?
How much I longed for you and for you to smile at me with adoration
In your eyes like you gave to her.

When I saw you look at me with a small twinkle in your eye...
I wondered if maybe I had a chance.
But then I figured out you were just looking at her and I felt empty and hallow.

I never gave up but nor did I try to win you over.
Because I new you were happy with that Weaselet and I didn't want to ruin that
Or make you hate me even more or think less of me.
We were enemies from the start and I new that even if a simply act of kindness came from me.
You would think I was posing a threat and lying threw my teeth.

I remember the times we worked together.
I couldn't stop gazing at you I loved you so much.
But when you went with that Ginny girl there was nothing I could do.
It hurt to even see you hold her hand and lock lips with her.

I hated to see hatred in your eyes when you saw me
And how when I hurt you badly I wanted to kill myself.
But it was for my dad though I don't even know why I cared.
Though when I left you on that train I felt horrible and more weight
Was placed on my shoulders.
I had to act tough for my friends I was a death eaters son after all.
It may be a horrible accuse but it's true.

I hated that pained look on your face when I brought
Up your parents death and when I had hurt your friends

On purpose.
I've done so many cruel things to you and I know I can't be forgiven.
But my love for you is the truth and I despise myself.

I tried to force myself to forget you and move on with Pansy
But it was impossible.
And when I saw you on the Hogwarts platform.

I felt my mouth dry up and I new I couldn't forget you.

I locked eyes with you and forced a small smile across my face and looked away.
I hope you didn't see that one small tear trickle down my face.

I finally lost you, it was all over for me.
You had your wife and three children and I had my wife and child.
I hated admitting defeat but then I finally did and my heart died.

Did you know I watched you from afar?
Had fantasies about you and wanted you.

But when I saw you with her….

I died.