Hey all, heres a new story i've been working on. Its sad but i hope you'll like it anyway.
Andy and Sam sat in his living room playing cards and having some beers. Andy had just had a pretty rough day and Sam had offered to buy her a drink. When she said she wasn't in the mood for loads of people he suggest they both get some beers and head to her house or his. She agreed on that and they both headed off to his as it was closer. They had become really close over the last two months, closer than they were before. They spent so much time together that people were asking if they had missed the start of their relationship. It was nearly time to wrap up the night as they both had work the next morning. Sam had called Andy a cab and they played while the waited for it to come. When a man knocked at the door Sam walked her out and helped her in, they were both tipsy and giddy.
"You better call or text me when you get inside McNally." He turned to the driver. "Just so you know, I know it only takes five minutes to get to her house and we're both cops so no pit stops buddy"
He laughed as the driver rolled his eyes "Come on Sammy, how many times have I dropped her home or you home? Isn't that why you keep calling me?"
"You got that that right Larry, you're the bestest" Andy giggled from inside the car. "Home now, this puppy needs her sleep to deal with grumpy tomorrow."
"Hey, I heard that, you get no coffee in the morning now." Sam chuckled and closed her door. "Seriously call me when you get home, night Andy"
"Night Sam see you bright and early, thanks for tonight" Andy called as the taxi pulled away.
Sam made his way back inside and began to clear the table Andy had done most of it, all that was left was the two bottles they had been drinking out of and the cards, he threw the bottles in the trash and began locking up his house.
Andy had just pulled up to her apartment block. "looks like someone is in trouble" Larry said as he pulled in behind a cruiser.
Andy craned her neck to see out the front window "is that from my division?"
"Fifteen, yup, night Andy" he said as she handed him money and climbed out
"Night Larry, thanks" Andy called as she made her way to the front doors. She pressed in the code and took the two flights of stairs to her apartment. She opened her door and immediately jumped back. "Damn it Trac, you scared the crap outta me. I gave you that key for emergencies, not to brake in on your break" Andy laughed as she walked into the living room to her best friend. Traci stood and looked very serious it was then Andy noticed Oliver was also sitting beside Traci looking upset about something "what is it ? Is everyone okay?"
"Andy" Traci moved closer to her best friend.
"What is it? is it Dov? Chris? Gail ?" She asked worried about her friends. Sam and Traci were marked off her list since she just left Sam and Traci was right in front of her.
"Andy no they're fine, all of them." Traci had tears in her eyes she hated doing this type of work. She cursed Dov for asking her to swap shifts "its.." she swallowed the lump in her throat "it's your dad Andy" she finally said.
The colour drained from Andy's face "is he… is he okay?" she whispered. She looked up at Traci who now had tears falling freely onto the floor in front of her. "Traci?"
Traci shook her head and took a step closer. "I'm so sorry Andy, I hate to be the one to tell you this he.. He had just left his midnight meeting. He crossed the park to get to his car, we guess he didn't see the other one coming. I'm sorry Andy, it hit him too fast, he died on scene. People from the meeting tried to help but they were unsuccessful. I'm so, so sorry Andy" she squeaked as Andy just stared blankly at her.
Andy stared at her for a full two minutes before speaking "w-what? that-that can't be, he-he doesn't go to meetings on a Wednesday, he doesn't, it's the wrong person Trac, its not my dad."
This time Oliver spoke "Andy" he said softly putting his hand on her shoulder. "I am so very sorry honey, I'm afraid it was Tommy, we were first on the scene, I'm sorry Andy" he said pulling her into a hug. Traci stepped to the side and silently cried watching her best friend brake in front of her.
"No, no it can't be him, it just can't! Oliver! please tell me you are lying! it's all a mistake! Please! tell me it's a mistake, it has to be, not my dad, he's all I have left. What am I meant to do without him?" Andy sobbed into his chest.
Her knees buckled and Oliver grabbed her tighter against him. "Lets sit you down Andy. Nash get her some water." Traci ran into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle from the fridge. She hurried back and handed it to her. "Andy do you want me to call Sam?" he asked. Sam would be best in a situation like this, especially if it involved Andy.
Andy shook her head "n-no h-he'll be asleep" she sniffed. "I don't want to bother him, we've had a few drinks he won't be able to come over."
