AN: This came to me after the season finale of Rookie Blue but I've been so busy that I had forgotten about till I was reading a RB story. I couldn't fit it in to my other RB story, 'After Effects' simply b/c it just would mess up the flow of the chapters and I didn't want that so here's a new one…hope you like it…

Chapter 1: Dealing

Andy's pov:

When Sam had asked me if he wanted to try to the normal thing I think my heart skipped a beat so I got in his truck and we headed for his apartment. I looked over at him and saw his injuries and it made me feel even guiltier but we were both in the wrong. I just know that when I saw him coming out of the house and walking on his own it took every restraint that I had to not go dashing over to him and holding on to him for dear life and then when he came over to me we didn't say anything but we had a whole conversation with our eyes. And I knew what he was trying to tell me but there was something else in his eyes that I also noticed and it was the look of relief and thank god you're alive. Evidently he must've told Sam something to make him think that something happened to me to get him to break. Now as we arrive at his place I can't help but think that he's going to need me, need my help to get through this. He's been there for me so why wouldn't I do the same?

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They go into the apartment and he sets his keys down on the table and picks up his phone and notices the missed call and voicemail from Andy. While he listens to it he just feels guiltier that he left a second sooner and not stayed because he did then maybe this whole mess wouldn't have happened. "Andy, come over here…"

She walked over to the couch and sat down with a worried look on her face, "Something wrong?"

He took her hands into his and looked straight into her eyes, "I'm sorry…sorry for everything that's happened…" before he could say anything else her hand was over his mouth, "No Sam…please don't be sorry…yeah we shouldn't have done that but we did and yeah I probably got made when he started asking me questions but what is done is done. Baby we can't go back and change it but what we can do is move forward."

He looked like he was about to break down so she embraced him and they held each other like that for a few minutes then his stomach started to growl and she piped up, "Well someone's hungry…" He laughed as they got up, "Want to order some Chinese?"

"Sure that'd be great and tomorrow we can go to the store and pick up a few things since you haven't been here."

"Yeah sounds fun…"

The rest of the evening they spent eating dinner and watching some movies and TV shows. One show they were watching had her all googly eyed while Sam just rolled his eyes. She saw this and let out a small laugh, "Awww…is someone jealous?"

"Well yes…Really…you really think he's handsome?"

"Yes I do…"

"Isn't he a bit pale? I mean don't you like someone with more color?"

"Oh ha-ha…very funny…now who's crazy…I mean comparing yourself to Mick who's a vampire who I might add is very sexy and hardcore; I just wish they didn't cancel this series…they could've gone places now that he had confessed his love for her…"

"Andy it's a show…"

"I know that dear but I like to get into the characters…it's like I can escape into their world and not think about what's going on in my life… you know?"

"Yeah I know what you mean…lets go to bed…it's getting pretty late and I'm pretty sure you're tired."

She nodded as she yawned; they turned off the TV now that the show's was over and headed to bed.

"What did you with Candice?" Sam hissed at Jamie.

"Oh don't you mean Andy McNally—officer of the 15th division?"

Jamie's smirk made Sam want to bust out the chair and kill him because if he had hurt her then he was going to pay there was just no way around it; "Jamie…what did you do?" he growled through gritted teeth.

"Oh nothing yet but if you don't tell me what you know well then you'll just have to see for yourself." Sam had a confused look on his face for a second then he saw Andy being thrown at his feet with her hands and feet bound. This just made his blood boil as he saw she had a hand print on her neck indicating that he made her pass out in order to get her here.

"Are you alright?"

"Yeah I'm Sam but what about you?"

"I'm fine…don't worry about me; we'll get out of this one way or another I promise we will get out of this…"

"Alright that's enough talk…" Jamie pulled her back against the wall across from Sam so that they were facing each other. At first she tried to fight him but that only got her punched from Jamie. "Noooo…stop…" Sam shouted as he struggled in his chair.

"You want me to stop then you tell me what really happened to my family!"

"I told you I can not tell you what I don't know!"

