A/N: I know, I know. I should be doing my other James/Lily fanfic that I have not yet finished, but I got inspired to write one for The Fault in Our Stars.

Disclaimer: I don't own any of this.


Augustus,

It has been eleven months since… Well since you've gone. Every breath I know may be my last because, well, you know, that lung cancer and all. And yet, I can't help but think of you every waking minute of everyday. Eleven months is longer than I had known you, but I still feel as if we had lived forever together. I had been absolutely nothing before you. I lived my life day to day not knowing if I would survive the next. But you came along and changed it; you changed everything.

I decided "to hell with my cancer", I couldn't waste what precious time I was given. Augustus, my love, you were my everything. You and I were one and no one can change that. People say that I will get over it eventually. I know they mean that in the nicest way possible, but I am almost sure that it doesn't help me whatsoever. Did you know my mom sent me to a shrink three months ago? Yeah, well. She did. She decided that "I was unhealthy and need to live my life" or some shit. I guess it kind of helps to go to him, but in reality, everything I tell him are things I wish I could tell you. You would be the person I would go to to talk about my feelings and angst and pain about your death. But I know I can't do that.

Doctor Turner, my shrink, told me that maybe if I wrote to you, it may help. I just want you here. I really do. You are everything I ever wanted and I could never take that back. If I had a choice of either erasing my memory of your to ease my pain or deal with the pain you caused me for the rest of my life, I'd choose the pain. Forgetting you would be much worse than the pain I feel now and as long as I will live. You brought the life out of me. You gave me something to live for. You gave me someone to love. Someone I could fall in love with. Not many people get the privilege of finding someone with whom the can love and cherish. That one person you know is "The One". I did.

You insisted that the world wasn't a "Wish Granting Factory", and maybe it isn't. But I do know that we got the opportunity to fall in love before you died, and I highly doubt I will find another man worthy enough of my love. No one like you. This is for you, my love. You will always be my one and only love I will ever have. I love you, Augustus Waters. Always and forever. Okay? I miss you so much. Okay.

Okay,

Hazel Grace, I will forever be your one and only Hazel Grace.


So, I got some reviews saying to change the layout/format of the story because it was hard to read. I definitely know what you were talking about. I hope this is better.

Anyways, Like it? Hate it? Yay? Nay? Review :) I wrote this feeling very emotional and depressed after rereading the book.