Ok... this is my first fanfic ever... i had this idea in my head and I decided to give it a try...it contains g!p...
I apologise if there something misspelled, english is not my first lenguage...
please don´t be to harsh haha... leave your comment and let me know what you think... I promise the story will get more intersting in the future chapters...
Disclaimer: I do not own glee and I do not own any of the characters.
" So what are you saying?, that you wanna breakup with me?". Santana asked while sitting up on the bed.
" San please, just...". Brittany replied turning her back to her.
" just what Brittany?, what the hell is going on?... look at me dammit!". She said rising her voice.
Brittany got up from bed and started looking for her clothes without making eye contact. Santana just stayed sit trying to read Brittany´s movements.
"San I think it´s going to be better this way". The blonde said as she stood up and put her underwear on.
"Better?... Better?. The latina said loosing patience. "Why is it going to be better, because i´m leaving to New York and you are staying to finish school?, because we´re going to be on different cities?, is that it?". She said as she stand from bed and started putting on her underwear too. When she was done she sat on the bed again, watching her "ex girlfriend?" finish getting dressed.
"Yes!... and no... it´s more complicated than that...".
"Then explain it to me!, because I don´t fucking get it".
Brittany was starting to get nervous. She didn´t know how to do this, or what words to use. She didn´t wanted to hurt Santana, but there was no other way.
"I don´t know how to do this, ok?. This is so freaking hard... You´re leaving in two days and I just can´t...!". The blonde tried to explain without being able to control the tears.
"Britt we talked about this... you said it was fine... we already agreed on you joining me there next year. It´s just a year!... and we´ll be together again!".
"San you know that things are going to be different... We´ll be miles apart, you´re going to meet new people and...". Britt said being interrupted by an angry brunette.
"What!... you´re suddenly worried about me meeting other people?, are you crazy?". Santana was starting to get desperate.
"What I´m saying is that maybe we should give us some time while we´re away. To try and see if we really are meant to be together... If we are then... we will be together again". She took a deep breath. "I don´t know if I can be with you right now". Brittany said trying to hide the real reason. The truth is that she thought she was not good enough for her. The truth is that since she found out that she was not graduating she felt embarrassed. She knew Santana was going to New York to follow her dreams to become a lawyer, she was too smart to be with her. She should be with someone as smart as her, maybe a girl that is also a law student, or a future doctor, or architect. I mean what would people think when they found out that she had to repeat her senior year because she was stupid enough to not show up to her classes. She had no future, Santana was moving on and She was stuck in Lima... alone.
The Blonde was still lost in her thoughts she didn´t hear when the latina was talking to her.
"Brittany, are you listening to me?, or now your ignoring me too?". Santana was hard with her words now. She didn´t understand what was going inside the blue eyed girl´s head, that was looking nowhere. "Where is this coming from? and why are you telling me this now?".
"San please, let´s not do this, ok?". She said quietly letting her tears fall freely now.
"So what?, I should just get up and leave now?... that´s it?" The brunette stood up angrily and walked closer to the other girl. "Why don´t you stop giving me this lame stupid ass excuses and tell me the truth, huh?... Come on!, what is it?... You don´t love me anymore?. You´re not in love with me anymore? Huh?... or there´s someone else?".
Of course there´s not someone else Brittany thought. There would never be someone else.
"Of course there´s someone else!. Who is it?... For god´s sake Brittany answer me!". Now she lost the little patience she still had. And Brittany was sobbing hard. "Who the fuck is it?" She was so angry that her face was turning red and you could see the veins in her neck.
"There is no one else, ok!. It´s me!... I can´t do this, ok?" The blonde said screaming too... "I swear there´s no one else" She said more calm.
Brittany´s room was now filled with silence. You could hear their breathing. Brittany was standing facing the bed where minutes ago they made love on. Her arms crossed tight over her chest. Tears kept on falling, making her eyes blurry. She just wanted to disapear. Santana on the other hand was looking closely at the blonde, trying to read her thoughts. She was mad, she wanted to scream and shake out the words from the other girl. Her hands now become tight fists, and her jaw clenched. The brunette didn´t understand the blonde´s sudden change. Everything was fine this morning. Dammit, they were happy fifteen minutes ago. But now the situation was just fucked up.