"Fine…have it your way" Jamie said sinisterly as he took out a knife and stabbed her and she screamed in agony. That's when Sam lost it; he leaned over in the chair far enough so it would fall then he worked his way out of it and as soon as he was free he lunged at Jamie effectively knocking him away from her. There was a wrestle with the knife and Sam got the upper hand as it went into Jamie's heart killing him instantly. Andy who was coughing as she was breathing watched the whole thing praying that she would make it and that Sam would make it then she felt his warm hands on her pulling her into his lap. She looked up at him and smiled and he smiled back, "I love you Sam just know that I will always love you."

"Baby please don't talk like that…you're going to be fine…we're going to make it" he said with tears in his eyes that were now rolling down his checks.

"Sam…I just wish that we had more time, more time to get know each other better, to have a little McSwarek or two running around, to be a family and everything else that you could give me."

"Andy, Andy please stay with me…I need you…I…I can't live without you…you're my life"

She patted his check and ran her hand through his hair, "I love you, I love you, I lo…" her voice faded as she closed her eyes and her hand fell away from his head to the floor. He shook his head, "No, no, no…Andy! Andy come back please! Oh god I love you!"

"ANDY!" he shouted as he woke up covered in sweat; a panic stricken look on his face as he turned his head to the side to see Andy his beautiful alive Andy sitting up beside him with a very concerned look on her face. Her hand gently rubbed his shoulder as he leaned into it, "Sam…what happened?"

"I had a nightmare"

"Do you want to talk about it? It'll help you"

"Jamie found out about you being a cop…he…he dragged you into the room with your hands and feet bound…he told me to tell him what really happened or else…I told him that I can't tell him what I don't know. He then took out a knife and stabbed you…you screamed out in a way that I never ever want to hear from you in real life…I got angry and busted out of the chair; we fought and I ended up killing him then I went over to you and held you in my arms. You started talking about how you wished that we had more time to get to know each other and have a family and a little McSwarek or two running around. You kept telling me that you loved me and you ran your hand through my hair then you died. I cried for you to come back but you didn't…the stab wound was too deep and then I woke up screaming."

Tears were now flowing freely from both of them—Sam from when he telling her about it and Andy from listening. She pulled him into a tight embrace, "Oh Sam…that's horrible…I am so sorry baby…come on lets go get you cleaned up."

"Okay" he said as they got out of bed and made their way to the bathroom. She flipped on the light and turned on the shower. She started to go but he grabbed her hand and looked at her. He didn't have to say anything, his eyes said everything and she just nodded as she closed the door. He had taken off his brace so he wouldn't get it wet. She was careful with his wrist as they maneuvered in the shower so that he was under the spray. She gently washed his hair and he leaned into her touch—it was like he was memorizing her touch—they didn't say anything as she turned him around. He then put his arms around her and pulled her close and they just stood like that for a few minutes until his wrist started aching. "You should take some meds when we get out. I don't want your pain to get ahead of you alright?"

"Yeah alright"

She knew that he was vulnerable and at some point he was going to have a breakdown but she knew that he was trying to stay strong. She also knew that this faced wasn't going to last but when that happened she would be right here, right here when he needed her because he was always there when she needed him. He was there when it mattered so why wouldn't she do the same? It just made sense that she would be there for him, she would fight for him and do all the things that he would do for her. She loved him so very much that it hurt her heart to know that he was having nightmares about her dying. She knew that all he wanted to was to be close to her in every possible way and she was going to give it to him. After they had finished up with the shower they toweled each other off and then he kissed her very softly but very passionately. They slowly made their way back to the bed and that night they made love. It felt like the first time when they got together in his undercover place. He was memorizing every inch of her, wanting to know every place, wanting to feel, needing everything and she willing gave it to him. Afterwards he laid his head down on her chest to listen to the sound of her heartbeat and he smiled. She smiled as she ran her fingers through his thick gorgeous black hair that was oh so soft and she started humming, "Everything I do, I do it for you" by Bryan Adams. Eventually he fell asleep with his arms wrapped around her and her arms around him expect this time it was her that was protecting him from his nightmares and she felt like she could take on the world if she had to in order for him to be alright.

AN: Okay this is the end of the 1st chapter and I really hope that you guys like it…please review…