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She had the perfect life. Perfect Job. Perfect house. Perfect husband and a baby on the way. She had it all. That is, until one singular moment took it all away...
Consumed by depression and barely afloat by great efforts from her closest friends. Afraid to let anyone in, throwing her entire being into her work.
After years of numbness she is thrust back into the land of the living by one singular moment. Amidst chaos and barely escaping death by the skin of her teeth thanks to the efforts of a local doctor.
It was only a matter of time before her job proved just how dangerous it is.
One singular moment where chaos and confusion strike the city square and innocent bystanders are struck in the cross fire. This moment brings two people together to save those helpless. Can what transpires after give Bella hope and a second chance? And is Edward capable of doing such a thing?
AU/AH First couple chapter pairings are Bella/Jacob eventual Bella/Edward, OOC
A/N: This chapter has been edited and slightly revised. Nothing significant has been added, just a few words and such.
This is a one hundred percent human story. Some of this is even for me to live vicariously through for a while. I will be majoring in the same things Bella is, going into the exact same career.
NOTE: If you are sensitive to depression, or topics associated with it, or thoughts of suicide do not read this story. Do not put me down or chew me out about it. I do have first hand personal experience with all the above. Though I don't know how detailed it might get I am warning you ahead of time that you may not like it. In the event of this I will post it before the chapter and if you chose not to read it I will send you a summary of the chapter in a PM.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. It belongs to Stephenie Meyer. I just play with her toys.
Chapter 1 - Heaven
I sat at the kitchen table eating my routine breakfast of eggs and toast with a glass of orange juice. Jake came up behind me kneeling down to my level, as he was much taller than I. His strong arms wrapped around my mid-section, wide hands traveling over my ever growing stomach lovingly, causing the baby to kick as if knowing its daddy was right there. Laying my fork down on the plate I rested my hands on top of his as he rubbed my stomach.
Jacob Black. My husband of two years. Best friend for ten. And the father to my unborn baby.
We had met freshman year of high school here in Phoenix, Arizona. It was lucky for me that he was around to catch me, as I have the habitual tendency to be clumsy and fall at the most random of times. We have been best friends ever since. Totally inseparable.
Friendship turned to dating, which became a serious relationship, then love and evolved into a marriage, with our first baby on the way.
"Ready to find out what the sex of the baby is," he asked in a subdued voice, fitting for the relaxed and peaceful atmosphere of the room.
I sighed, my head falling back gently onto his shoulder, our hands still rubbing lovingly over my stomach. "Hopefully the baby will cooperate so we can finally see. I'd really like to know."
"I hear ya, Bells." Jake's head swiveled around to kiss me tenderly on the cheek before he stood to make himself breakfast.
"What time do you want to leave the house?"
"Well since we will have to drive through the lunch rush traffic we should probably leave an hour ahead of time," I replied.
After finishing up breakfast Jake and I moved to the living room to watch some TV and relax. He always took the day off on the days that I have my OB/GYN appointments. Always saying, "I wouldn't miss for the sake of the world, Bells," whenever I informed him of the next date to visit with the doc. True to his word, he hadn't missed a single one yet.
Jake sat on the couch, turning on the cushion to rest his back against the arm-rest. I sat between his legs, laying with my back to his chest. This was our usual position and our hands automatically went to caress my stomach feeling for the movement of our baby.
I love and cherish times like these when we can relax and just entirely enjoy our time together before the little one arrives. Undoubtedly once he or she was here we won't get many opportunities to ourselves. Which was fine by me, I wouldn't give it up for anything.
I fell asleep as I mused over our life together.
Jake and I had always had a plan for life. First it started as two separate paths, but as we grew closer and our relationship become more heavily rooted together as our paths merged to one. I still remember, to this the day, the pact that we made so we could keep each other on track.
School let out a couple hours ago and, like normal, Jake and I sat in my room doing our homework. We often talked of the future, so it was no surprise when the topic came up again.
I decided it was time to make a pact. Throwing down my pencil I looked up at Jake. "I have a proposition," I blurted.
