Brand new fic… blame photobucket
I glanced over at Axel and Roxas. They're too good together. It hurt to watch them go on and on and on about their love on a daily basis. Roxas and I look alike sure but not enough to pass off as one another, especially to a lover. Axel smirked and captured Roxas's lips in his. I watched for a moment longer then turned away to go.
"You didn't enjoy the show?" Roxas teased me as I left. I could feel Riku's hand on my wrist but I thrust my arm away from him and continued walking. Everyone knows I have a slight thing for Axel. The guy is amazingly hot. No one can resist him… not even the key blade bearers.
"You should shut up sometimes." Axel sighed making me a little happy but I controlled myself enough to keep it at a minimum. It doesn't matter, as long as Roxas is here then I'll never get my chance. I felt tears fill my eyes but I blinked them away angrily. There's no way I'm showing pain in front of these freaks.
That night… I found out that Roxas is going to become a part of me and then… who knows what's going to happen. I stared out the window and scowled. Even if Roxas becomes a part of me… and Axel pursues me because of it. Axel won't love me he'll love the Roxas within me.
Riku was smirking. He was happy for me because of this predicament. Apparently Roxas already knows I'm not complete without him. I wonder if he cares… and I wonder how many times Axel and him are going to make love until they finally let the other go.
I crawled into my bed and slept. My dreams were full of visions of me looking in the mirror and seeing Roxas. Then I had dreams of me being stuck inside him unable to do anything or let anyone know I was there. In the end I had a dream where Axel kissed me deeply and said, "I love you Roxas."
When I woke up, the only one there was Riku. I could hear the others downstairs talking silently. I snuck down and listened to them. Leon and Yuffie were arguing. I sat down on the stairs just above where they were and listened with my hands flat on the hard wooden stairs.
"Roxas doesn't want to go through with it." Leon's grave voice said softly.
"But doesn't he understand that Sora needs this?!" Yuffie shouted angrily.
"If he becomes a part of Sora then in the end Sora will be the one who gets Axel. Roxas can't stand the thought of losing." Leon murmured.
"Everyone knows that Sora likes Axel. Why can't Roxas just let the boy be happy with Axel?!" Yuffie growled softly.
"In the end… Roxas is going to win. Axel will only be with Sora to get to the Roxas within him." Leon smirked bitterly. Yuffie scowled and slammed her fist into the table.
"This is just so pointless!" She cried. I felt a sharp pain in my fingers realizing I was digging my nails into the wood and splinters were finding their way into my fingertips. I heard something hitting my window making me get up quickly. There's something else I can do I guess… other than listening to my own thoughts being confirmed and spoken with my friends.
I got to the window and realized someone was throwing good sized rocks at it. Obviously a failed romantic thinking this is the same thing as throwing pebbles. Stupid moron probably doesn't realize they're going to break my window soon. I opened the window only to receive one hit to the face and an amused laugh.
"Hey Sora…" Axel laughed in a hushed whispered down on the ground. I was slightly impressed that he was able to throw the rocks at my window up the three stories I'm at. Sweet arm. "Come on down!" He smirked motioning for me to come to him. I glanced at him with a soft smile.
On the night before Roxas comes into me Axel decides to see me instead of making love to Roxas. I opened the window and glanced back at the sleeping Riku. No one needs to know what's going on right now. I prepared to jump out the window making Axel's eyes widen then he glowered and held out his arms to catch me.
I smirked at him. I don't need someone to try to catch me. I'm fine on my own. I jumped down preparing to land on my feet like normal but Axel lunged forward to catch me, forcing us both to crash to the ground. We both sat up making me realize I was in Axel's lap. I glared at him to hide my embarrassment. "Dumbass, I could have been fine doing this on my own!" I growled.
I realized something sad then. The reason why Axel lunged to help me was probably to help keep Roxas's vessel safe. My eyes widened at this realization and tears filled them. What am I going to do now?! Instantly Axel kissed my forehead.
"You idiot! I was worried about you. Got it memorized?" Axel whispered into my face. I looked up at him and felt a blush rise to my cheeks. I wouldn't be surprised if Roxas was hiding somewhere getting this on video so he could use it to make fun of me later.
"Why did you come here?" I asked knowing how much he loved his 'got it memorized' line. Most people get tired of it but I like to try to memorize it. It's just a dorky game I made for myself. I looked at his fiery hair and piercing light green eyes. This man is the only one whose ever been able to shut me up by his beauty alone.