"You´re not gonna say anything?". The brown eyed girl asked. Brittany just closed her eyes while she lowered her head.
Silence...
"You know what?... Fuck this!". Santana said walking fast and angry around the room looking for the rest of her clothes, that were laying on the floor. The blonde opened her eyes surprised at the latina´s outburst. Shocked she started following her with her eyes.
"You wanna break up?, Fine!" She put her shoes on. "I don´t need this crap!... You know what I think?... I think you are full of shit!". They were looking at each others eyes. Santana was glaring at her. Brittany had surprise written all over her face, she didn´t like this. Santana never talked to her like that. But she knew she deserved it.
"I know i may look like an idiot, but don´t try to make me believe things I know they´re not true!... Don´t forget I know You!... Probably better than anyone... I know when you´re hiding stuff... I know there´s something you are not telling me!... Fuck! I thought you knew me better than that!... We were supposed to be honest with each other!... But that´s ok... You want things to be this way? ...cool!". Brittany couldn´t speak, she couldn´t breathe. She knew this was it... Things were about to end and she was starting to fall apart. But she had to do it. This was the best for Santana. She deserved better than her.
Santana grabbed her black jacket, cellphone and her car keys and walked to the bedroom door. She stood there facing the white wood for a moment that felt like hours. She opened it and gave the blonde girl one last look while shaking her head.
"I just hope you don´t regret this". And with that she walked out the room and headed to her car.
As she watched Santana leave she could no longer hold the pain. The blonde fell down on her bed and cried so hard she started shaking, the air hardly entering her lungs. This was the hardest thing she ever done in her life. She loved her so much she had to let her go. Even if it meant breaking her own heart.
Santana got inside her car, closing the door so hard she was surprised the window glass was still there. She started the engine and fast she drove away. Her hands holding so tight at the steering wheel that her knuckles where turning white. She was driving fast, not caring anything else than to get home as soon as possible. Her mind was replaying everything that just happened she didn´t even notice tears begun falling from her eyes. In no time she arrived to her house, and cursed herself when she saw her mother´s car outside.
Fast she got inside. Her mother was sitting on the couch reading some sort of file. Maribel looked at her daughter waiting for her to come give her a kiss. But the teenage girl passed right by her without saying a single word. As soon as the older latina saw the girls face she knew something was wrong.
"Hey Honey, are you ok?". Maribel asked. But the younger brunette ignored her and ran up the stairs. Next she heard was a door being slammed.
The women worriedly walked up the stairs and opened the bedroom door without knocking. Inside was Santana tearing down all the pictures, teddy bears, books, clothes, etc that belonged to Brittany.
"Dios Santana que haces?". (God Santana what are you doing?) Her mother asked watching her in shock. The young girl ignore her. "Detente ya mismo!". (Stop right now). She yelled, earning a glare from her daughter.
"No te metas en esto mama". (Stay out of it mama). She responded grabbing the trash can and throwing everything in it.
"Que haces con esas cosas?". (What are you doing with that stuff?). She asked incredulous.
"What does it look like I´m doing Ma?". Her mother grabbed her by the arm to try to stop her.
"Puedes explicarme porque estas tirando las cosas de Brittany?, que sucedio?". (Can you explain why you´re throwing Brittanys things?, what happened?).
"I Fucking hate her!... We´re done!... I don´t need this crap anymore!".
"What do you mean you´re done?... Honey please talk to me!"
"We´re done, ok?... she said she doesn´t want to be with be anymore... and you know what?, fuck her!, and fuck this!... I don´t fucking care anymore..."
"But why?, you guys where good yesterday, right?... baby tell me what happened?". Maribel said trying to comfort the young girl.