He looked at me in confusion from my left-field comment. "And just what would that be?"
"I just thought that since we talk about our future all the time, that we should make a pact. This way we can't get off track. I'll make sure you do everything you said you want to do and you'll do the same for me."
"I like that Bells! So how are we going to do this. Do we prick our finger or something?"
"Ew, Jake, no! Why would we do that, you know my problem with blood." He chuckled. I didn't find it funny, I had passed out way too many times from the sight and smell of blood. I can even smell it across the room!
I got woozy just thinking about it.
"I was kidding. Kind of. Well this was your idea so you should start explaining right?"
"Right. Okay." I paused to pick up my pencil again and my note book to write all this down. "We will write down everything we would like to accomplish in the next ten years. Then we will sign it. Forever binding us to the pact."
"Okay okay. This is excellent. You wanna start first?" I shrugged. "Kay I'll go. I want to graduate from high school of course." I wrote that down as he continued, "College. Majoring in…hmm…accounting. Since I like working with numbers. Start a career with my degree. Get married." My heart skipped a beat. Was he planning on marrying me? This has never been something we'd talked about. But, I kind of liked the idea. I'd have to bring this up to him later. "Then I would like to get a house. Followed by kids. You get all that down Bells?"
"Yup! Okay my turn. Graduate high school. College majoring in Law Enforcement. Start a career as a Probation Officer." Deciding to drop a hint, subtly showing him my approval of marriage, "Marry a handsome man." Jake beamed. "Buy my dream house where I can raise kids."
"That's great Bells!" I smiled wide at his approval. "So now what do we do?"
"We are going to sign this and then I am going to put it in a safe place where we won't lose it."
Jake gently nudged me from my dream a few minutes before we needed to leave. "You ready sleepy head?" I could hear the smile in his voice from his amusement over my constant drowsy state. I don't know why he teases me about it, he would be tired too if he was creating a life for nine months.
"Yeah," I yawned. "Just give me a couple minutes."
"Sure, sure."
I rose carefully from the couch with a little help from Jake since I couldn't do it on my own anymore.
After emptying my bladder for the fiftieth time, I walked back to the kitchen to grab my purse. Jake was already waiting for me, the keys jingling from his hand.
He gripped my tiny hand in his massive paw and we exited into the garage. We walked around to the passenger side where Jake helped maneuver me into the seat and quietly shut the door for me. He lightly jogged back around to the drivers side, started the car and opened the garage door.
Within forty minutes we arrived at the doctors office, checked in with reception, and took a couple seats in the lobby waiting anxiously to be called back.
"Isabella Black?"
Jake helped me up and we followed the nurse into the exam room.
"Alright, I think you know the drill by now, but in case not; remove your shirt and put on the gown, then make your self comfortable on the bed while you wait for your doctor to come in. Okay?"
I smiled a little, none to pleased about the gown and bed being "comfortable."
"Okay," I replied back to her.
After I changed, Jake helped me climb onto the exam table. A few minutes later my doctor came in.
"Hello Bella. How are you feeling," Dr. Gracey asked.
"I'm tired." We all laughed at my expense.
"That's normal. So you are twenty six weeks now. The last stretch of this pregnancy. Are you excited?"
"Yes!" Jake and I said together, causing us all to laugh again.
"Definitely nervous though. We are hoping the baby will let us see what it is!" I continued.
"It's normal to be nervous, too. Let me go grab the equipment and we will check on the little one," she said and we nodded in understanding.
Jake took my hand in his, and his other hand attached itself to my stomach, making a gentle circular rubbing motion.
Dr. Gracey came back in the room pulling the sonogram cart behind her. My hold on Jake's hand tightened in anticipation.
The doctor took a seat on the rolling chair beside the table, turning on the machine.
"Okay Bella, this will be a bit cold," she warned as she squirted the blue gel onto my abdomen. Even though I knew it would be cold I still flinched anyways.