"Andy" Traci kneeled down in front of her and rubbed her knees "I can go get him, you won't be bothering him, you know he'll be right over. Or I can stay with you, but I need to go back to the station and get my stuff, I'm sure Frank will understand."
Andy began to hyperventilate "oh god!" She cried "what am I going to do?"
"Calm down Andy, drink the water" Oliver instructed.
"S-S-Sam I want S-SAM!" She screamed hopping up from the sofa. "I need Sam" she whispered before sinking along the wall to the ground.
"Nash?" Oliver called moving closer to Andy.
"On it" Traci called already on her way out the door.
Sam was sitting on his bed waiting for Andy to call, it had been more than half an hour. He was getting annoyed now, he knew Larry would have dropped her off and waited until she was inside before driving away. He thought maybe she just went to bed she did have a really rough day. He was about to turn his light off when someone pounded on his door furiously he ran out of his room and down the stairs 'maybe she forgot something' he said to himself as he stopped at the bottom of the stairs. He opened the door "Nash? What is it? Is it Andy? Ollie? Jerry ? Has something happened?" He could see her tearstained face, something was definitely wrong.
"Just get dressed and come with me Sam" she sniffed.
"What the hell is going in Nash? Who is it?"
"Andy" Traci simply replied. Sam was up and back down the stairs fully dressed in two seconds.
They both ran to the cruiser and hopped in "so? What happened? Is she okay? Where is she?"
"She's at home, she's in a really bad way Sam. I had to brake it to her, she just crumbled. She just wants you now"
"But what happened ?" Sam asked frustrated he wasn't getting a straight answer.
"Tommy, h-he was killed tonight" Traci hurried out. Sam just stared at her like she was crazy.
He couldn't believe what she said "what did you say?"
"Tommy was killed in a hit and run, bastard didn't even stop to see if he was okay." Traci lets a few tears fall. Tommy was a good man, Traci really had a lot of time for him, he was doing these meetings and staying sober for Andy.
Back in the apartment Andy was still in the same spot. Oliver had sat beside her in silence since Traci had left. "Is this a dream?" Andy finally muttered.
Oliver's heart broke, he had come to see Andy as a daughter along with the other four, he couldn't help see them as his family. He had no idea what she was going through, he just knew he needed to be here for her "I'm afraid not Andy, Tommy was a great man I was very fond of him."
"Stop saying was" Andy sobbed and hopped up off the floor. "He's not dead, I'll wake up and this will all just be a horrible, horrible dream. I just had to much to drink and I feel guilty, after all the hard work he's put in, yeah, that's it, I'm feeling guilty." she knew in her heart that it wasn't true and her daddy was in fact gone. She walked to the kitchen and gripped the countertop, she was getting dizzy.
Oliver jumped up and held her by the waist as she began to sway. "Whoa, I think you need to sit down Andy."
"Nope, I need to-to" she looked around. "I need to break something" she pushed Oliver away from her and picked up the cups and plates that were on the draining board. She hurled one at the wall and grabbed another followed by another.
Oliver grabbed her and took it off her, she just collapsed into his arms and sobbed. Oliver led her into her room and lay her down on her bed. He sat at the edge and grabbed her hand "I'm really sorry Andy, I have no idea what you must be feeling now." he said quietly.
"Can I be alone now?" Andy said shakily. "You don't have to leave, but can you just leave me in here alone?"
"Of course sweetheart, I'll be right outside if you need anything." Oliver brushed some hair from face "we're all here for you Andy." he stood up and quietly went into the living room, leaving her with her thoughts.
Sam and Traci had pulled up outside, Sam was out and halfway to the doors by the time Traci had stopped the car. She shut off the engine and ran to catch up with him. She let them into the apartment and stopped "where is she?" Sam asked quickly not even looking to see who the other officer was.
"In her room but Sammy?" Sam turned to face Oliver. "She's really, really not taking this too well" he gestured towards the hole in the wall and the glass on the floor. Sam nodded and hurried off to her room.
He quietly opened the door and made his way to her bedside he heard her crying as soon as he opened the door. She was lying in a ball with a pillow cuddled into her. He sat down beside her and rubbed his hand up and down her side. Andy moved the pillow from her face when she felt him touch her. "Sam!" She cried and launched herself at him crying harder and louder. Sam felt tears trickled down his own face he pulled her tighter to him and stroked her hair "I know baby, I'm so sorry, I'm right here."