"I don´t know! I don´t fucking get it either... I thought everything was fine too... but i guess I was wrong... I don´t even understand her reasons and she didn´t bother to explain either... she just said that we should breakup because I´m leaving soon, that we should give us "some time"". Santana said using her fingers on the last words. "Whatever, she wanted to breakup, fine... I´m not gonna beg her to be with me". She finished putting all the blonde´s stuff in the bag and closed it.
"Santi no crees que estas exagerando?, quizas debas calmarte un poco y mañana volver a hablar con ella... seguramente solucionaran las cosas... ustedes se aman!". (don´t you think you are overreacting?, maybe you should calm down y tomorrow go back and talk to her... you sure will work things out... you guys love each other". Her mother said in a sweet voice. Taking the bag away from Santana.
The teenage looked at her mother with tears in her eyes. She felt exhausted and weak. Her mom was the only other person in the world, besides Brittany, that could calm her down. She admired the older women, and respected her so much. Maribel could be so sweet and harsh at the same time. She always made Santana see things from a diferent perspective and helped her comprehend things better. Mrs. Lopez is a very independent woman, a respectful lawyer, elegant, smart, attractive, known for her great sense of fashion (always wearing expensive designer clothes), a bit intimidating sometimes but very good person too.
"Ven aquí cariño". (come here sweetheart). Maribel hugged her daughter. "Everything is going to be ok... She´s probably just scared. I mean come on!, you are leaving in two days. And you are not gonna see each other in a while..." She said comforting the young girl. "Try to understand how she feels right now. Santi you have always been her "knight in shining armor"". The woman said amusingly. "You´ve been by her side since you guys met... And I think that you are the person that gets her the most in the whole world... and now you are moving to a complete different state... it makes sense that she´s afraid, right?". She pulled the girl from the hug and look at her with questioning eyes. Santana sniffed.
"I guess that could be possible". She said rolling her eyes.
"Now come on, wipe those tears from your face, and let´s finish packing your stuff... so that tomorrow you can spend the whole day with your girl". She said playfully.
"Ok... gracias mami". (thanks mom). Her mother kissed her on the forehead.
"No hay problema mi amor". (no problem my love).
They spend the rest of the evening packing the last few remaining things on Santana´s closet. When they are finished the young brunette lies on the bed waiting for dinner to be ready.
She grabs her cellphone thinking about texting Brittany, but then she remembers about the conversation she had whit her mom earlier and decides to text her best friend instead.
"Hey Q did u finish packing up ur shit? haha". Right now the only bright side of going to New York was that she was going with Quinn, her best friend. Well actually Quinn was going to Yale, in New Heaven, but they decided to travel together because of Santana´s new gift from her dad, witch consisted in a brand new black Land Rover LRX. The plan was to travel by car to New York first, so Santana could get settle, and then she would drive Quinn to other city. Most of their belongings were already in their respective apartments. Santana´s father, Andres Lopez, gave her an apartment a week later he found out his little girl had been accepted on the NYU program. The apartment was actually more like a penthouse, Andres bought it for Santana a year ago but he kept it a secret until the right moment.
"Almost done. what u up to?".
"I already finish packing. now just chillin"
"ohhh b´s with u?".
Santana didn´t know what to say. Should she tell her the girl was no longer her girlfriend or should she wait until tomorrow and see what happens?. She decided it was better to change the subject.
"nope... just me. r u excited bout our road trip ;)?"
"ughh sure, im looking foward to spend days sittin on my ass"
"haha come oooon it´ll be fun.. plus u get to spend priceless time with me!"
"HA! whatever u say babe... now let me get back to work, not everybody have their mom to pack their things for them"
"oooouchh! ur just jelous fabray... see u tmr!"
"see ya!".
Santana´s POV
I woke up this morning feeling really tired, I didn´t get much sleep last night. I can´t stop thinking about her. Im afraid about whats going to happen today. I want to work things out with Britt. I really hope my mom´s right about what she said, and that Britt´s just scared. I don´t know what I´ll do without her. I mean, we have always been ME and HER for everything. All the plans I had included her. The only reason I agreed on going to NY was because I knew she would join me eventually. She knew I would have stayed if she wanted me to, she just had to ask.
