"I wonder how you say goodbye to someone forever?"
~Ann M. Martin

I never thought I could be this empty. Ever.

Not even when I was cast out of my father's mansion. Cast away from my birth family and my name and title.

Not even when I was flitting from Family to Family.

My name is Gokudera Hayato. Right Hand Man to the Tenth Generation of the Vongola Family.

And I am empty.

I have to see him every day.

See him smile like nothing happened.

Like he had never broken my heart.

Like he had never taken my first kiss.

See him flirt with all the other girls like I was nothing.

Like he was never attracted to a male at all.

And it killed me inside.

But at the same time, I couldn't help glancing his way.

Couldn't help attending the baseball practices.

Couldn't help craving that twist in my heart whenever I saw him.

How am I supposed to say goodbye this way?

I'm so used to saying goodbye whenever someone died.

Death, I know.

But this, is so unfamiliar it rips me apart.

Being in love, but not being loved in returned.

Not being loved is normal.

I know that too.

But having HAD been loved, and now no longer.

That I don't know.

I'm a masochist.

I seek him out, even though I know it will bring me pain.

He doesn't even look at me.

And it brings me so much pain.

I have to say my goodbye.

I have to move on.

But how do I say goodbye to love forever, when I only just started feeling it?

I just went through a horrible, horrible breakup. So expect some really angsty 8059 coming your way.