He's gone" she choked out "he was all I had left in the world and now he's gone, oh Sam what will I do now?" she sobbed gripping him tighter.
Traci and Oliver both sat in silence on the sofa listening to her .Oliver reached over and pulled a crying Traci into him. "I know Nash, he was a great man and it's hard seeing her like this. We just all have to be here for her and look out for her." Traci nodded and hugged him back. She jumped when the door flung open.
"Where is she? is she okay?" A frantic Chris and Dov let themselves in followed by a sleepy Gail. She was about to shut the door when a hand forced it back open and in came Frank, Noelle and Jerry.
"How's she doing?" Frank asked clearly shaken by the news he had gotten.
"Not Good, listen" Oliver said. Everyone remained silent as they listened to her cry her heart out.
"Is she alone in there ?" Chris asked worried.
"No Sam's in there, she doesn't want anyone else." Traci said her eyes puffy from crying.
"We all just need to leave her and let her talk when she is ready. She knows we're all here for her and right now all she want is Sammy, so I think we should leave them alone, Sam's not gonna leave her." Jerry said comforting Traci.
"Are we correct in saying he was killed?" Noelle asked.
"Yeah, scumbag didn't even so much as slow down. This is very much an investigation." Oliver answered.
"I'm going in to see McNally for a second, then anyone who wants to join me down the station is welcome. We will catch these bastards, he was one of our own." Frank said moving across the room.
He slipped inside and was back out in a minute. "Sam has calmed her down, she is sleeping now. I told him we're heading down the station to call if she needs anything. I've given them both the week off."
Andy woke the next morning all sluggish and sore, her neck was stiff and her back was killing her. She immediately thought about her dad. she jumped slightly when she realised she was snuggled into someone and they had her pulled close to them. She tilted her head and relaxed when she saw Sam asleep next to her . She ran her hands to the bottom of his shirt, slipped her hand under it and ran her hands up until she reached his chest, she rested her hand there and cried for a few minutes before she fell back asleep. She had no idea why he still hadn't asked her out yet. They looked so right together. Although she may never admit it, he was the only person she cared about that she had left, other than Traci, Chris and Dov.
Sam woke a little stiff but he didn't mind, he looked down on Andy who was still fast asleep now with her hand up his top he smiled, quickly dropping it, he saw his shirt was wet and her face was streaked with tears, he gently wiped them away with his thumb. If it was under any other circumstances he'd finally make his move and ask her out. He looked at the clock and silently groaned Oliver said he'd be by to pick them up at eight to bring Andy to the hospital, she was too bad to go last night. It was now seven- thirty "Andy" he called softly "time to get up."
"What's the point? she muttered and buried into him deeper.
Sam shifted a bit "Oliver will be here soon to take you to the hospital" he said cautiously.
"I'm not going" she replied gripping him tighter.
"Andy, I know this is hard for you, but you need to go see him."
Andy let the tears fall silently onto his chest again. "why? He's gone, he's never coming back."
"You need to go see him sweetie"
Andy wiped her eyes and sat up, surprising Sam when she climbed on top of him. "I can think of something else we can do."
Sam couldn't help but put his hands on her waist, it was like they were being pulled to her by some unknown source, he so wanted her but not like this. "Andy you've just been through a lot, you're not thinking straight. I'd love nothing more than to stay here with you, but not like this, not now."
Andy nodded and climbed off him "its fine, I guess you don't want me the way I want you." she mumbled as she turned away from him.
"Andy no" Sam moved so he was leaning over her. "I do want you, you have no idea how much I want you. But this isn't right, you've just lost your dad, you need to grieve."
"It's fine Sam, I get it, you don't need to come up with an excuse" she got off the bed and headed out to the kitchen. "Don't feel you need to stick around, I'm sure you've got stuff to do."
Sam followed her and grabbed her wrist. "it's not an excuse Andy, you are not in the right frame of mind. I don't want you to do something you'll regret in a few days time. I am not going anywhere either." he brushed some hair out of her face "when the time is right I'll ask you." He leaned into her and placed his thumb and index finger on her chin he lifted her head slowly and kissed her softly. "That is just to prove to you I mean it." Before Andy could reply the front door buzzer went. "that's Ollie" Sam said "You go get ready and I'll let him in. I'll be with you every step of the way." He said reassuringly when he saw her look of panic shoot across her face.
