Blood on the Wall, Chapter 1. Memory

I can't remember the last time I smiled. The last time I cried. I can't remember any of my birthdays. Or who my parents were. Or any friends I had. If I had any. Was I important? Did I mean anything? There is one thing I can remember. The blood on the wall.

At the Psychiatric Hospital

"Interrupting the sunrise again, aren't we." I snarled as I heard the knock on my door. I keep my eyes focused outside. Watching the sea of orange, pink, and yellow. "May I come in?" the innocent voice of hers asked. I still sat silent on my lumpy bed but she came in anyway.

"I brought your food Miss Albarn."

I turned my head just enough to see her. "Just set it down on the floor." I said, annoyed.

She put it on the floor gently while I turned back to face the window. Sometimes I wonder why she was like this, if she was always like this. Why must she talk to me? I'm a jerk to her. But that's just all the more fun.

"Get out before I make you, Tsubaki."

"Yu-you know my name?" she stuttered.

I rolled my eyes. "You think I can't hear you outside this room?" I looked at her. She stepped back, feeling threatened.

"You always talk to some guy out there. Something about me. I always listen but you never know when I am. Who is that guy that you always talk to? What aren't you telling me?"

All she did was sigh. "I'll be going now." She quickly opened the door and left, making sure she locked the door. I looked at my food and laughed. She put an extra pudding on my plate. "Ah, she pities me. How delightful."

Tsubaki's P.o.v

I don't pity her. But, I guess that's what she would think. She doesn't remember me. Or anybody else. Like Black star, Kidd, Liz, Patty, Blair, Stein, even Spirit. And especially Soul. And so many more. She doesn't remember any of them. And she might not be able to again. It's probably bad that I'm listening. My ear was pinned to the door.

Maybe this was a bad idea. I'll just see what happens in the end. I walked down the stairs, back to the front desk, with many hellos and discussions about the summer that was coming up. "Hey Tsubaki, what are you doing for the fourth of July?" Kim asked after I was at my desk. "Well, I think my parents are going to come here and spend some time with me and Black star." She had a dorky smile on her face. "So, is there anything going on between you and Black Star?"

I smirked at the remark. "No, at least not yet." She giggled. "Maybe something will happen." I shrugged. "I guess." I said, putting some files away. Kim leaned on the filing cabinet and crossed her arms.

"Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why do you have this job? Ever since Lord Death and the academy were destroyed we all had to fend for ourselves and live normally. With jobs and everything. Why did you pick this one?"

"I don't know. I get to see my best friend everyday. That's good though, right?"

I sighed. "She's different than she used to be. Like, her attitude's changed."

"I wonder how Soul would feel about it. It kinda sucks though. Nobody except you has seen her for two years."

"Yeah, I know. Soul hasn't come out of his room for a few weeks when I told him she hasn't improved."

"I guess this means he might have had feelings for her. But it might just be because of how close they were."

I hummed, "Yeah."

"Maybe you should cheer him up with a movie. Movies are fun."

"Okay, that sounds good." I smiled. Kim checked her watch and said "Well, I got to go. I'll see you on Monday for the last week of school, okay?"

"Okay." Kim turned to leave but turned herself around.

"I hope everything gets better. It must be hard having your best friend not knowing who you are. If only Maka knew who you really were..."

"That would make it better."