Okay so I have been thinking of a way to make a story using a song and here is my first attempt! R&R!
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What happens to a man,
When he spills his heart on a page?
Dear Journal…thing…
This is incredibly stupid… and I mean it. I'm told to keep a freaking journal about my damn emotions so I can let them out but I feel like an eleven-year-old girl writing about her crush in a diary. I wish I didn't have to do it but writing in it would keep the female Hokage happy since I have just returned to the village. I bet she only put this in the list of my conditions probably so she can read it later.
Well…I guess she won't get any information from me because I'm not going to tell her ANYTHING about what I did when I was a rogue ninja. She can just tear out her hair and die for all I care. She even put me back with my old team, keeps me on watch, and won't let me visit my clan's village. I don't even want to write anything, not much of a writer anyways.
I guess I should get back on topic so Miss. Blond Boss doesn't rail on me for not doing what she's asked.
Truthfully, I don't even understand myself anymore. I know I have changed but I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore. Most of the time it's a good thing, but it's so confusing without something to keep my mind of things…
Like Sakura.
She is so different; she doesn't even treat me like we're friends. I understand that and I'm actually HAPPY that she's different but I don't know still…It's all very strange…
Naruto is the same as ever but so much stronger. I won't admit that to him, obviously, but he still is that ray of sunshine for those grumpy people and I'm secretly glad someone still likes me for who I am. I know it sounds odd but I have only ever needed one person to be friendly to me, even if that person is a psychopath like Orochimaru. Still, Naruto being his cheery self keeps me balanced and I'm glad…I think…
I met so many of the other Shinobi I grew up with and they all seem so different…except for Ino. She still is all over me, like Sakura was. She still is ANNOYING despite the fact that she looks good on the eyes.
I suppose I should add another person to said list I mentioned earlier. Hinata has actually listened to me and not judged me like the others. I don't blame them and I don't care but I'm surprised that she is willing to be around a traitor. Maybe it's because it's for Naruto or she still is that kind and gentle person she used to be…most likely both of them.
I guess stuff here at the village is enough to keep my mind off of what happened between Itachi and me. I still can't wrap my head around what Madara said…and I still can't believe I killed the one person I had solely placed all of my trust in. He went through a lot more than I had to and I completely went with feelings instead of finding out what really happened…because what he did was not in him…Maybe Madara is right…
I have to distract myself again before I get really angry at myself. I can't let my emotions show in front of people, I don't want them to know who I have become.
Technically I could be a monster if I let my emotions run wild, just like how Gaara used to be before he changed his attitude.
Damn thing…I guess I let something slip. I hate the fact that I have only ink and I can't erase any of this but she probably wouldn't understand half of this anyways…
Sasuke scooted away from the desk and sighed with frustration.
"Damn Hokage…" he muttered before grabbing his weapons and leaving his apartment.
He walked with his chin up and hands in his pockets. He watched people stare at him as he walked by and he knew they were whispered about him once he passed them. It almost made him laugh at how scared people were of saying something to someone else's face.
His face and eyes never betrayed any of his thoughts or emotional reactions to the situation as he stared people down.
As the people on the street lessened to zip and the shops were left behind him, he let his thoughts drift back to the diary Tsunade had forced on him. He was still quite a distance away from the green training fields and knew no one was occupying them at the present so he let his cold demeanor slip slightly.
The one thing he didn't want to let out for someone to see was his emotions and then he was given a little book to let it all out for all to see. It made him uncomfortable knowing that someone was going to read it to see if he had any other information that they needed.
Imagine what Naruto would say once he found out? Or even Sakura? They would never let it go…especially the new guy on the team…Sai? He mentally shrugged and pushed the thought of the weird pale kid.
He could almost hear Sakura laughing at him for having a diary, being completely rude to him but he inwardly knew he deserved it. He didn't really care anyways, why should he?
Naruto would make fun of him but Naruto wouldn't think badly of him. Naruto was too of a caring and understanding person to really mean all of his teasing.
'Guess it wouldn't hurt to amuse the Hokage for a little bit,' Sasuke thought as he approached the fence and quickly leaped up a tree and over the high, metal fence. He barely even breathed hard once he landed and stood up.
He took a deep breath and smelled the smell of healthy grass and thriving green trees on the gentle breeze that tossed loose leaves in the air like they were dancing. It was a moment of peace before he began setting difficult traps with his weapons to avoid.
Birds chirped high above him as he laid out his dangerous obstacle course. They sand their way into his head, momentarily distracting him from his thoughts on the diary.
"Wonderful music for an exercise," he mumbled.
