Amelia exhaled deeply. Her fingers ran through her brunette locks as she studied the tumour that she was now faced with. It was a big one and she hadn't done anything too major since the loss of her only brother, Derek. People were constantly checking up on her, they were only trying to be nice but Amelia didn't need it. She didn't want it.
They were all worried about her, especially Addison. She had been calling twice a day ever since she found out. Amelia could sense her fear, her concern. Everyone tiptoed around her and avoided bringing Derek up if they could help it. Being too worried it would send her over the edge and she would go straight back into her old ways. Back to the drugs. But she wouldn't allow herself to do that. She couldn't allow herself to do that, not after coming this far.
Her attention was drawn away from the tumour when a familiar blonde appeared at the door. Neither of them said a word to each other, they just stared at one another in silence. After a short while Amelia turned her attention back to the tumour and sighed again.
"How's it going?" The blonde asked curiously, taking a step further into the room as she did. Amelia turned around angrily and snapped "If one more person asks me how I am..." Before she had the chance the finish her sentence the other woman cut her off. "I was asking about the tumour actually." Amelia's eyes widened in shock, instantly realising her mistake. "Arizona..." Her voice trailed off as the blonde turned on her heel and left the brunette alone once more.
Annoyed at herself, she faced the tumour again. But she couldn't allow herself to bring her focus back to it.
She couldn't quite get Arizona out of her head, but she didn't understand why this was the case. They were friends. Of course they were but something about the blonde made Amelia question everything.
A few hours later Amelia was scrubbing out of a surgery when she caught sight of Arizona in the distance. This caused her to speed herself up and rush out of the scrub room hurriedly after her. She called out her name, hoping she would stop. Just when she thought the blonde wouldn't stop, Arizona bought herself to a halt. Her brilliant blue eyes met Amelia's.
There was an uncomfortable silence between the two women. Taking a deep breath, Amelia spoke first. "I'm sorry." She blurted out. "I shouldn't have snapped at you like that. It's just..." Arizona cut her off. "It's fine. I get it. You're sick of everyone asking if you're okay constantly. Don't worry about it." Her tone was dry but her eyes sparkled.
Amelia couldn't stop staring at her eyes, they were magical. "Okay." She muttered as her eyes travelled up and down the blonde. Amelia noticed how truly beautiful she was. Arizona seemed to notice her staring because she cleared her throat. "Was there anything else you wanted, Shepherd?" She said, challenging the brunette.
She found herself shaking her head, a small smile suppressing her lips. "Not at all. That was all thank you very much, Robbins." Amelia turned on her heal and strolled into the distance, leaving the blonde staring after her. Her face had an every so charming smile plastered across it as she made her way to the attending's lounge.
Meredith had decided to have a dinner party tonight and everyone from the hospital was coming, including Arizona. The thought of seeing the blonde again later sent a sudden rush of excitement through Amelia. She didn't know why the other women was making her feel like this but she wasn't complaining.
The arrival of the guests was fast approaching and Amelia still needed to get ready. She stood facing her wardrobe, like she was facing the tumour earlier, trying to decide what to wear. Normally she would just throw on anything but not tonight. She felt like her outfit should be taken into consideration.
At last she settled on a pair of black jeans and one of the nicest shirts she owned. She left her down but gave it a quick brush through and then applied a thin layer of make up. Amelia took a quick look of herself in the mirror before opening her door and rushing downstairs to join Meredith and Maggie in preparing the last few bits before their guests arrived.
April was the first to arrive, closely followed by Arizona.
She was wearing a black dress that highly defined her curves. Amelia struggled to catch her breath. Her eyes wandered up to Arizona's face, eyeing her red lips. A sudden urge to press her own against them ignited inside of Amelia, but she stopped herself. That would definitely ruin any sort of friendship the two of them had and would bring up many questions.
Especially from Owen.
Thinking of him made her heart suddenly heavy. He was also coming tonight, which made Amelia nervous. They had both been avoiding each other lately. Correction, Amelia had been avoiding him.
Part of her felt slightly guilty for doing this but she couldn't help it. She needed to cut ties with him, as much as it hurt her it needed to be done. Especially if she was starting to have feelings for someone else.
Amelia wasn't sure what these sudden urges to kiss the blonde women who was now stealing glances at the brunette every so often, but she knew there was something there. Arizona probably didn't even feel the same but it felt wrong for Amelia to carry things on with Owen if she was having these new found feelings.