She ran the Doppler across my belly, and settled on an area around the baby's head before moving lower. I was in awe as she passed over the features of our baby. The sounds of its' little heartbeat filling the room.
"Aha! There we go! The baby is cooperating today. You two have any guesses?" Dr. Gracey turned to look at us with a smile on her face.
"It's a boy. I'm certain," Jake said immediately. I had to disagree with him though.
"No, it's a girl," I countered. Dr. Gracey just smiled, not giving anything away. She went back to looking at the screen to determine the baby's sex.
"Okay… Looks like we have a…" She paused and looked back at us with another big smile. She was teasing us and I knew it. "Bella, Jake was correct. You're having a boy!"
"Woohoo!" Jake yelled, throwing his arms into the air and doing fist pumps like a mad man. I was shocked. I'd thought for sure it was a girl. Oh well. I was happy all the same. I smiled wide right along with him. "I'm gonna have a son! I can't believe it. Thank you, Bells! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you." He pressed his forehead to mine and gave me a chaste but passionate kiss.
By now I had tears in my eyes.
"Congratulations you two. I'll leave you to clean up and redress." Dr. Gracey left the room quickly, leaving us to celebrate privately.
I cleaned the gel off my skin and put my shirt back on. Still sitting on the table, Jake leant down wrapping his arms around my upper body and I brought my own arms around his neck burrowing my face into his neck. Silent, happy tears streamed down my face at a steady rate.
I couldn't believe we're going to have boy! Thrilled wouldn't describe how I felt. I didn't think any words could ever possibly describe it.
"Let's get home Bells." Jake eased me off the table. Wrapping his arm around my shoulders, we walked back to the receptionist to schedule our next appointment.
Neither Jake or I could wipe the grins off our faces, garnering strange looks from people as we walked to the lift. But we didn't care. Nothing could rain on our parade.
Exiting the elevator, we walked to the car. Jake opened the door for me again but stopped me before I could clumsily climb in. I looked at him confused.
He pulled me into a tight hug, filled with all the love I knew he had for me. I wrapped my arms around his waist and stood as close to him as I could manage with the baby in between us.
The baby gave a strong kick making Jake jump a little from being kicked in the stomach himself causing us to chuckle.
"Thank you so much, Bella. Thank you for everything you are doing for us. For putting your career on hold to carry the baby. For carrying the baby. For giving me a son. For being my wife. I love you so much. Thank you."
Those silent tears decided to come back full force again. "Thank you Jake. For everything as well. I love you too."
Pulling back a little, Jake took my face between his two paws, tilting my face for a kiss. It was filled with passion, adoration, love, joy and others I couldn't quite identify. More tears spilled down my cheeks from the intensity of the emotions that flowed between us.
Our baby flittered around again, reminding us of his presence, and causing us to chuckle once more before we broke apart.
We got in the car to drive back home. Unable to contain the news any longer I dialed the first person on the list.
"Hey Bella! You having a boy or a girl?"
"Anxious, are we, mom?" I chuckled, before continuing. "We're having a boy!"
"Oh that's wonderful! Phil! Bella's having a boy!" I heard Phil in the background yelling, "Woohoo!"
Sometimes the similarities between Jake and him freaked me out. And they weren't even related!
I called my two best friends next, killing two birds with one stone since they still lived together.
The phone rang once before Alice picked up.
"Boy or girl!" Alice shrieked. I had to pull the phone away from my ear to avoid going deaf.
"Whoa, jeez! Calm down there. Is Rose there, too?"
"Yeah, yeah she's right here. I'll put the phone on speaker." I heard movement on the other end, which I assumed was Alice moving the phone to the table.
When I knew they were situated I continued excitedly.
"We're having a boy!"
"A BOY!" They screamed in unison. "Congrats! We can't wait to go shopping. In fact we are going right now."
Next I called my brother, Emmett, and my father, Charlie. They were thrilled to have a nephew and grandson and I was thrilled that I could give that joy to them.
So far today had been perfect. I couldn't ask for more. I was definitely in heaven.
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