Feel Sorry for Yourself
I've fallen in love with my closest and most trustworthy friend. He had saved my life numerous amounts of times and kept so many secrets in the labyrinth of his mind. Even so, it didn't feel right. I couldn't comprehend what I was doing having such feelings for him. It didn't make sense to me especially since I hadn't ever felt this way about a girl. Even if he were a girl, it's still wrong to look at your friends with eyes of lust. The only other thing I've ever been so in love with has been potato chips.
"How come you never have a girlfriend, Shikamaru?" We sat in his favorite spot on some patch of grass in some field some place just outside of Konoha. I scoffed down three bags of chips in three minutes. "I mean other than the fact that they're troublesome."
He rolled over on his side to face me. I had an even better view of what I knew to be perfectness. "What other reason would there be?"
We both laughed excessively loud at his comment. We calmed down.
"I'm serious though. You're the brain of Konoha, the first Chūnin amongst everyone from our year, and probably the next Hokage." I finished my fifth bag of chips.
"Do you really want to know?" He sat upright but continued to look up at the sky.
"Well, yeah." I stopped eating and paid close attention to him.
"I've already got someone."
That hurt. Not because someone had gotten to him before I even tried, but that he had never bothered to tell me.
"Can I ask who?" I could only wonder if he even trusted me anymore.
"You think I don't trust you?" He smirked rather maliciously.
"…" I was kind left astonished at that but still attentive to the words that escaped his mouth.
"It's all troublesome…" He sighed, "Kurenai-sensei is pregnant."
"What does that have to do with anything?"
"Asuma thinks it's his…"
"Okay..? I still don't understand what Kurenai has to do with this conversation."
"The kid's mine." He got up and began to walk out of sight. "Chouji."
His words left me kind of speechless so I just raised my brow.
"I wouldn't have consented to being with you even if you had confessed to me."
"Wha…" I barely got out. He was completely out of sight.
"So that's what you mean…" I let the words slip out even though there was no one around to hear. I realized at that very instance that I had just lost the person who I thought to be my closest friend. Not only was it a one-sided love… but it was a one-sided friendship as well.