Owen was the last to arrive. He beelined straight for Amelia and went to pull her into an embrace. Feeling everyone's eyes on her, she reluctantly allowed him to wrap his arms around her waist and pull her body close to his chest. His familiar touch instantly relaxed Amelia and she felt herself nuzzle into his chest.
She pulled away from him, their eyes met.
The sound of Meredith's voice calling everyone to the table instantly snapped Amelia's attention away from Owen. Out of the corner of her eye she noticed Arizona carefully watching her as she clung onto her half empty wine glass, as if someone was going to take it away from her.
They all made their way to sit around the table. Owen slid into the seat next to Amelia and squeezed her hand as he sat down. When Amelia looked up she saw that Arizona had placed herself directly opposite. Amelia felt her breaths become short and her heart rate increase. The blonde kept glancing over at the brunette, without even trying to hide it from her.
Dinner was served, the warm smell of freshly cooked food made Amelia's stomach rumble. So without waiting another second she picked up her knife and fork and tucked into the food. There was little conversation as everyone ate their food. But once the majority of them started finishing the conversations picked up again.
When Amelia had finished her food she excused herself to go to the bathroom.
Finally, some of her own space. She had felt so trapped sat at that table with Owen casually touching her leg throughout the whole meal and Arizona staring at her from across the table. But she wasn't alone for long. The blonde appeared at the doorframe, hovering. Amelia looked into her eyes through the bathroom mirror. They stood, staring at one another for what felt like hours until Amelia finally broke the silence.
"Is there something you want, Robbins?" Amelia teased, spinning herself around the properly take in the blonde's appearance. Her head was resting against the door frame as she twiddled her fingers. At the sound of her last name Arizona's eyebrows raised. "We aren't in the hospital Shepherd, do we really need to be professional with each other." Her tone was low, with a slight husk in her voice. Amelia felt her knees start to go weak as Arizona edged closer to her.
The blonde breathed slowly on the brunette's neck. "Oh but what would be the fun in calling each other by first names." Amelia sighed as she felt Arizona continue to breathe on her neck. Amelia wanted more than anything to lean in and kiss her lips but she thought better of it.
A noise in the distance snapped the two women apart, they looked around curiously but couldn't see anyone. Their eyes met for what felt like the hundredth time. "We better get back to the others." Amelia said softly, a smile creeping onto her lips. Arizona smiled back at the brunette, stopping herself from reaching out and touching her soft skin with her finger.
As the two women wandered back to where everyone else was Amelia felt a sudden burst of butterflies invade her stomach. She looked sideways at the blonde.
God, she was just so beautiful.
She needed to talk to Owen. As soon as possible. There was no point holding it off any longer. Amelia decided she would try talk to him once the dinner party was over. It was for the best. She didn't know how much longer she hold back on doing something about her fast growing feelings for the blonde, and she didn't want to be a cheat. No. She had to tell him.
When they re-entered the room most of the other guests had gone just leaving Amelia, Arizona, Meredith, Maggie, April and Owen.
April stood up as soon as Arizona entered the room, "Are you ready to leave now?" She questioned the blonde. Arizona smiled widely and nodded. "Sure." She said, clearly drunk. Amelia held back her laughter as April guided Arizona towards the front door, thanking them for having the pair over as she did.
This was Amelia's chance. Owen picked up his coat to leave, his eyes catching Amelia's as he did. "Wait." She whispered softly as she rushed from the room to grab her own coat. As she returned she added, "I need to talk to you." Owen nodded slowly as he let the brunette lead the way out of the house.
Neither of them said a word as they climbed into Owen's car and drove back to his. Amelia wanted to wait until they were inside before she said anything.
Owen sat down on the sofa, inviting Amelia to do the same but she remained stood up. Taking a long, deep breath before she began.
"Owen-"
His eyes lit up eagerly, waiting for her to go on. Her heart became heavy again. She knew this would hurt him and she hated herself for it. But she couldn't lie to him, or herself any longer.
"We can't keep doing this, being together. I just..." She struggled to find the words. Owen's face fell. "I'm sorry." She said sadly before turning to leave.
"Amelia." He said at last. She froze in her tracks, closing her eyes and taking another breath before spinning around to face him. "If you don't want to be together anymore, then it's okay. I just want you to be happy. That's all that matters." He said softly, a small smile on his face. Amelia moved closer to him and hugged him. "Thank you." She whispered into his chest. "We can still be friends, right?" Her eyes looked up at his face to study his expression. He nodded. "Of course we can."
She called a taxi to take her home. However, when the taxi finally arrived she had the sudden urge to go see Arizona.
So that's what she did.