I take a shower with no rush. Get dressed and go have breakfast with just my mom now that my father left to work really early. Being a doctor made him be out of home a lot of time, but Im used to it.
"How did you sleep?". My mom asks. While I sit on the chair in front of her.
"Fine". I lie. She looks at me analyzing my facials. She knows me so well she knows I´m lying, but she doesn´t complain.
"ok, what are your plans for today?".
"uhhh I don´t know yet... I guess I´ll see after a speak with Britt".
"right, just get home before seven. Remember we have reservations for tonight". We are having dinner with the Fabray´s tonight. Our parents became really close since me and Quinn are going to college near each other.
"yeah ok". I answer as I get distracted watching the news. My mom gets up and grabs her briefcase.
"I´m leaving now... I´ll be back early though". She says kissing my head.
"mhm" I reply with cereal on my mouth.
"call me if you need anything, ok?... and good luck with Britt". I watch her walk out the kitchen.
I tried calling Brittany on her cell but she is not answering my calls. Shes ignoring me and I don´t like it. Next I call to her house.
"Hello?". Britt´s mother answers.
"Hi Annie, it´s Santana". I say.
"Oh, hey honey! how are you?". She asks cheerfully. I don´t think she´s aware of what happened between me and Brittany.
"good, good... ummm I was wondering if I could speak with Britt".
"Oh! she´s not home right now. Have you tried calling her on her cellphone?".
"yeah I did, but probably she forgot it somewhere cause shes not answering...". I know she didn´t forget her cell, she just doesn´t want to talk to me. "Do you know where she went?".
"I think she said she was going to the park with some friends". I guess that´s where I´m going now.
"Ok Annie, thank you very much... have a nice day".
"you too sweetie, bye"
I just parked my car and now I´m walking to the pond, hoping to see Britt there. I´m sweating, I´m not sure if it is because it´s particularly hot today or because I´m nervous. Today is friday, and theres people walking with their dogs and kids playing everywhere. I´m looking around searching for some blonde headed girl. And I see one now... she´s sitting on a bench but I can´t tell if it is Brittany yet, cause I don´t see her face from where I am.
As I get closer I notice the girl is not alone, there´s a boy sitting next to her. I´m still far from them. The girl turns her face to the side and I confirm that it´s Brittany. I look at the guy next to her and I see he´s on a wheelchair... Artie... Suddenly I stop, not sure why. I know it´s not cool to spy on people, but I can´t help it. I don´t know what I´m expecting to see. They haven´t see me. Maybe because between me and them theres people walking by and some trees. She seems to be talking about something, her head is down. I´m debating with myself if I should go there or not. I get my answer when I see them hugging each other... but wait.. it´s just a hug, right?... they start to pull apart, but not entirely cause now he´s holding her face and he starts to get closer... Instantly I shut my eyes tight... I can´t watch this right now... I open them not until I turn around and start walking, almost running, back to my car.
I can´t believe this. She´s such a hypocrite and a liar. I feel so stupid. I can´t believe she lied to my face and swore me this whole thing wasn´t about someone else. I´m so angry right now, but at the same time surprisingly calm too. A part of me wants to go back there and scream some not nice things to her, and maybe a few to him too. But I´m not gonna do that... probably that´s what they would expect from me. Not anymore though.
I get inside my car and star to drive quietly. I don´t know if it´s such a good sign that I´m this calm in a situation like this. Maybe e few months back Snix would have taught them a lesson. Whatever, they are not worth it. The only thing that bothers me the most is that I´ve never saw this coming. I never thought she would do something like this to me. She has been lying all along.
It´s just hard to believe that she lied yesterday when she said she loved me multiple times while I made love to her.
All I want right now is for this two days to pass by fast so I leave all this shit behind. I know it´ll be hard but I have to do it.
