Chapter 1
Man I wish I had a boyfriend. All my friends have one and I'm usually the third wheel and let me tell you it sucks! Unfortunately I'm not "gorgeous" enough for any of the guys because either they cheat on me or they "just want to be friends" ! All my friends always talk about how they found "the one" for them and it honestly makes me gag! You're not going to find the one when you're only 15. That my friend is impossible because you either a.) get tired of him b.) cheat on him or c.) break up over something ridiculous. I just want someone to make me feel like I'm worth something. Someone to make me feel loved. I'm not looking for my soulmate here.
See I really love this guy named Edward, but he is clueless. I gave up on him because just like the rest of them, he's guess what? Not interested! Everyday I think about him and I get really depressed because he doesn't like me. He's been my best friend ever since 1st grade and I had a huge crush on him but like all crushes it went away. But this year my first crush became my latest one. I see him everyday and I can't help but stare at him in all his glory. He seemed like just a regular person before, but now he is always in my mind and I love it!
This is the ONLY time I wish I was gorgeous, not giving up my tomboy ways though of course. See that's how much I love Edward. But see I'm not going to give up everything to be with him. No guy is worth that much. I'm just saying that I really love Edward. Well I'll just have to keep daydreaming because he's not going like me.