"I came here to get to know you a bit, just you so that I can tell the difference between you and Roxas. Got is memorized?" He said with a smirk. I looked at him with a blank face and tried not to show any emotions. All the pain within me felt like it would explode but I just put on a plastic smile and looked at him mischievously.
"What do you have in mind?" I asked him with another big grin. He looked a bit taken back but Axel instantly stood up taking my hand he smirked. Instantly he dragged me off in the direction of Tifa's bar. I smiled knowing that I haven't been there in a while. Mainly because I'm a minor so I can't just pop open a whiskey and start talking and fighting like everyone else.
When we entered the bar I was surprised to see Cloud sitting at the bar talking with her. My eyes widened when he smiled. Cloud doesn't show much emotion to anyone but here he is hanging out with Tifa like a normal person. "Hey Cloud, hey Tifa." I smiled and began to walk over to them but Axel wrapped his arm around my waist and led me to the booths.
"What do you want to drink?" He asked me with a sly smile. I looked at him for a moment and began to think… what should I get. Well if I order a hot chocolate then he'll think I'm a kid. I smiled then thinking of the perfect drink.
"A white chocolate hot chocolate, please!" I grinned and took out my wallet. He looked at me with a look of surprise then a perverted smile covered his lips.
"I'm paying, and you're lucky I've got a thing for the cute and innocent." He smirked and walked up to Tifa. I could hear him order a beer and then my drink making Cloud snicker and Tifa just smile and get to work on the orders. Once Axel got our drinks he headed back over to me with his normal sly smile and bright eyes full of interest.
I took a sip of my drink and sighed in content. I love white hot chocolates. Instantly Axel traded our drinks and tried it out. I watched him for a moment then took a sip of the beer. It had a bitter and stale taste to it but I found out that I liked it. Axel wound up drinking half of mine then laughed when I asked if he wanted to get one.
"No… I could never be seen acting like an innocent kid like you." He teased and poked my cheek. I glared at him and angrily sipped my hot chocolate. My cheeks turned a slight shade of red as I thought about how I just put my lips where he had put his. Axel didn't seem to notice as he gazed out the window sipping his beer.
Instantly his legs wrapped around mine from under the table. It didn't even look like he noticed it but I found myself enjoying the touch. I want this to last forever. Suddenly I gasped and stood up looking at the guy in shock. "Isn't this like your cheating on Roxas?!" I cried making him look at me.
He opened his mouth to say something then ran a hand through his hair. I could tell he was taking it back. "Yea I guess it is. Sorry Sora but it looks like things aren't going as planned. I have to go." Axel said in a soft tone and stood up, not looking at me once.
My whole body filled with desperation. He's leaving! He can't leave yet! Why did I have to open my big mouth?! I grabbed onto his arm and looked up at him bitterly with regret filling my eyes. "I had a lot of fun tonight." I said softly making him look down at me bitterly but with a soft smile on his face.
"Me too, kid. Me too." He answered and walked off into the night. I watched him for a moment then closed my eyes feeling the pain of his absence fill me. This is just a little crush… so why am I this upset over it?
I walked through the front doors of Merlin's house making Leon and Yuffie rush towards me in worry. I didn't listen to a thing they said and just walked up to my room feeling as though life was nonexistent at the moment. It's probably just because I'm tired… and that our fun night together ended so quickly.
When I got to my room, Riku was awake. I ignored him and crawled into my bed. He went in with me and stroked my hair laying down beside me. I didn't want to talk or even think. The only thing I wanted was to dream as many fantasies as possible of this night.
Because when I wake up… reality is going to be so cruel…
I walked into Namine's room the next day feeling a little scared. Riku, Leon, Cloud, Yuffie, and Tifa were all here cheering me on while Roxas only had Axel. The boy glared at me and glanced back at his lover who had no expression, just folded arms against his chest.
"All you have to do is walk into him, Roxas. After you do then I'll be forced to do the same with Kairi." Namine informed him and sat there with her sketchbook on the ground beside her feet. I could see a tint of sadness in her eyes knowing that this is the end.
Roxas smirked and walked up to me but just before he would enter my very being, the boy stopped. "When Axel comes again and pretends to love you… just remember that he's saying that to the me inside you." He smirked and entered my being.
Instantly I fell back, expecting to fall to the ground, but Axel caught me and thrust me up so I was standing tall again. I looked up at him and sighed knowing that he was seeing Roxas…
not me.
