AN: Wednesday morning when I woke up my little brother was watching our DVR recording of Glee, but it was the very end. (If you haven't seen the end of the yes/no episode & don't want it to be spoiled, look away now & I suggest not reading until you have at least watched the last 5 mins) Anyway so I wake up to Finn proposing to Rachel & that's when I wanted to yell at the TV. I was hoping it was just a bad dream. Unfortunately it was not. But hey I'm maybe she says no. I don't know about y'all but I've been extremely disappointed with this season; not the music, just the writting & all the plots & drama. It's kind of ridiculous. Well I was sitting in class later that day and this popped into my head. It's kind of weird because it's not really matched up with the show, time wise. But oh well. Everything in this story is a tad off from the show besides the fact that Finn proposed, everything else is how I wish thing would go down. So sorry for any mistakes and I hope you like it.
Disclaimer: Oh how I wish I owned Glee, but I don't. If I did Finchel would be over & Puckleberry would reign supreme :p nor do I own "Say Goodbye" by Chris Brown
Chapter 1-Say Goodbye
There's never a right time to say goodbye, but I gotta make the first move 'cause if I don't you gonna start hating me. 'Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you…We just can't go on pretending that we get along. ~Chris Brown
This was not what she had been expecting when she walked into the auditorium looking for Finn; him asking her to marry him. The most surprising part was that her heart wasn't telling her to say yes. This had been what she had wanted, right? It was supposed to be like a fairytale; they'd get married, she'd become a star, and live happily ever after. However, every part of Rachel, especially her head and her heart, was screaming at her. NO, NO, NO! Say NO!
For the longest time she had dreamed about how Finn would propose, their wedding, and their whole lives together. But that was then, and now that it was actually happening all she could think was that it didn't feel right. Rachel started making lists in her head despite feeling like immediately saying no. For each positive, a voice in her head came up with a negative. He had picked one of her favorite spots, on stage, the ring was beautiful, but when she looked at Finn the first thing that came to mind was that he wasn't the right guy. He didn't have the right colored eyes; they should be hazel and go along with a ridiculous haircut. Rachel was shocked by her own thoughts. Maybe if she had been in the same mindset she had been in for most of high school it would be different. But she was different now; she had grown and learned things about herself and the people around her this year.
Rachel didn't know how long she had been standing there without saying a word, but it feel like an eternity. She had always been one to know exactly what she wanted in life, like Broadway. In this instant Rachel knew one thing she didn't want and that was to be married to Finn. Sure part of her would always care for him, he was her first love, but Finn was Lima and Rachel was leaving Lima behind. In all honesty, she knew that he would have gone to New York with her, but she also knew that he wouldn't be happy. Finn wasn't meant for New York, not like some of the other glee kids were. Rachel and Kurt were both heading to NYADA. Mike was going to Julliard. Quinn, who wasn't too upset about not getting into Yale, would be going to Columbia. And with a lot of hard work and long hours on both his and Rachel's part, Puck was going to NYU.
When he had shown up on Rachel's doorstep with an unopened letter from the Office of Admissions, practically having a panic attack, saying he couldn't open it she asked if he wanted her to. When he nodded, Rachel gently grabbed the envelope and opened the letter. As she started to unfold it, she couldn't help but notice how her heart raced, and how much she prayed that this was an acceptance letter. Puck had looked on nervously as she read, she didn't give anything away. At least until she almost tackled him, screaming, "You did it! You got it! I knew you would!" When she finally looked at him her lips were dangerously close to his, but Puck was gone, Noah in his place so he placed a chaste kiss on her forehead and whispered thanks over and over again into her hair. Rachel scolded herself when she felt a twinge of disappointment from not really kissing him, you have a boyfriend; and it's not him. She felt guilty that she wanted to kiss him, but even worse when she realized that that statement wasn't entirely true.
Rachel knew it was time to answer Finn; his hopeful smile had begun to turn into a worried one and for good reason. She stumbled a little when she spoke, trying to think of a way to let him down easy, "Finn…we haven't even graduated yet..."
Finn interrupted her, "its ok we can wait until after graduation to actually get married, and then we can get a house with a big back yard, get a dog and have the white picket fence and everything. I can work at Burt's shop and take classes…"
Now it was Rachel's turn to interrupt because, as much as she wanted to let him down easy, the fact that he had expected her to stay in Lima sent a wave of anger washing over her. She tried to let it pass and once she was certain she could continue without hitting him, she got on with it, "Finn, I can't do this. I can't marry you. I'm so sorry."
"Why not, don't you love me?"
"Do you hear yourself?" her voice rising with anger once again, "if you loved me you wouldn't want me to stay in Lima. You just expected that if we got married I would give up my dreams. Finn I told you, that nothing will keep me from New York, not even you. I am truly sorry, but this has to end."
"So you're breaking up with me, too?" he sounded broken and shocked.
"Yes, I am. Again, I'm sorry, but you aren't the right guy for me. You might have been before, but not anymore." Rachel reached around her neck and unhooked the Finn necklace she wore. She took the necklace and put it in his hand. She sent him one last apologetic look before walking out; waiting until she was outside the auditorium before letting the tears fall. She felt like a horrible person, but she knew that if she had stayed with him she wouldn't be happy and neither would he. Rachel needed someone to talk to, but Kurt was with Blaine driving to their date night location. Oh my goodness Kurt! What will he say? Now she really needed to talk to someone so she grabbed her phone and dialed a number that had recently been being used more often, "Quinn, are you busy? Can I come over?"
AN2: I realize this is short, but I had planned on this being a one-shot. However the longer I wrote, more I realized that wasn't going to happen. So I decided to split it up. I'm not finished with the whole thing yet, but I do have the next chapter & a half written so it shouldn't be too long til the next update. Well anywho I hope you like it so far.