Sam hurried from the room to the door, opened it and Oliver came in "how's she doing this morning?"
"She's a lot calmer, she cried for a bit this morning. She doesn't want to go but I think I talked her into it." Sam replied leading him to the sofa.
"How was she after we left?"
I think she tired herself out crying, I don't think it's sunk in yet." Sam started to walk towards her room. "I'll just see if she's ready" he said before disappearing into her room.
Andy sat on her bed with her feet pulled up to her chest and her chin resting on it "I don't think I can do this Sam." she said when he sat in front of her.
"I know this is hard and it hurts so much right now, but you need to go. We're all here for you Andy"
Andy climbed over to him and sat herself on his lap, she rested her head on his shoulder. "Promise me you'll never leave, even if we stay as just friends. I don't think I could handle it."
"I'm not going anywhere, ever. I promise." he sighed and pulled her closer "we need to go now, Oliver's waiting."
Andy nodded and climbed off him, she pulled on her shoes and headed out to the living room "hey" she said quietly going to hug Oliver. He didn't reply he just held her tight against him.
They rode to the hospital in silence. Sam set in the back with her and held her hand. He held it all the way up to the room her father was in. Andy wasn't surprised to see Traci, Chris and Dov sitting outside. They all gave their condolences and hugged her. She didn't say a word she was afraid she'd burst out crying. Sam led her to the door and squeezed her hand. She let go of his hand and put her hand on the doorknob, she pulled back like it burned her. "I can't do it" she cried and stepped back.
Sam took her hand "do you want me to go in with you?" she nodded and moved to grip the front of his shirt. "Okay here we go" he said opening the door. He nudged her so she'd go first, she took a step and stopped, her knees felt like jelly, she felt like she needed to throw up. She swallowed the lump in her throat and took another few steps into the room.
She choked back a sob as her eyes fell on her dad, he was laid out with his hands joined together resting on his chest. She took a few more steps closer to him suddenly she didn't want to be anywhere else. Sam stood in the corner watching her carefully. She leaned over Tommy and ran her hand along the big gash on his face, they had cleaned it up as best as they could she traced the bruising under his eye. "Oh dad!" She sobbed and threw herself at him. "please wake up, please don't leave me." she placed her hands on top of his he was cold "come on Daddy" she whimpered "I need you. Who's going to call me and make sure I locked my door? or that I'm okay during a thunder storm. Who's going to make me hot chocolate when I'm sad or worried about something?" Andy buried her head in the bed and sobbed.
Sam was fighting back the tears, he wanted to take her and hold her close, tell her everything would be okay. His eyes shifted to the door as two nurses entered the room. They stood to the side to let Andy finish saying goodbye. Sam moved over to her he placed his hands on her shoulders "sweetie they need to take him now."
Andy nodded and stood up she kissed her dad on the forehead and wiped the tears off his face that had fallen from her. She rested her forehead against his and closed her eyes. "Goodbye Daddy, I love you, I'm gonna miss you so much. You were always my hero" she whispered. She moved away from the bed Sam came beside her and took her hand as the nurses moved to the bed and pulled the covers up over his face. Her breathing began to pick up speed she was almost panting. "Take it off, take it off" she screamed. Sam just pulled her into him and held her tight as they wheeled him from the room. Andy immediately tried to run after them "no! bring him back! bring him back!" she screamed. Sam was fighting to keep hold of her, he had to lift her off the ground to keep her with him." Sam please! she cried her body fighting against him.
Sam wanted nothing more than to let her go but he knew it was no good, he carried her from the room kicking and screaming. "Keys" he yelled to Oliver over her screams. The guys were now joined by Gail, Frank, Jerry and Noelle. All looking on with tears in their eyes, some of them let them fall. They watched as Oliver flung his keys at Sam and he literally dragged Andy away. They could hear he screams and sobs all the to the other end of the hallway. Sam carried her all they way to the exit before she stopped fighting him, her sobs subsided and he was able to let her down. She walked in silence to the car. Just as they were at the door of the car she bolted behind it and threw up. Sam walked beside her and rubbed her back he pulled tissue from his pocket and handed it to her.
"What are you meant to do without your dad?" She asked him quietly.
Sam settled on the ground beside her "I don't know honey, "but I promise you I'll be here."
