"I am a Guilder" + By: Milk-Chan

Why am I trying to Fight, when I have no strength?
Why am I trying to Give, when I have nothing to call my own.
Why am I trying to see, when there is nothing in sight.
Why am I trying to live…. when I am willing to die?

She is Maestro, the head authority of the Guild. She owns everything; her world, her universe, her sky. Everything is within her grasp. Nothing…. Nothing is in without her reach. She owns lives…. She owns people, she owns our very souls. Some of us die trying to fulfill her wishes, others… well others die trying to figure out why we were born. The guild is not a pleasant place to live. In fact, I do believe hell is a worse fate. But nonetheless, I am stuck here, in a world of horror, where death is more pleasant than being soulful and alive. I have no rights, I have no wishes, I have no dreams. Everything that "others" own I am deprived of, stripped of my own fate, left cold and unwanted. I do not even own my own life; Instead, I am contained to this world in invisible chains; ones that I cannot break free from. I don't have anything to call my own. I don't have a future, my future is to die in the wretched grasp of the Maestro's hands. Not even I, a person that can have all of the "Luxuries" and "Glories" that others cant, have a life. My life is pointless, a countless soul lost in the grand stream. I don't mean anything, I mean nothing. There is nothing in sight for me, I am worthless. I am not loved, I am pointless. I don't have anyone to Love, or for them to love me back. I don't have anyone to care about me, to show me that I am not pointless. I am a unwanted toy, a useless "tool" only used for others wishes. I am a puppet, held back from his life on strings, dangling down from the Maestro's hands, unable to escape; with no way out. As I hang here on these strings, I think these thoughts. They are unuseful, petty. I am willing to die. If there is a worse hell, I wish for you to name it.

I am a Guilder.

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Authors notes: Hello there! It sure has been awhile. Do you like? I truly do feel that Guilders feel this way. Holler back, and please R&R!

… Milk-Chan