A/N: I initially started writing this after Black Friday and it was originally going to be ambiguous as to who was narrating Christian or Syed. However, after reading some spoilers for the beginning of January I am so angry at Christian that I cannot remain neutral so this fic has now become solely Syed's POV.

It is in three parts. Part One is about Black Friday, Part Two is when Christian left and Part Three is about the latest spoiler that Christian has a one night stand.

If you like Christian then you may as well stay away from this fic because it is not nice about him and is written just so I can vent about how much I dislike his character.

The Lyrics are Electricity by Anathema because they pretty much sum up my feelings towards this storyline at the moment.

Seems like you never really knew me
Seems like you never understood me
Seems like you never really knew how to feel
But electricity it drew you near to me
What you needed was to be rid of me

You wouldn't even listen to me and what I wanted. How could you act like that after everything we've been through? To take my feelings and throw them aside as if they meant nothing. I thought we were stronger than that but obviously not.

How did we get to this point? I thought things would always be good with us, especially after everything we went through to be together. I didn't think we would always be completely perfect, couples argue all the time, after all but this is the first time where I thought it could be the end of the road for us.

You chose an idea over reality. You wanted a child more than you wanted me and you were willing to let me go over that. I guess I'm not first place with you, am I? I put up with your insecurities and you still put me second. I had to put up with your harpy of a best friend insulting me because you want a child more than me. Why do I put up with this?

There were times you really made me smile
And there were times you really made me cry
And there were times I never really knew how to feel
But electricity it drew you near to me
What you needed was to be rid of me

Maybe we could have worked it out, we could have talked and sorted out all of our problems but you left. Was I that bad that you couldn't even talk to me, to try and work it out? Did I mean that little to you that you had to leave and have your sister tell me it was over?

Can you really blame me for trying to move on even though all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry? I put all my energy into focusing on my daughter because the thought of spending my life without you hurts me so much I feel like I'm dying inside. If I don't spend my days looking after Yasmin then I start thinking of you and that kills me a little more each day.

And the fear made you so unsure of me
What you needed was to be rid of me.

We laughed together, we cried together but we were together. Strong and united forever, that's what we promised only it seems that forever isn't as long as either one of us thought.

How do you think I feel? I saw him leaving the flat and it killed me a little more. Did you do it in our bed? I don't want to know because that will make it more real and I don't want it to be real. I can't stand to think of anyone else in our bed.

You broke up with me. You left me and then you jump into bed with the first bloke you come across. Did you not consider how I might feel about this? I love you so much and now I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest.

Did I really mean that little to you?

But electricity it drew you near to me

What you needed was to be rid of me

And the fear made you so unsure of me

What you needed was to be rid of me.